spring onion

that dreaded topic
brought up again
no i dont like it
i really dont.

you did not heed me
continue asking
those dreaded questions
i dont like it


rarh.
the above made me think about you2

i had a sense
of foreboding
before the presentation.
something easy
calmed me

i have a selfish thought
i would like to have you
i dont want to share
something just for me

perhaps it was meant to be
i see it as an heartache
its there
tempting me

i dont know why
but i did
nostalgia
desiderata

how i love
those moments
those moments
one in a life time

ok. i am going to be emo again. :// :'( heh, i dont know why but i get easily emo nowadays. i try not to show why am i emo on my blog in case some people who are not meant to be here and reads it, there goes my life.

i am nice. u stayed up to do math. i havent even showered yet, but i changed. going to shower later. hahas. quite bad actually, i sweat alot today. :)

accomplishments:
=> managed not to faint in front of the cohort during presentation
=> did math before i decided that i should stop working.
=> practiced 3 hours of guzheng
=> did not fall asleep during class hours.
=> helped my dad install flash player into his laptop. :)

things to be improved on:
=> efficiency
=> weird showering hours :///
=> last minute filing.
=> being rude to teachers. :///
=> be less nervous if i ever get to do public speaking again.
=> no more last minute work!!!
=> practice 4 hours of guzheng a day
=> spend less time using the computer. :)

ok. my computer is coming back to me tomorrow. :) how nice. hahahas. anyway, i spent over budget today so i am left with $1 tomorrow. :( how nice. hahas. but it's ok! hahs. i can always bring bread to school, provided i can wake up early enough to prepare them.

okays. i guess that's all for today. hahahs. posted 2 posts today? or was it 3? heh. wait till tomorrow. i dont think i will even get a chance to post a single blog entry. have to chiong history homework and guzheng concert video.

alright. toodles. nights. =)

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"Now He was telling them a parable to show that at all times they ought to pray and not to lose heart... will not God bring about justice for His elect who cry to Him day and night, and will He delay long over them?"
Luke 18:1, 7
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my dad's spending about $200 to upgrade my computer. IBM cheats people's money. hahas. send to my dad's friend's workshop only about $200, go to IBM, about $800. isnt that cheating money. and their excuse is, oh, the motherboard is branded. ok fine. but it's still a motherboard right? i don't believe in branded things.

=) today's presentation was fine i guess. during the presentation, there was one point of time when i became too nervous and started saying too many wrong things and i laughed like crazy. ok...i broke down in the middle of the presentation. oh my. hahas. you realise guzheng people belongs to the stage? today who did i see from guzheng was onstage within an hour. rania, tingyi, chongmin, and myself. hahahs. i want to belong to the stage, i love being onstage. hahas. well.:/ i have to work hard. hahas. to be on stage more, i must really work hard. i love being on stage talking and bringing pleasure and laughters to the audience more than me being on stage to receive a prize. hahahas. you can count the laughters from the audience stand a prize. a prize that is priceless. yups

that's all for today i guess. btw, i got feedback from certain people that i was super funny during assembly today. oh well. i thought i made myself a laughing-stock.

hahas. mrchia sent a message saying well done when i was so sure that i had screwed it up. totally anti-climax. should have switched on my phone later. hahas.

toodles.

i realised that i blog too much. i do that when i am stressed, though it doesn't help me in anyway. i just like to blabber. ok. so i am screwed.

i screwed up my LA period first thing in the morning. from msteo's look, i knew that i have said the wrong thing. the fact remains, i finished my LA raft. AND that well. i read TKAM. :( miss teo said that they mentioned the mrunas in the book. well of course they did, but honestly right. i dont think there was much. only a page. :( well. argh. i made three wrong moves today during LA, thus screwing up my LA period. then homeecons. well, we got 11 for overall upon 15. still ok. hahas. in fact i think it was quite good, because many people got like 9 or 8. okkk. after lunch. math. i have to see mrtan cause i am still blur about maths. but i cant squeeze out anytime at all. i mean, now i am gobbling 3 meals within 5 min so that i wont be hungry for the rest of the day.

