spring onion

we just had this major furniture shifting kind of session. it was just my dad, my mum and myself. and we moved the piano! haha...then we were having this interesting conversation about the three delivery guys who came to deliver the piano and they we like superbears and as compared to them we were only koala bears.

Labels: rants

i seem to have lost my ability to think straight these few days, post some really, in my opinion, great posts. those when you read you can get something out of it rather than just volumes of whining that takes you nowhere.

but whining sometimes helps also. like when you're about to explode or something. anyway. i'm stressed. hahah!

okays. today i did productive stuffs. i practiced really hard today! like i fine tuned. everything. going to GE really changes my whole...practice schedule and the way i practice so i think its quite fine. haha. i feel like a perfectionist now. heh. haha...oh and i'm back to the time, whereby i have to play 50times of a phrase consecutively without mistakes before moving on if not recount. but i get to improve after that.

today i had the whole house to myself from 4.30. but i only started practicing after 6.3o...until after 8.30 before 9pm. yeah.

okay. i'm seriously extremely bothered right now.

i'm so disturbed right now that i cant even blog properly and i cant think properly.

i want to blog about jingying, about co, about guzheng, about music. i just cant. its so disturbing. and things cant just cool down like that. like you say you want it to cool, and it just cools. it doesnt.

jingying was great, dont mistake me. it was awesome. i've never seen such geniuses before and i'm honoured to have the chance to join them and stay long term and learn and grow. when i was there, the music just struck me still. and i think the guzhengs there need some servicing. haha...

well. i'm in no state to talk to anybody right now. i might just do something stupid.

sunday school. and cell. sheesh. and the camera. :( crap lah.

haha okay. i've got enough stuff on my plate right now so i'm washing my hands off stuff. last straw already...i've spent my last straw. so yup. not that i dont wanna care, i still care and i'm still concerned. so i think i'll let things cool for a while.

anyway. D: concert exam jingying concert exam jingying concert exam jingying.

lalala. anyway, yeah. concert!!!!

exam!!!! yuergao.

:( jingying. i heard that its horrible. so its haha. its freaking me out alr!!!

heh, but i think it'll be good experience so. yup.

today cca was :/ heh. okay. i could tell that laoshi was stressed and all haha. but today the concert pieces were much better. :) there were some good news and heh we were over the moon. hantianlei can memorise already, but i still cant memorise yiguren :( seriously, its really hard to memorise and its like okay. there are some parts with melody but it is minimal! so out of like 8 pages, i can only memorise like only i dont know...1/2? bleh.

but time passed fast today (: the first time i looked at my watch it was 1230. the next time i looked at it, it was already 1530. then the last time i looked at it, it was alreadt 1645. i hope the concert would be a good one though. i mean, effort was put into it so it should be something. i heard that half of the tickets were sold. if i didnt hear wrongly. so yeah.

tmr would be a long day. haha, whatever exchanged on the cab today with laoshi and yuhui freaked me. and whatever yuhui told me also freaked me. first time go then solo and somemore must change to some weird keys that i've never heard before. anyway, yuhui's gonna send some list to me. i've never aced sightreading and i hope it will help. really nervous. hah.

sheesh. sunday school this week. cell on the same day also and i havent even prepared a single bit. i still have stuff to do. :( i see that next week's gonna be a longer week. so. hah.

anyway, my title. dishes. i've got enough on my plate already. forget it, i dont wanna explain. so just yeah. figure it out on your own.

i've been sleeping late and waking early. and wah. yueergao :( okay. needa reach school at an whooping hour tmr. 12.o.clock. and the past few days i've been waking up at 7 lorh. sleep at 6 wake up at 7. and i sleep because i fall asleep while doing work. blah.

anyway, i realise i'm whining again. so i shall stop and say byebye to the time eating monster.

