i have lots of things to say...where should i start?

guzheng exam today was disappointing. i could have done better. i think my distinction have just flown away. argh. that examiner said that my beat wasn't stable. i am not going to deny that my beat hasn't been stable. in fact, its always because of the beats that hinders me from learning more pieces on my own...i think i have to go back to grade1.

i was so nervous that i almost lost footing while shifting scores. and my face turned beet root red after that. =( i screwed the sightreading up part MOST. and i mean it. i could have failed it. =( another sad face.

NUS is real damn big. you have to take a bus to get to the library even. after exam today, i was far too early cause my examination time was brought forward by 45mins. hahas. luckily i reached 2hours before my examination time...anyways, i wanted to get to the library...BUT...i was so afraid that i would get lost so...i decided against that idea and went back to school...hehe

somethign nice though, NUS' Yusof Ishak's House or smth, the nasi briyani there is nice. wahahahaha. i am fond of indian food you see...or is it a muslim dish?

hahas. i realise that i critic things too much. lets call it a day then. i slept for 3 hours only. and this three hours have survived me for almost 48 hours. i should get some real sleep.

toodles

guzheng exam over. but concert and syf coming. stress sia. i cant breathe.

1.) guzheng exam is about 12 hours away. i cant sleep. so nervous can. X'( i really want my distinction so badly.

2.) i'm gonna upgrade my computer. hahas. screen upgrade to 19". ram 1GB. yeah. hahas and DVD drive and burner.

3.) i am wondering, how on earth am i supposed to bring my guzheng to clementi? i bet the bus driver wont let me board the bus...

4.) i dont know why did i adopt pig pluto. hahas. am i a pig? hehe. i am a clever pig. i can type! sheesh. i just realised that if you click on it a couple of times, it actually roll in the mud. hahas. its just so...meaningless. i wonder why did laoshi adopt her panda in the first place. i got infected!

5.) neopets is more interesting than battleon...

6.) i am going to tune my guzheng again now...so toodles.

anyway, who sees this. pray for me!!! i am freaking out.

I realised that i didn't want so many things on my blog afterall. Javacodes are just to...complicated? lol.

yesterday was crescent girls's musical evening. it was ok, i guess. average to be fair. it was good effort, i believe. but it certainly wasn't the best concert crescent presently. i have seen better concerts before, by crescent.

the external design of esplanade is so modern. but when i stepped into the concert hall itself, i realised that the interior design was quite traditional. like those big huge old concert halls in Vienna, designed with Victorian taste? if that was right to put it. anyway. it wasn't a blast. i was expecting something better. =) the symphonic band was a blast though. the dance too. only one item from the dance made me captivated. band is good as ever, i suppose. =) guzheng concert next year must better! =D show some quality standard pretty please. =) anyways. judging by the above paragraph, i am someone who hasn't been to esplanade concert hall at all. yesterday was the first time. the chair wasn't too comfy...ACS I auditorium is better.

so, today i was a walking zombie during cca. hahas. didnt get enough sleep yesterday night or rather today morning. was so groggy. i have to get some work done, at the very least. have been slacking too long, way too long.

what else to type? oh well, cherie was in a good mood today. :/ that is so random and so stupid. seriously, i have to get some work done. at least finish all my holiday homework before church camp. then i shall be at peace! oh and i have to chiong guzheng tomorrow. exam is on thursday. so fast!

oh, and this reminds me. guzheng today was POW WOW WOW WOW WOW. hahas. first i was a walking zombie. next laoshi wanted me to solo the exam pieces, excluding the lianxiqu. hahas. i was half asleep. havent even settled down. and i was first on her list! argh! hahas. and for the first half of the first piece, my whole face, perhaps including the ears was RED LIKE TOMATO. hehe. and shionyee huh, keep commenting. made me so freaked out. but after saying a short prayer, everything turned out fine. i guess i was just way off far too nervous.

hehe. muse of the day.
shioyee said that she got shitty juniors like tingyi, hanyi and myself. wahahahaha. we aren't shitty, we are just crazy juniors who love to crap and make seniors go sick because of our jokes. but i bet we are not as bad as she describes us as 'shitty' juniors.

=D church camp!

yesterday went to yingsheng laoshi's graduation. it as rather boring, and i mean it. those speech parts. but overall, i think its okay. hahas

anyways, we have a new pastor in our church already =D

so, nothing much, when i get the pictures, then upload . XD

Sermon today was pow wow wow wow. but, my heart wasn't there. i feel so drained these few days. dont ask me why because i dont have an answer for myself too.

a song to share with you guys. =D

its also called When God Ran, same as today's sermon title. It just melted my heart to liquid form and then it turned into steam and all the steam flew up to God.

Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord
Victorious warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty conqueror, and the only time
the only time I ever saw Him run

CHORUS:
Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run

And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees
When God ran – I saw Him run to me

BRIDGE:
I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away
But now I know He’s been waiting for this day

I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again

He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son”, He called me Son
He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He ran to me and then I ran to Him
When God ran

TADA! read Luke. =D

the price that i have to pay. being a monster. not that i want it, but what else? spoilt brat.

text messages full for the millionth time today. what was it that made you sms me so much?

music blaring. what does it all mean, when it goes in through your right ear, out from the left? isnt it much better for it to go in through both ears, come out from the mouth?

one huge stack of work to do. but no heart to do with that who-cares attitude, you might as well say you have no work to do.

spending a day out is just a nice way of saying, spending a bomb today while going out. which is true for me.

slacking the whole day off. you might as well say the calendar missed this day out.

staring into space. it sounds nicer if you say that you are missing someone important to you.

The above are my thoughts. which is to say, you can disagree with me.




i bet i am gonna fall sick soon. so sucky. headache 24hours. hey headache! would you mind a rest?

i just did something really stupid.

marilyn is in CHINA and i asked why wasnt she at cca.

next, today's cca was crappy as ever

what else. oh wells, nothing i guess. i shant blog boliao stuff.

er, yes. bb

I really don't know what you're doing. you were angry with me? i really can't believe it. I am so fooled by your lies. you are so fooled even, by your own lies. you are just lying to yourself. face the reality man. i can't stand you, no longer.

i saw. what is it that you want. you blocked me, then you do this. when you didnt other people's wallet and that she couldnt go home, i called you. you didnt answer. those 17 calls, they were not personal. i didnt call you to talk to you about us, but to tell you to return other's belongings.

yeah, the above was a one-sided story. so how does it feel like, when your supposedly best/closest friend do this to you? i dont even know whether you are the one that took it from her. thats what you did to me. for the whole year, maybe 20 times? i dont know why you do that for. you said that as because of your mood swings. i dont mind about that. and now you are not talking to me because of a freaking shirt.

then now you are like a spy. i really dont know what you want. i wanted to have a real good talk with you, face to face. there were many a times when you angered me and made me feel so down, i didnt care. i took in your lies. i dont even know what should i do now.

i am not like you, caring for yourself only. so everything seemed so easy to have a talk with your so-called buddies. and make more enemies for yourself, then you go and blame others.

sigh.

An empty street
An empty house
A hole inside my heart
I’m all alone
The rooms are getting smaller
I wonder how
I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had
The songs we sang together
Oh yeah
And all my love
We’re holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

Chorus
So I say it in a breath
Hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again my love
All the seas go coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again my love

I tried to read
I go to work
I’m laughing with my friends
But I can’t stop
To keep myself from thinking

Oh no
I wonder how
I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had
The songs we sang together
Oh yeah
And all my love
We’re holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seems so far

Chorus
So I say it in a breath
Hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again my love
All the seas go coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from my heart
You’re all I’m thinking of
Reaching for the love that seems so far

Chorus
So …So I say it in a breath
Hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again my love
All the seas go coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again my love
See you in a prayer
Dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again my love
All the seas go coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again my love

Where is the moment when you need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Tell me your blue sky's fade to grey
Tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You're standin' in line just to hit a new low
You're fakin' a smile with the coffee to go
Tell me your life's been way off line
You're fallin' to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

'Cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, the camera don't lie
You're comin' back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day... you had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day, you're takin' one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, the camera don't lie
You're comin' back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day...(mmm... holiday)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink and the whole thing it turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know that you could be well all that strong
And I'm not wrong... (Yeahh!!)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
(oh, when you're down)
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

'Cause you had a bad day, you're takin' one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, you tell me don't lie
You work on a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, you see what you like
And how does it feel, one more time,
You had a bad day... you had a bad day
(ahh yeahh!!)
You had a bad day 3xBad d
(faded)

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

[Chorus:]
Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

[Chorus]

I can only imagine [x2]

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

nothing much, BUT

today i spent the whole day at home being bullied

hey dudes.