AH. i really dont know why. but everything is oh so screwed. yessss. i got 3/10 for my chemical equations test btw. how bad is that. i must learn to be a mugger like siwen or i will not survive my nanyang years, let alone hwachong years. :(

i have a blocked nose now. i have a bad headache now. i have fever now. and all these sicknesses, in a sense, makes me feel like vomiting blood. rarh. enough problems already lah!!!!

i really feel very pek chek now lorh. its like charlotte doesnt give a damn about the toilet thing. its like 204 doesnt give a damn about the whole thing. no initiative. just put up an act when they have to. yuck. how i hate their attitude. garh.

today was no easy day. i'd be glad when april is over then i can focus on the missionary trip, election and my results. i must learn to be a mugger!

today morning i was so determined to hate msteo. i thought she was way too harsh. i was so determined to hate charlotte. i was so determined to hate almost everyone involved in the lsc comm. i was so determined to hate wangyue. i was so determined to hate almost everyone. but when i decided to cool down, which took a relatively long time. i thought i shouldnt allow myself to hate anyone. or dislike, just because they did things unpleasant to me.

i must have made some wrongs moves first. oh well. i did. but still. yeah. when i allowed myself to hate amanda. i carried on with a heart full of hatred for about 3 months. i was mean to her. and now that i have realised it. i thought i was awful. it was bad experience. i dont want to make life miserable for me just because i dislike someone. it's no good feeling. you have to trust me.

learn to love. yes, it takes a lot to love, while a little to hate. but hate isnt pleasant, AT ALL. especially when u hate someone with feelings. its no good feeling. miserable. that's the word.

yup. a that's all for now. i feel as screwed as ever. but at least, i ranted something bottled up in me.

the feeling's good. i don't feel that miserable anymore. that's the good thing of having a blog. it helps a lot. sighhh

life goes on. there are problems to tackle. but i have to remember to tackle it with a faithful heart. its time to turn to God again.

realise when things get screwed, i am without God?

Labels: screwed

ok lets see, i am stressed. but i am not going to take any desserts rubbish. alrights. bleagh. i am so stressed now that i dont know whats wrong with me. and no one's telling me what. i really, for the first time, is thinking of slitting my wrists. thats gross.

sigh

i only have the luxury of posting short little posts like this one. :( doesnt sound cheerful.

man, i am really bad at managing stress. and i am serious about it. anyways. what did i want to say? oh yes. i cant remember. how lame. well. this week will be a killer and i know it. bleagh.

splat

no one's replying me and i dont like the sound of it. :/

whats with everyone? life's been lousy. man, i really dont know what to do. i have reached a stage whereby i dont even know what do i have to do. one word. pathetic.

in mangled thoughts
i stress
i pull my hair
i feel pressure
but i can't find a way out
of this mangled mess

my head hurting
i feel groggy
i need my bed
i need to study
i need to constructive things
i need to rest

i have a phobia of my phone now
the beeping sound
the so-called melodious ringtone
because it brings

commitments i dont want to commit
promises i dont want to promise
responsibilities i dont want to be responsible
troubles i did not forsee

it all seemed so easy
but i can hardly bring myself to smile now
it all just seemed so hard
as days go past
and i stale
in the memory of my oldself

i realise i cannot continue
because i am trapped in a maze
and it wont be helping me at all
by asking me to stop
and rest
and go sleep

because i just cant
i committed it
something which i did not want
but it all seemed to you
that i was enthusiastic about it
but i am not

people have secrets
i have one
something that i cannot share
something which will destroy me
when i let it out
its all so ugly
all so unseemingly true
but alarmingly scary

you dont see the franticness within
the all so calm
all so responsible
it just isnt true

come to think of it
stress
pressure
facade
unthinkable
but all so true.

you do not know the feeling welling
its dwelling so right within me
but i'm trying to convice myself
no, just not the one
there must be other more

i think too much
too sensitive
but i want too much
i ask for too much

must be thinking that i'm a pest now
but well
i am a saddist
i have become one
when will i recover?

i have forgotten to pray.

so...now all i can do is to wait. how nice.

hello world

i am stressed and i am tired. i need a good rest and a good sleep. not sleeps that are punctuated with the alarm clock or the phone ringing or beeping announcing the arrival of another message. sigh.

messages that bring commitments i dont wish to commit and appointments i dont wish to attend. how sad. and i'm using my dad's com now...my computer crashed. showed me static while i was trying to get work done. anyway. sigh. waiting for mrchia to reply and give feedback about the toilet proposal. what had i done to myself? rarh. i'm feeling so down now. so pointless.