1. What do people usually call you?
cherie,sharie,springonion,stupidcherie,pluto,brother -__-
2. Do you have freckles?
nope
3. Have you ever been to another country?
yeah...malaysia counted?
4. Do you feel comfortable dancing in public?
yeah...i've danced in a concert before...
5. Have you ever kissed a mirror?
i dont even LOOK into the mirror...
6. Do you still talk to your bestfriend from when you were 14?
yeah...but its kind of expected since i'm like 2 months to 15
7. Can you skateboard?
what do you think?
8. Do you own an iPod?
nuh uh...
9. What was your favorite tv show as a kid?
i suppose some doraemon cartoon :D
10. Do you still have feelings for an ex?
i'm a good kid okayyyy, i dont have a boyfriend luh.
11. Would you rather bungee jump or sky dive?
hahahahhaha...
12. Who is the hottest celebrity?
uh. haha...i dont like to yeah. stalk celebrities...
13. Who was the last person to call you?
linls
14. Do you like to text message?
depends on who and what and when
15. What kind of music do you listen to?
most i guess...but generally i just listen to christian rock. waha
16. Did the movie Titanic make you cry?
uh. haha...maybe.
17. Have you ever punched someone?
yeah...
18. Has anyone ever punched you?
hahah yeah...when i punched my sis and she punched me back
19. Have you ever been dumped?
i'm guai.............................
20. Big dogs, small dogs, or cats?
what about terrorpins?
21. How many cars have you owned?
toy cars counted? hahaha....no luh. i have this phobia of driving so i'll probably stick to taking public transport
22. Do you call your bestfriend everyday?
nope...theres something called msn...email...friendster...i'm not about to well, overspend my minutes....
23. What do you live in?
singapore...
24. Have you ever gotten drunk?
well...yeah. hahah but it was because i ate this chocolate filled with hard liquor...
25. Have you ever stolen anything?
what if i said yes? what if i said no?
26. Who do you think about the most?
depends on what time and when and what did i do...
27. What is your most prized possesion?
my heart :)
28. Do you like to watch tv?
i think its a time waster
29. When is the last time you went to the movies?
uh. hahah you mean where? cinemas or at home...
30. Do you wear glasses or contacts?
glasses....
31. What country would you most like to visit?
england...somewhere normal
32. Do you think anyone could ever really be satisfied?
yeah...why not
33. Are you religious?
yeah...but i dont really like the term 'religious'
34. Do you live with your parents?
yeah....
35. Would you like to live to be 110 years old?
maybe yes, maybe no...i've got this...thing that says that i'll die at 21...in a car accident.
36. Have you ever approached someone of the opposite sex?
of course...why not...
37. Do you kiss on the first date?
hahahaha....i'm very guaiiiiiiiiiiiiii.....third time already
38. What hair color do you like most on the opposite sex?
as long as its not weird colours like....purple...blue...green...
39. When is the last time you took a shower or bath?
about 24hrs ago...and 25hrs ago i was standing in front of my wardrobe chanting, 'i dont want to shower'
40. Have you ever been to a concert?
yeah...what do you expect? i appreciate art
41. Do you talk to your parents?
yeah...who doesnt?
42. How many siblings do you have?
three :) and i love them..
43. Do you like to have your picture taken?
depends on when, where and how and how moody am i
44. Do you have more girl friends or guy friends?
more close guy friends than close girl friends. definitely more girlfriends than guy friends, i'm in a girls school!
45. Have you ever played in the rain?
hahah what a funny question...of course, when there're crazy people around
46. Ever seen a tornado?
on the media...yes
47. How many meals do you eat a day?
they vary from day to day :)
48. Who do you most resemble in your family?
everybody? ahhahaha
49. What kind of accent do you have?
normal i guess....
50. How long have you known your bestfriend?
since...2years ago

pictures as promised :) peekaboo! :) nice huh....haha...so cute
head to tail....
and head to head! or would you rather...lips to lips? hahah....okays...

i'm always finding stuffs to do these days...hahah...in other words, i'm bored. thanks to the holidays, but i'd rather be bored than you know, go to school and everything. its a nice little break :) not to mention how bored i am right now....

but i shant waste time doing crap quizzes and well waste my time. i shall post about something that i've been wanting to post about for sometime already :)

my current favourite bands are casting crowns and delirious. used to be planetshakers a while ago but i realised that planetshakers have a lot of songs that have repititive lyrics so yeah. i mean, its basically just the same few words but that doesnt mean that they arent good. and its not like you're going to get bored of them after a while, i listen to their songs on my way to school or on my way home for the past 1 1/2 years.

after a while i decided to 'explore' some other bands, and discovered delirious. andi realised that delirious' music is more deep and that they have really good music and yeah. maybe because they're older or more matured. planetshaker's music is more or less the same style, i mean i can tell, even if its my first time listening to it.