the new syf song is out. it sounds so sinister can! i really dont mean to say that, i try to record it down during one of the practices post it on my blog and see whats your reaction. i should i have recorded down the craps during cca, cause they are really crappy! hahas. its not funny when typed out, must say out. LOL. i am so euphoric? i dont know

guzheng exam is so near. now my life is

North - Guzheng
South - Guzheng
East - Guzheng
West - Also guzheng

wanna go central chill out, still guzheng. hahas. but its okay man. cause guzheng is fun. but isnt so fun without tingyi.

oh man. i am so dont know. everyday guzheng here and guzheng there. pass by my guzheng, with the initial intention of touching or brushing past in ONLY. but ended up, playing it for about half and hour. if i do that everyday, i can become pro. jkjk. hahas. i have never been so mad about guzheng.

just now watched a tv programme...my guzheng still not bad eh, if i were to test it according to what the pro says.

this thingy is so random. was just waiting for my friend to reply my email.

proposal due, 12 days. crap.

my sis went for her ncc camp today...so sad. just now while watching tv, cannot crap with her. crap with my younger siblings, they keep asking me to play pokemon. :'(

when it was time to have dinner, bleh. no one to accompany me. :'(

later when sleeping, no more crazy alarms in the middle of the nights. BOOOHHOOOHOOOHOOOO

sad sia. life without you is so damn different. sobsob.

anyway
stop calling me girl can. for no apparent reason. thank you so much man.


today i had an adventure :)

i got lost while trying to find my way back from crescent girls school to nanyang girls high school. =)) so

i alighted at a ulu place at 8.54am after spending about ten minutes on 111. then i began my adventure. looking for buses that can take me to nanyang girls high school. and i was staring at the notice board for 15minutes? imagine, i wasted 15minutes staring at a notice board. hahas. then finally, i realised that there was an mrt station called dobby ghaut or however you spell that, nearby. i walked past istana. =)) then i got lost at dobby ghaut mrt station. =(( again.

anyways, that was my little adventure. btw, i received 2 souveniers (i dont care how you spell that) in a week. one from china given by liting and the other from taiwan by ruth. =) hahas tingyi is in china now. cca without her is NOT FUN. hahas.

imagine,. suddenly two people you used to have just went poof on one day. you were miserable during cca, miserable while you are at home. :'(( maaybe not that miserable, but its altogether another thing while hanging around with others, though they may be the one who invted you to join them.

VENUS! TINGYI! awww sad sia. my roommate is gone. my crazy crapper is also away. argh. :'(((

hahas. never mind. shall post something constructive today. let me get my bible.

oh man, i never realised, but yes. guzheng exam is only ten days away! man! i had a heart attack when i looked at the calendar. ok, i am someone who asks someone for the date and then forget about it. and ask it again and again.

oh well, forget it. bleagh. i dont know what to say! ='( anyway, just thought that this would help me. carrie underwoods' Jesus, take the wheel. Its damn cools. as i said in the earlier post. GRACE! look at this amazing grace! we can only wonder, how can God ever do this?

i have to admit. i am so scared. i am so nervous about this exam thing. to be honest, i have been having sleepless nights. argh. sleeping only at 4, waking up at 10am, 11am, 12pm. my sleeping hours are so screwed up. i think i am turning nocturnal. oh, so people if i sms you at 3-4am you have to forgive me. imagine yourself going to bed at 11pm, reading books until 4am, listen to sermons or whatever. i have never experienced such shitty holidays. damn.

i dont know what am i doing nowadays actually. forget about that part. must do more push-ups later. cause i ate smarties. erm, not that i am on diet, but i dont want my muscles turn into fats. =D

kays, i dont know what else to type...er no wait. i have something.

many people need encouragements..woaah, time to get busy!!
hahas.

=)ure all not alone! remember to share the load w God. =)instead of looking at ur circumstances, look to Him!dont b burnt out, be renewed. (:

a song.jer29:11
for I know the plans i have for you
declares the LORD
plans to prosper you and not harm you
plans to give you hope and a future
I AM THE GOD WHO WATCHES OVER YOU.. (:

added a video. the lyrics especially the chorus. its wow. it struck me still. so now i don't even know whether i should smile because of such grace or cry because i melted, again by this grace. ='D =D i shall do both. =) oh well, that was damn lame...


my hands at aching.because of armpower training. LOL. nono, i am serious. yesterday i carried 15kg worth of fruits from changi airport, mind you, there are stairs, take the bus back to yishun. yahoo! i want muscles! HAHAHAHS. hurhur, mum wants to buy me many new clothes for christmas, but hopefully, i dont get tops and skirts with frilly ends or laces.