what am i doing when i was supposed to be in bed. and i feel so dried up now. i havent been praying and reading the bible. grrr.

i just received a message. it said that the other party didnt receive the email which i sent about an hour ago. i need my bed desperately. ah

i think...
i think i fell in love with you.
but its all not possible.
because you are not eligible.
rarh. what's got into me.
when i saw your hand
i almost went crazy.

oh yeah. then so?
anyways, random.

utterly random.

brain looks really dao in pictures. ok anyway today was freaky. where should i start. oh yes, in the morning.

anyway, yup. today publicity for guzheng ensemble concert. i made loads of mistakes. for example. chinese music, i said chinese instruments. i was nervous ok...and stressed UP. anyway. the bad part came later. i started bleeding right after assembly. ://// bleeding as in nose bleed. hahahs. yeah. really pathetic. AND not to mention, urgent meeting for toilet comm. so i went there with a bleeding nose and a bloody shirt. anmd the shirt is white, dear. so the blood showed really clearly on my shirt and i went around the school for the rest of the day..what happened to you? how come you are so bloody? i wouldnt take it as bloody. i mean. oh yeah, it is. but just a few drops of blood, about 4cm by 4 cm. ok. to me its not alot but yeah. anyway, for PE, i left i TKAM at the track. and after 3 hours, when i found it, it was warm enough to fry an egg. anyways.

recess. it was freaky ok..actually it was ok. no prob or anything. then...mr chia said er, mrs siva said that there were some problems or 204 and 212 working together. oh man hahas. i became really confused then i just kept saying mm hmm, uh huh. ok. yup. hahas. ok anyways. it was freaky.

then i got 7 missed calls in a day. ALL from teachers. and i called back saying, hello may i know who called. and you guess who. wuls. oh man. haha. it was amusing. =( no not 7, 9. hahas. during sch hours, mind ya. 2 from sai, then 1 from mr chia, 6 from wuls. its a record. haha. sian. heh.

so, freaky day. now i shall watch tv. finally its friday. homework shall wait. =D

today was ok. hahas. cca was fine, school was okay. but, its tiring. i'd be glad when tomorrow ends.

honestly, i am drained. cause i really don't know what i want now. just slaving away.

i am very frustrated, vexed. whatever you call it, as long as it's bad. i just realised that i owe alot of work. honestly, i feel like dung.

hello world.

i know i dont have much time, but still i will post. I am on a dry period now, with God. things have been rough. and i feel like crying, cause i am tired. i mean, yes. but seeing something which gerard sent many many months ago, it sort of encouraged me to continue this marathon. christianathlete right? =)

"I went on a dry period recently. The only way i realise to have peace or have joy etc is still to read bible and pray and total submission. Totally trust Him. He is always watching after you, This assurance and this belief pulled me though and gave me a break through. Smile sister! Don't think too much. Just trust God. =)"

cool right. I mean, he's right, i havent been reading the bible, i haven't been praying properly. I can't expect too much from that. anyways. yup. ahh. i really am tired. i am tired of pleasing other people. just yesterday night i was thinking that maybe i should just put in my everything to do everything perfectly. like the guzheng publicity for this friday, OM tomorrow, guzheng concert, syf, sunday school. i really need prayers and i really need to pray,

24th march
theres church, thertes concert, i will be a sunday school teacher. i love the kids but i do not want to miss the concert. open a way out for me, God.

16th march.
theres ubin trip with the church youths, there's full day rehearsal for cca.

june holidays.
there's election for cca comm. 07 and 08. i want to be the vicepres, and i also want to go to missionary trip in cambodia as well as church camp, which means i will most likely miss the election. tell me how.

amusing right? that is why i don't like going shopping with my mum or sometimes, with my sis. hahas. i just grabbing stuff off the shelf and then leave. hahas. you can notice this phenomenon without even asking your dad or your mum to go and buy pants. just go grocery shopping. my dad can take 10 mins. my can take 5 hours. see, so you can't blame the men for doing things fast. because they are efficient. hahas. i am trying to be like them. efficiency. hahas. i dont to take 5 hours just to shop for 3 cabbages. :/// haha.

alrights. happy new year to all too!