and casting crowns, their songs are more deep than delirious.

planetshaker's more of worshipping God kind of music, like praise Him kind. those you have to jump shout kind. as in, really actives ones luh. then delirious deals more with feelings and explanations, reassurance. casting crowns' like, questioning your faith and at the same time strengthen it. yup. that's about it. hahahah

hillsongs idk leh. they are less noisy in a sense that they're almost the total opposite of planetshakers.

fav albums:
planetshakers - all that i want
casting crowns - the altar and the door
delirious - now is the time

i've never heard sonicflood before. i should listen to it since now i have loads of time in my hands...

sheesh. grade 8 exam is like in less than 2 weeks. D: okays. everything's fine except for yueergao. at least now i can play it. but its so....well. haha. i'll be glad when exams over and i had done it well...

distinctiondistinctiondistinction.

and after 28th nov, i'll have to think about yiguren.

not that i'm not thinking about it now, but yeah. i think i'll play it like 50times a day like during syf period.

lalalala. shoe :) i've been ha-ig a lot! haha...oh. i'll be back :) i'll post pictures of my terrapins!!!!!

they're springonion and onionspring :) haha. too bad, they dont have a creative owner :) awwwww

painpainpainpainpain!! :(

i seem to whine a lot these days, whatever.

//edit

i know i've posted this song before...but i find it great. so yeah. :)

Prayer for a Friend

Lord, I lift my friend to you
I’ve done all that I know to do
I lift my friend to you
Complicated circumstances
Have clouded his view
Lord, I lift my friend up to you

I fear that I won’t have the words
That he needs to hear
I pray for your wisdom, Oh God
And a heart that’s sincere
Lord, I lift my friend up to you

Lord, I lift my friend to you
My best friend in the world, I know
He means much more to you
I want so much to help him
But this is something he has to you
And, Lord, I lift my friend up to you

‘Cause there’s a way that seems so right to him
But you know where that leads
He’s becoming a puppet of the world
Too blind to see the strings
Lord, I lift my friend up to you

My friend up to you
Lord, I lift my friend to you
I’ve done all that I know to do
I lift my friend to you

its a cool song. i just heard it. sometimes it does not just apply to non-christians, or so i feel. just yeah. havent we all been puppets before? anyway, i've been seeing a verse a lot these days. i feel that there's something that i should do, but i dont know what. but its been making an impact on me. really.

2corinthians12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

i mean...ain't it cool? i've been sharing it a lot on quite some occasions. and through this, i realised that memory verses do work. but yeah. to make a verse stay in your head forever...it really takes events to make an impact on it.

its like, you've done something wrong and it's as though the whole world hates you for it. and you feel bad and you start shutting yourself up and then this verse just comes and yeah. you just remember it. you see it once, and then it just stays in your head.

there've been a lot of questions that i would like answers for, but they dont always come. i guess God likes all these thrill of finding answers.

the answers dont just come like that, you really have to have a sincere heart that tells God, look God, can you just tell me the answer? i really want it. even so, it might not come.

its just like why can't we all have boyfriends/girlfriends before 21 years old? to me, all these reasons about parents complaining and not setting a good example for the younger kids, i dont really buy them. it somewhat makes it sound as though the pastoral team is scared that it'll ruin the church's reputation. honestly, anyone who's crazily in love is crazy enough to break rules, and wouldnt be sane enough to buy the idea of setting a good example. yada. even maturity doesn't sound exactly convincing to me now. it just sounds like peanut toppings to the other reasons. it might break the couple up, but it doesnt exactly deal with the root of the problem.

the thing is, God hasnt told me why he says no yet. but today i sort of found and answer yeah. it doesnt really helps me understand why i cant do this/that. but when i saw the verses, i just stunned there.

i flipped open the bible and the first verse was:

Hebrews13:1
keep on loving each others as brothers. (God said keep on loving each other as brothers, nothing more than that. just love each other as siblings. i think this verse's the most important, answered my question straight away that it wouldnt work if you continued to hang out with him. because God only wants you to treat him as a brother, love him as you would love your own brother.)