Artist/Band: Underwood Carrie
Lyrics for Song: Jesus, Take The Wheel
Lyrics for Album: Some Hearts

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati on a snow white Christms Eve
Going home to see her momma and her daddy with the baby in the back seat
50 miles to go and she was running low
On faith and gasoline
It'd been a long, hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin, black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have the time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one for chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder and the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the back seat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on

Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh

hahas, i figured out the how to play 'Amazing Grace' and 'How Great Thou Art' today. =)))) and this adds on to my list. =D but so sad, i cant play my favourites which are really pop and theres not much to play. anyway, i am trying to squeeze something out to write for my commonwealth essay thing. its an holiday assignment. if i take away the days which i will be away for cca, cca camp, church camp, fun...i only have less than 3 weeks to complete them. what else. guzheng exam is coming and i tell you i am freaking out. proposal is gonna be due and i am also freaking out. holiday assignments piling sky high. i am freaking out. damn damn damn. :'((((((( i am stressing out also leh. funny to say, cause its the holidays. i am not a workholic okay. hahas. never mind.

something nice for everyone :)

Arise

by Planet Shakers

album: Arise (2006)

Now is the time to make a stand
To rise up and take the promised land
To walk in the favour of our God

Lift up your eyes to see the King
Upon you His glory will be seen
Cause His light is rising up on you

Arise, shine
For the glory of the Lord is upon You

Arise, shine
Shine His light

I can feel something in the air
The Spirit of God is surely here
As the church rises up to Him

The nations they come to sing His praise
The lost are found running to His grace
Cause His light is shining up on you

Arise, arise, arise, arise
Church arise, arise, arise, arise
Church arise, arise, arise, arise
Church arise, arise, arise, arise

from: http://www.lyricsbox.com/planet-shakers-lyrics-arise-1bm6n8w.html

yups, thats about it. :)

you came quietly
and now
you are leaving quietly
too

trying to cause less destructions
distractions
but you kill people from within

you told no one
but we see it
and we know




fading away
thats you
thats what feel

its just like painted sculptures
the paints eventually will fade
will peel
but the carvings will stay there
forever




i dont know what to say to you
but at least say why

i chose to believe that you have a freedom
but its responsibility

i cant ask you to do something about it
because its your choice

but i have to say this
you've let me down




if you dont understand the above, just leave them as they are. hahas. dont ask me how, why, what. anyway, discovered something yesterday...

some of my textbooks and sis' textbooks are the same. hahas. imagine.

i dont get it why people tend to believe even in one-sided stories. i mean, isnt that unfair for the other party?

i dont know, we humans are too minute to do great things that we do the smallest things to kill people, by using words. i suppose as a minute human myself, i can do nothing, except to pray, and in the meantime watch these people kill, and in the end, get punished by the Most High God himself, in hell, lake of fire.

today, discipleship was ok, i guess. a lot of sharing. hahas. i dont know what to post about. so, i guess. yeah.

You look at me, but do you really see me?
Do you see the whirlwind that goes on inside?
You judge me at first glance, you label me within minutes.
You merely scrape the surface; you think you know where my heart resides.
Do you really know me?

Do you see what happens behind closed doors?
Do you know of the anguish that goes on within?
The facade I pull over and the real me,
I can't tell where one ends and the other begins.
Do you really know me?

I long to say what I want to say,
to pour out what's on my heart.
But you're always self-righteous,
why would I want to say my part?
Do you really know me?

You expect much of me,
many plans you've already made.
Would you kill a man and his dreams,
all for convenience's sake?
Do you really know me?

Would you spend some time,
to come sit with me?
Long enough to hear the soft sighs,
and whatever my heart still believes?
Do you really know me?

I've become less of a man,
the man that God wants me to be.
All because I've tried to be what you wanted,
and disposed of more of me.
Do you really know me?

He melted my heart
He brought tears to my eyes
I cried out to him

He heard me
Before i knew it
He had embraced me
wiped away my tears
and hugged me tightly,
never letting me go.

He is God

I was in so much pain
that i couldnt do anything
but just cry

i was so lost, so hurt
that no one can ever
comfort me

yet he did
that everlasting God
that almighty God

He is God

i wanted you to share
your troubles,
yet i didnt dare

i wanted you to look,
at me
but you didnt

i wanted you
to talk to me
but you didnt

i wanted to
talk to you
but no courage

so much disappointments
so much shame
so much embarassment

makes me want to hide
makes me want to hate
makes people hate

me

look at me and tell me that i'm stressed.

just watched stupid shows. hahas

okay, i aint working hard, translation is due on 22nd, theres stilla lot to do. shit, whats becoming of my workload?