btw, yesterday had cny celebration in school. it was ok. hahas. i dont know why, but both rachel and me, didnt enjoy it. oh well...hahas. ms yap's speech was funny. hehe. i miss mdm mak. aiya. she; is in hongkong now. for huichun, i didnt bring my red paper, i didnt bring my ink, i didnt bring my brush. how screwed is that. garh.

then went back to chongfu. hehe. first stop, canteen. hahahas then saw benedict. O.O he's so white. i thought he'd be dark or something. but yeah. i'm jealous, cause he's tall. anyway. when the see hall, saw wanghua ls. hehe. she say we have grown taller. O.o i stared at her like that. man. i havent been growing after i left chongfu. maybe she shrunk. hahas. then saw ms yow. she said that i've grown taller too. O.o hahas. i told her i've shrunk, but then she said, only old people shrink. hahas. she said that there was something wrong with the measurement. LOL.

then we went to ambush mrs wong. she called us children, hahas. like how ms teo does. just that she looks more motherly than ms teo. >< well, she's ms teo's height, but huger. lol. btw, mrs wong told my sis that she has sexy legs and she has grown prettier. hahahaha. hear it? she's prettier. =D

then went to ambush mrs morris chan. she doesnt remember us! hahas. she only recognised my sis. hehe. she said my sis was the quiet girl. hahas.

then mrs chu. she couldn't remember my name! she knew my sister is called venus, then linying said yeah, she's venus sister. her name's also a planet. then mrs chu said, what's her name? linying said that i was pluto. very funny leh. then mrs chu said that she wasn't senile, we can't bluff her. hahahas. mrs chu said that she pity us. us as in, linying, hanqing, venus, xinhui and myself. hahahas. she said cca is taking alot of time. and she said we go home very late. and she suggested that we should protest! O.O and yet she was the teacher who was the one who wanted us to go to the top-notch schools. hahahahs. ok.

yeah, so we had fun. mdm chia's mum passed away. so she's back in singapore now..i didnt sms her because i don't know what to tell her, or how to comfort her. AH. and mr tok broke his leg. so he wasn't in school also. saw ms lena tan also. hahas. yeah. that's all i guess. yeah.

then church!!! no sermon. >< just prayers then we went around the neighbourhood to give away mandarin oranges to befriend them and then bring them to church! =D then they can get to know God. there were some really sucessful ones. we walked the whole block. i went with elysa and titus. hahas. super funny. titus was GOOD! hahas. i am serious. first 2 levels, he also mastered what to say. =)) good job! hahas. there were some freaky ones. and there were some good ones. yeah. that's it. they are playing badminton now. as in the church youths. and i got my jerseyyyy. i want to post a picture here soon! HAHAHAS. oh yeah! =)) $23 but it was worth it os cool. we are the guinea pigs. trying out to have a same shirt for all the youths at church. hehe. theres a nice design, black with red collar. it's gonna be ours soon! oh yeah! imagine wearing that to church camp and ubin camp! oh yay. hahahas. super cool. hahas.

i found this on my friend's blog. super amusing. quite funny and lame hahas. enjoy.

how to marinate chicken wings

hi welcome to gerard's cookbook:

Dish 1 - to prep chicken wings for BBQ

step1: buy the chicken wings
NB: fresh chicken wings are better in taste (as if after bbq until 'chao ta', you can still taste the difference; oh well, my mum say one). but they are more expensive. About 50cents per piece. Whereas a pack of 22 frozen CW costs 5-6 dollars)

step2: you need strong hands to carry it back. Lucky my hands are ** strong ** !!!

step 3: thaw it; you can leave the CW in the bag and thaw it in tap water clogged in the basin;
NB: you need a long time; abt 3-5 hours if you do the above method; you want faster? put it in microwave or sit on it... haha joking. But who knows, it may work

step 4: patiently wait

step 5: marination ingrdients: hua tiao jiu; sesame seed oil; pepper; sugar; oyster sauce; lots of ginger
Put reasonable quantities of the above in the thawed chicken except the ginger; the ginger you can get a helper (for example your son; which happened to me becos i was tasked to do that by my mum) to pound it into shreds so that you can squeeze the ginger juice into the chicken;
NB: ginger juice will fly around when you pound; so put on your armor before doing it

step 6: stir everything; no brainer!!!

step 7: your CW are marinated

step 8: suffer from "burnt" hands for a few hours because of the contact with the ginger juice. Apparently virgin hands (like mine) will suffer from it. Seasoned hands like my mum's wont kana one.

step 9: you need strong hands to carry it to the place of bbq. Lucky my hands are ** strong ** !!!