Hebrews13:7
remember your leaders, who spoke the word of God to you. Consider the outcome as their way of life and imitate their faith. (listen and heed what your church leaders told you about bgr. If their way of life is to put God and church first, if they care about the church's reputation, then you be like them too. Imitate their faith, imitate their faith in God, that they will receive more blessings from God than from their boyfriend if they believe in staying away from bgr until 21.)

Hebrews 13:17a
obey your leaders and submit to their authority. they keep watch over you. (reinstating the previous verse.)

and God ended this answer finding session with a wonderful verse.

James 4:4
you adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred towards God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God. (not obeying what your church leader/cell leader wants you to change, for the better = being friends of the world. theres no such thing like 90% of your love for God and 10% split for your parents, boyfriend etc etc. You have to love the other people through God. you love your parents because God says you have to. therefore, you shouldnt even have a boyfriend in the first place. you love him like how you would love your brothers. you shouldnt love him out of lust, but out of love for God.

great...right? but it still doesnt answer your question as to when you can have a boyfriend/get married.

i found the answer today, though i havent found the reference to the bible yet. anyway,

Even at 30, God will not show you the right person if you're still not spiritually strong yet. but if you are, at say 18, he will show you the right person.

God has already planned everything out for you, dont ruin it by personal lust.

are you spiritually strong yet?

today was a shitty day. at least it did, but it ended quite okay.

after sleeping after 4 for 4 days, i thought today would be better. but well, i felt sick and i threw up my dinner at about 12. then i decided that i wasnt feeling good so i shall go to bed early, leave all the work to tomorrow. i went to bed at 2, but woke up at 4.30 and threw up everything i ate the previous day, which wasnt much. i only had 2 meals, and they were pathetic. so yeah. i felt so sick to the stomach that i couldnt sleep and just laid in my bed till about 7 and i couldnt stand it anymore and decided to get a cup of tea and read a book. left home at 9.

waited for eons for someone in the morning, totally destroyed my morning. i hate it when i have to wait for people, waste so much time. and when the person doesnt apologise, it just makes it worse. i've never liked waiting. its seriously a time eating monster.

then because of that, i was late for 1/2 for cca. various reasons luh, i could have met up in the evening, but yeah. i was fed up already. cca wasnt good also. especially 憶故人。its been so sucky for months. and its still as sucky. no offense, but today i felt so lousy that i'd rather i'm dead and have people sing my requiem instead.

i felt so...dead that i slept throughout the journey back to yishun. and i decided that i needed sometime of my own, and went to get some stationery. not that i'm in a desperate need of them...but seeing loads of pencils and pens and books makes me happy. dunno.

then i went to the library, 3rd time in 2 days. returned and borrowed another 4 books. cool huh.

reached home at 8. realised that i needed to help junior photocopy science papers. went out again. mood was so lousy that i didnt even realise that i was hungry from not eating a single thing from morning. bought ribena while waiting for the papers to get photocopied.

talked a little to my sis, recounted funny events to my sis. cheered up a little. walked for an hour. felt better.

decided not to eat today, or i'll have another awful night. should just starve myself so that i wont be able to be able to turn up for 2nd dec.

watched silly little videos which made me feel better.

man, i dont even feel hungry. what's wrong with me.

when i read your blog, i thought of Jesus.

your dreams...they wouldnt be perfect without Jesus.

the best gift to give someone is Jesus, and the best gift to give to Jesus, is that someone.

i prayed for forgiveness yesterday night, or rather, early this morning. i seem to sleep at crazy hours. like today was the 4th day i slept after 4. but i still wake up early, like 9.20? anyway, i side tracked.

yeah. i prayed for forgiveness. i was mean to almost everyone during the weekend. and well. and i remembered some nasty stuff. and i just laid it all in God's hands. and today i felt much better.

Lord, i feel that you're leading me, like the others who wrote the testimonies i've read. Lord, i just want to pray now that you'll continue to be my guide, and that i'll follow you Lord. Lord, teach me the right things to do such that they'll be able to be free in you, again Lord. Lord, let them see you, and let them hear your voice.

Lord, i thank you for using me, and i thank you for allowing me to serve in more than 1 way. Lord, i thank you for making my day great and everything. Lord, i just want to pray now for each and every one of the people who needs help and people i'm in contact with so that they can experience your love and grace just as i did. Lord, i put the above prayer in your hands along with all those whom i'm praying for. Lord i look forward to each new day such that i can get closer to you.

