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painpainpainpainpain!! :(

i seem to whine a lot these days, whatever.

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i know i've posted this song before...but i find it great. so yeah. :)

Prayer for a Friend

Lord, I lift my friend to you
I’ve done all that I know to do
I lift my friend to you
Complicated circumstances
Have clouded his view
Lord, I lift my friend up to you

I fear that I won’t have the words
That he needs to hear
I pray for your wisdom, Oh God
And a heart that’s sincere
Lord, I lift my friend up to you

Lord, I lift my friend to you
My best friend in the world, I know
He means much more to you
I want so much to help him
But this is something he has to you
And, Lord, I lift my friend up to you

‘Cause there’s a way that seems so right to him
But you know where that leads
He’s becoming a puppet of the world
Too blind to see the strings
Lord, I lift my friend up to you

My friend up to you
Lord, I lift my friend to you
I’ve done all that I know to do
I lift my friend to you

its a cool song. i just heard it. sometimes it does not just apply to non-christians, or so i feel. just yeah. havent we all been puppets before? anyway, i've been seeing a verse a lot these days. i feel that there's something that i should do, but i dont know what. but its been making an impact on me. really.

2corinthians12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

i mean...ain't it cool? i've been sharing it a lot on quite some occasions. and through this, i realised that memory verses do work. but yeah. to make a verse stay in your head forever...it really takes events to make an impact on it.

its like, you've done something wrong and it's as though the whole world hates you for it. and you feel bad and you start shutting yourself up and then this verse just comes and yeah. you just remember it. you see it once, and then it just stays in your head.

there've been a lot of questions that i would like answers for, but they dont always come. i guess God likes all these thrill of finding answers.

the answers dont just come like that, you really have to have a sincere heart that tells God, look God, can you just tell me the answer? i really want it. even so, it might not come.

its just like why can't we all have boyfriends/girlfriends before 21 years old? to me, all these reasons about parents complaining and not setting a good example for the younger kids, i dont really buy them. it somewhat makes it sound as though the pastoral team is scared that it'll ruin the church's reputation. honestly, anyone who's crazily in love is crazy enough to break rules, and wouldnt be sane enough to buy the idea of setting a good example. yada. even maturity doesn't sound exactly convincing to me now. it just sounds like peanut toppings to the other reasons. it might break the couple up, but it doesnt exactly deal with the root of the problem.

the thing is, God hasnt told me why he says no yet. but today i sort of found and answer yeah. it doesnt really helps me understand why i cant do this/that. but when i saw the verses, i just stunned there.

i flipped open the bible and the first verse was:

Hebrews13:1
keep on loving each others as brothers. (God said keep on loving each other as brothers, nothing more than that. just love each other as siblings. i think this verse's the most important, answered my question straight away that it wouldnt work if you continued to hang out with him. because God only wants you to treat him as a brother, love him as you would love your own brother.)

Hebrews13:7
remember your leaders, who spoke the word of God to you. Consider the outcome as their way of life and imitate their faith. (listen and heed what your church leaders told you about bgr. If their way of life is to put God and church first, if they care about the church's reputation, then you be like them too. Imitate their faith, imitate their faith in God, that they will receive more blessings from God than from their boyfriend if they believe in staying away from bgr until 21.)

Hebrews 13:17a
obey your leaders and submit to their authority. they keep watch over you. (reinstating the previous verse.)

and God ended this answer finding session with a wonderful verse.

James 4:4
you adulterous people, don't you know that friendship with the world is hatred towards God? Anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God. (not obeying what your church leader/cell leader wants you to change, for the better = being friends of the world. theres no such thing like 90% of your love for God and 10% split for your parents, boyfriend etc etc. You have to love the other people through God. you love your parents because God says you have to. therefore, you shouldnt even have a boyfriend in the first place. you love him like how you would love your brothers. you shouldnt love him out of lust, but out of love for God.

great...right? but it still doesnt answer your question as to when you can have a boyfriend/get married.

i found the answer today, though i havent found the reference to the bible yet. anyway,

Even at 30, God will not show you the right person if you're still not spiritually strong yet. but if you are, at say 18, he will show you the right person.

God has already planned everything out for you, dont ruin it by personal lust.

are you spiritually strong yet?