Hence you have a recipe for marination of chicken wings. Stay tune with this blog to learn more about cooking other stuff.

I am James Gerard Oliver signing off...

gerard =)
ps: having fun lah, cannot meh!!!

amusing? hahas.

something more amusing


more cute pics.

hahas, i think thats all, i shall sleep

sigh. i only have 15 minutes to fisnih the script..from scratch. crap

i am going to spend all my angbao money to upgrade my com. its getting on my nerves. i have to wait for an hour just to let it unhang itself. i cant switch off the power supply because i will lose my 5 page report. and obviously what cel sent me was rubbish and it is of no help for the dumb project. i am getting fed up. rarh.

unpleasant things happens.
but why of all persons.
you?
i guess i have fallen in love
so much.
that i am blind.



never let hate overcome your heart. because its a can't stop thing. i allowed hate to come into me using 10% of my strength, but i had to use 100% of my strength to make it go away. i am trying so hard. but all's in vain. i continue hating you.

how great is not being able to shower though its close to midnight now? and i havent finished revising. mind you.

my head's hurting.
i don't want to write poems anymore.
but they just come.
and go.

ten times today i thought of poems.
ten times today i made poems.
ten times today i was overwhelmed with emotion.
and ten times today.
i forgot all the good poems.

i thought of you.
i imagined we both together.
i dismissed the thought.
as quick as it came.

ten times today i thought of you.
ten times today i made love poems.
ten times today i was madly in love.
ten times today.
i forgot all about it.

it was all too much to bear.
i felt myself shake as i talked.
i shook as i talked.
i heard my voice shake so much,
that it was scary.

ten times today i was angry with you.
ten times today i became agitated.
ten times today i hated you.
and ten times today.
i forgave you.

ten times today i thought of a poem.
ten times today i thought it was silly.
ten times today my mind went wild.
ten times today i gave in to myself.
ten times today i worked hard.

and it is meant for different people.




hello people. i am in tkc club. =( one more mark. one mere mark to perfection. bleh. :/ i will be betting a dollar that i will get killed by seniors. tkc's club clashes with cca. and i have been missing a lot of practices because of stupid cupid reasons like. revising for tests which i desperately need as well as that toilet proposal. =( honestly, i am not enjoying school as much as i should. i am lagging behind each class, especially maths and chem. bleh. its only the start of february and i need a good long break from school to catch up with the rest as well as sleep. yeah. am going out. byebye.

i am in a lousy mood.

due to the deprivation of sleep.
lousy friends.
backstabbers.
stress.
work.
idiots.

and i am serious. and i am in a super lousy mood now. not that i am in a bad mood. but lousy. check the dictionary for the difference. i am feeling so indifferent to people now. so i won't talk to anyone. i won't care or bother to reply tags. and i hope no one bothers to read my blog too.

lousy lousy lousy.

i dont know why too.

it all just came back to me.

and i am squashed.

and i am sure you'd love to see me squashed flat, like piak. on the floor. but i am sorry to say, i won't let you see me in this sorry state. because i can live without you. i can live with your hate notes. i can live with you backstabbing me. because i am strong. unlike you. having to survive by backstabbing and speaking ill of people. it's not the first time.

i hate people who are attention seekers.
i hate people who do that in front of me.
and i toleterate.

i hate people who backstab.
i hate people who are dumb.
you dumb because you publicised her death
when it was supposed to be kept quiet.

fools filled world.
i can't wait to go to Heaven.
i hope i die in a car-crash.
or even, some stupid 3 secs heart attack.
maybe asthma attack for 1 sec would do me good too.