Lord, bless this saturday as i've seen you line things up for me, to do to serve you. Lord, i just want to commit this saturday into your hands and i trust that you'll make a way, for each and everyone present to find a way out of the toil and troubles they're facing right now.

Lord, i pray that you'll give each of them strength. those who have decided to commit their lives into your hands, or those who're still deciding who is Lord. Lord, i pray that your grace and love may rest on them tonight as they go to bed or pray to you. i pray that you'll help them get through this night with their minds full of things to think about.

Lord, i may not know what problems do they have, but Lord, i want to commit them into your hands and i believe that you'll help them get through their rouch patches in their life for you are all faithful and loyal and loving.

Lord, i thank you again for showing me the way and your guide for me. i pray that i will be a great testimony for you with my life, and that i'd like to commit my life into your hands once again Lord

Lord, i know i get agitated easily and i have lousy temper. Lord, i see you work on me already and i would like to thank you for helping me improve. Lord, i just want to pray now just to get closer to you Lord, for i have seen how great and wonderful you are. Lord, i want to commit my hands into your life. Lord, use me as you see fit and let me live my life for no one else but you. Lord, let me please let me be your servant. just use me.

Consuming Fire

Verse 1:
There must be more than this
oh breath of God come breath within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for you
Fill us anew we pray
Fill us anew we pray

Chorus:
Consuming Fire
Fan into flames passion for your name
Spirit of God fall in this place
Lord have ur way
Lord have ur way with us

Verse 2:
Come like a rushing wind
Fill us with power from on high
Now set the captives free
leave us abandoned to your praise

Lord let your glory fall
Lord let your glory fall

(repeat chorus)

triskaidekaphobia is a morbid fear of the number 13 or the date Friday the 13th.

that was random, my post has got nothing to do with that word, i just find it interesting, and perhaps good to know. (:

i got a little agitated just now...so pardon me if i offended anyone.

ah. i've been feeling lousy for a while now. like 've been sleeping after 4 for 3 days in a row already and waking up rather early at 9? mean, i usually wake up way later than that. i just get woken up. and things arent encouraging either.

i just read some emails that i wrote to a friend and friends who wrote to me. they were nasty little things and i get reminded of them so often. of all the things i've asked forgiveness for, that's one thing that i've burried for so long. it's time to lay it out at Jesus' feet.

Its not like God didnt know that i had sent those email, but i've read somewhere before that He would want us to tell Him personally of our sins and ask for forgiveness personally.

for cell i guess it was okay. i shared during warmth again, not that i'm tired of doing it or what, but it somehow shows that i'm getting things from God every week. and i'm glad that i'm growing.

its good that now 'm going back to the bible more often, in fact more than i've ever done. its good that i look forward to church every saturday and cell too. not for the people, but to experience God again. its good that i'm trying to control more now, and not shout. before i shout, i sort of think through for something nicer to say, which i guess is good also.

but i still have to self-restrain more. but i saw some kind of improvement in myself on saturday. like i'll tell myself, cherie, concentrate on God. and i'll immediately snap back. i think ts great, i havent really had a real good time with God for some time already.

sorry people, especially pig. my mood was really lousy on saturday, and haha...i was kind of teary on sunday morning. sorry merlion, ben, marc and mitch also, for my sudden outburst of...emotions and mean things. thanks though, for listening to me. like sheryl, telling me what to do :) it was really good.

haha. i feel kind of heavy headed right now. so much to think about. and so much that you cant do. there're still things that i think i still have to learn. i mean we all do, its just that i cant handle it as well as other people do. ayes.

seriously, i feel so dampened right now. but i know that God is there, and that He'll make a way.

after quiet time on saturday before dinner, i really felt free during service. although i still got distracted in the end. i really hope that i can be the role model for my younger siblings, in church or at home. keep me in prayer.

i realise doing quiet time before service, say at 6, really helps. hang around with the church youths, and then perhaps talk to people about God just 1/2 hour before service gives you good peace.

haha..my sis was really worried on sat cause i didnt answer my phone and eventually switched t off. i was doing devotion and didnt want to be disturbed. yeah.

prayer meeting was good also, before cell. it was much easier to share about certain things without the disruption of people like titus, and jeremy.

today was all right too, or rather sunday was alright.

its monday already. ayes. have a great week people. :)

i've experienced God, what about you?