:(

i am depressed but i am not admitting it.
i hate sad smileys.
i shall delete all sad smileys i saved in my computer.
no matter how cute they are.
i dont care because they make me feel even worse
i want to see happy smileys.=)
they make me feel good.
and happy.
i do not need drugs
or cigarettes to be happy.
i just need a yellow room.
full of smileys.
so next birthday
if you even bother to give me a card.
dont buy it.
just paint the paper yellow.
and draw lots of smiley on it. like this.


















or even better. no cards, alrights. cups then. happy faces cups, like this.

it'd be cool to drink stuff from this. ok. i am happy now. =))

=) =) =) =) =) =) =)

go on, and backstab me all you want.

i am drained. i slept 2 hours earlier than usual yesterday, yet i woke up late. must be the chem test and the sec1s. tsktsk. i am trying to learn ting1xie3 now. and my letters to the editor. :( bye

well.

i dont know what to say. but yeah. things are getting obvious and i am really tired. totally drained. chem test failed me. and the sec1s too.

my computer crashed yesterday. but miraculously, it fired to life today when i attempted to switch it on. ok. so now i am migrating all files to my dad's external harddisk so that i won't lose any files at all. my homework, portfolio, all inside! hehe, anyways, yeah.

i dont know whether my computer crashing is a good thing. i think its good afterall. next week is common test week and if i were to send it over for repair, i wont be able to use it for the whole of next week which is good, because i won't be distracted while i am trying to revise. hahas. which means, i won't blog for the whole of next week. i don't want to spend days in school for remedial classes. i think my computer crashing is good also, cause it gives me a reason to upgrade it. hahahahahas. i am evil, but my dad didn't object. heh. well, my computer is the lousiest in the whole house, but at least it's still usable. speed the slowest. cannot watch dvds on this computer. cannot burn cds. bleagh. hahas. speed is only 64kb. pathetic. i dont what is supposed to be behind the digits, but 64 whatever is really slow. i am still using celeron. rarh. hahas. but yeah. when i upgrade it will still be celeron. this thingy is only 1 year old and its falling apart. but my dad that if upgrading it costs alot, as much as buying a new desktop, then he said that i might as well buy a new one. quite true. hahas. i saw a whole new desktop $1400. yeah, its including the printer, scanner. yada yada. but the screen's pathetic. 15 inch. the one i am using now is 19 inch. i think. yeah. things are magnified and i dont have to strain my eyes to much. i dont know, cause it's not important, i am just worried for my files. :(

hahas. yesterday had a great time at church. when i reached church, small marcus boo-ed me. hahas. but i wasn't affected cause i was listening to music. then...when i was going home, lewis said 'bye brother!' honestly, i dont mind lah, cause i got back at him. i shouted back bye sister. hahas. and my dad said that i looked like a guy beside michelle. :( hahas. frankly speaking, i dont mind too.

well, bb com. i wont be seeing you for a week. :(

my posts are being proof-read by my sis. as far as i know, i was sleeping when i was posting, therefore resulting countless mistakes in spelling, grammar or even vocabulary.

i wonder how someone's mind works. i dont even know how my mind works sometimes. it's just kind of weird. i am thinking of being a psychologists in future. there are risks involved sometimes, but i think it is worth the risk. studying how a human mind think. interesting.

i missed cca today, as i said cause i am having a bad headache and my mum didn't want me to go. why, cause she said i overworked. i think that's a bit dumb. she used to say that i am lazy. hahas, i am a born slacker. X) common tests are next week and the slacker is blogging. well, nicer phrase, expressing her thoughts. cool. hahas. i can' t wait for church tomorrow. and i feel bloated. maybe i talked and jumped too much while eating. and it can be because of the maze/corn. its a wonder that my stomach cannot digest corn, which means i will visit my best friend pretty soon, toilet.

hahas. i love toilets. my mum can't chase me out when i am in there reading. XD rarh. feeling super random now. and...am i infatuated with him? my heart skips when he goes online. :/ i don't think so. imagine, him with me. or, me with him. that will be the day when the sun rises from the west. and him. again. :( anyway...the infatuation is over...for some guy. i don't think i should be infatuated with him or him. because, one of them is my superior and the other...i dont know?

well, i think i am not infatuated with them. stop scaring myself. i am just feeling weird because my sis has a mad crush on him and i feel weird when he told me that he knows. and the other, he is just being concerned. i am being really sensitive.

i just realised, i've been so busy during the week that i have yet thought of my 14 year old resolutions, let alone blog it here. =/

things are getting tougher. when the going gets tough, we stick to the fundamentals. and the fundamental thing is God. alright. bb

yes, i'm jealous

i feel slackish. people are having cca and i'm not going cause i have bad headache. :( i miss 哀江头. hehe, actually i can practice at home...tetapi saya tidak rajin. lol. :/ my malay still sucks. hahas. right, there's common tests next week and i am going to revise.