Every Little Thing

Everything must change
There's a mirror showing me the ugly truth
These bones they ache with holy fire
But I've got nothing to give, just a life to live
If your world is without colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

Every little thing's gonna be alright [x4]

Theres no-one else to blame
I live my life between the fire and the flame
I've built my house where the ocean meets the land
Its time to live again, pull my dreams out of the sand
Let your world be full of colour
I will carry you, if you carry me

When it's all falling down on you
You?re crying out but you're breaking in two
When it's all crashing down on you
When there's nothing you can do
There is someone who can carry you

Name 10 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneathuntil you write the names of all 10 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.
NO CHEATING!

1.amandachengjiahui
2.kelyn
3michelle
4.lewis
5.zara
6.zeke
7.sheryl
8.leonard
9.elysa
10.marcus

(sorraye people. i gave up after 4. i couldnt think of names after that. of bloggers that is. see...i'm nice.)

DON 'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS U FILLED UP THE TOP!

1.HOW DID U MEET NUMBER 3? (michelle)
- church

2 . What would you do if 2 and 6 were going out?(kelyn and zeke)
-er...get them to break up? haha!

3 . How long have you known number 8?(leonard)
-2 years?

4 . What do you think of number 7?(sheryl)
-CRAZIEST PERSON YOU CAN EVER FIND. haha! we do crazy things too...like sit in the mrt station for i dunno a few hours but we talk about God :D

5 . What would you do if 4 confessed they loved you? (lewis)
-well...i'll die of a heart attack first and see if i can still talk. if i still can talk..i will counsel him...hah!

6. Whose 5 going out with? (zara)
-nahhh..no one :) she's a great girl

7. What does 1 do for a living? (amandachengjiahui)
-sabo-ing people into doing things like THIS...haha...i'm joking :)

8.would you live with 4? (lewis)
-well...do church camps count?

9. Where does 10 live? (marcus)
-woodlands? admiralty? cant remember. ayes, its in the north lah.

10. What do you like about 1? (amandachengjiahui)
-shes one of the maddest girl you'll find in IMH :D

11 . Does number 2 like to dance? (kelyn)
- dont know...dont think so...hahas

12.Does 8 sleep with a stuffed animal? (leonard)
-leonard sleeping with a stuffed toy sounds funny to me :)

13. What is your opinion of number 9?(elysa)
- she's a cool person :) haha she's our cell leader

14. Would you ever get drunk with number 2? (kelyn)
-drink?! hello there...i'm not about to damage my liver.

15. What would you do if 1 and 5 were going out? (amandachengjiahui and zara)
-haha...you mean going out with friends? of course :D dont think sick yeah

16. Ever gone somewhere with number 10? (marcus)
-that's pretty obvious isnt it. we see each other once a week, in church :)

17. Would you ever go out with number 6? (zeke)
-yeah...as brother and sister in christ :)


haha! what a time waster. but it seriously sounds wrong and certainly not funny at all...haha. well its amusing but it isnt funny

i hate it when adults over simplify our world.

hey fish :)

i think i misunderstood you, sorryae :( but well, i'd still like to have us back together again yeah. i mean, just the few of us. i dont know if its possible, but lets make it so. lets have a good talk this sat...okays? maybe we can have conference call and everything.

i saw it, and i understood. i dont know if i were on of those asterisk, but perhaps you dont know, i've gone through what you're going through.

but as i read on your post and as i fussed about who isnt good enough, why people change, why is this place so sucky? i grew in the Lord the same time and i realised, being fussy about the environment doesnt help. at all.

you know why this place is getting smaller and smaller and people are gradually leaving. you've talked to me about this before. i consulted you and asked for your advice. you told me, you have to put yourself in their shoes. maybe they have their own problems that you do not know.

then i was angry, angry because you sided them. but then i realised that you were probably right. i mean, when i'm all hot-headed, i was angry with you and perhaps a little agitated. but your words did make sense after a while.

perhaps this post would sound like crap right now, because if i were on of those asterisk, you wouldnt have heeded me. but still, i'd like you back as you did before. i dont know why we fell apart and i dont think i ever want to because it would be ugly.

i would love it if everything was back to normal, maybe we took it for granted then.

we should sit down and have a good talk.