Subject: How to kill time at Walmart

15 Things to do at Wal-Mart while your spouse/partner is taking their =
sweet time:

1. Get 24 boxes of condoms and randomly put them in people's carts =
when they aren't looking.

2. Set all the alarm clocks in Housewares to go off at 5-minute =
intervals.

3 Make a trail of tomato juice on the floor leading to the rest rooms.

4 Walk up to an employee and tell=20
him/her in an official tone, 'Code 3' in housewares..... and see what =
happens.

5 Go the Service Desk and ask to put a bag of M&M's on lay away.

6 Move a 'CAUTION - WET FLOOR' sign to a carpeted area.

7 Set up a tent in the camping department and tell other shoppers =
you'll invite them in if they'll bring pillows from the bedding =
department.

8 When a clerk ask s if they can help you, begin to cry and ask 'Why =
can't you people just leave me alone?'

9 Look right into the security camera; use it as a mirror, and pick =
your nose.

10 While handling guns in the hunting=20
department, ask the clerk if he knows where the anti-depressants are.

11 Dart around the store suspiciously loudly humming the "Mission =
Impossible" theme.

12 In the auto department, practice your "Madonna look" using =
different size funnels.

13 Hide in a clothing rack and when people browse through, say "PICK =
ME! PICK ME!"

14 When an announcement comes over the loud speaker, assume the fetal =
position and scream "NO! NO! It's those voices again!!!!"

(And last but not least!)

15 Go into a fitting room and shut the door and wait a while; and, =
then, yell, very loudly, "There is no toilet paper in here!"=20

people killing, people dying,
children hurting, you hear them crying
can you practice what you preach?
and would you turn the other cheek?
Father, Father, Father help us send us some guidance from above...
Cause people got me, got me questioning;
WHERE IS THE LOVE?

When many people receive this message, they think;
"i dont have time for this! its also inappropriate at work!"

but that is the exact thinking that turned this beautiful world into chaos
that you now see...

We try to keep God in church on Sunday morning...
Maybe, Sunday night...
And, the unlikely event of a midweek service.

We do like to have Him around during sickness...
And, of course, at funerals.

However, we don't have time, or room, for Him during work or play...

Because... That's the part of our lives we think...
We can, and should, handle on our own.

We should always have time to remember all HE has done for us.

If, You aren't ashamed of him,
Please follow the directions.


Jesus said, "If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before my
Father."

Not ashamed?

Pass this on ONLY IF YOU MEAN IT!!

Yes, I do Love God.
HE is my source of existence and Savior.
He keeps me functioning each and every day.


Without Him,
I AM nothing. But, with Christ, HE strengthens me.
This is the simplest test of all,
the test called "IF YOU LOVE GOD!!!"

If You Love God...
And, are not ashamed of all the marvelous things HE has done for you...
Pass it on!
I don't think I know 10 people who would admit they love Jesus..
Do You love Him?


this is a poem written by someone whom i do not know, but read it and see,
you'll find it means alot in the end.

all day long, i had no time
To spread a word of cheer.
No time to speak of Christ to friends,
They'd laugh at me I'd fear.
"No time, no time, too much to do,"
That was my constant cry,
No time to give to souls in need
But at last the time, the time to die.
I went before the Lord, I came,
I stood with downcast eyes.
For in his hands God held a book; It was the book of life.
God looked into his book and said
"Your name I cannot find.
I once was going to write it down...
But never found the time"

end of poem.



Why is it so hard to tell the truth but Yet so easy to tell a lie?
Why are we so sleepy in church but Right when the sermon isover we suddenly
wake up?
Why is it so hard to talk about God but yet so easy to talk about nasty
stuff?
Why is it so boring to look at a Christian magazine, but yet so easy to look
at a nasty one?
Why is it so easy to delete a Godly e-mail, but yet we forward all of the
nasty ones?
Why are the churches getting smaller but yet the bars and dance clubs are
getting larger?


Do you give up? Think about it . Are you going to forward this, or delete
it?



Just remember-God is watching you. Prayer Wheel-Let's see the devil try and
stop this one!

Here's what the wheel is all about. When you receive this, say a prayer for
the person that sent it to you....


That's all you have to do...
There is nothing attached...
This is so powerful....
Do not stop the wheel, please....
Of all the free gifts we may receive, Prayer is the very best one....
There are no costs, but wonderful rewards... GOD BLESS!


May God keep you and bless you.




if you are a non-christian,
and this doesn't give you chills, nothing will...
this message is very true. Hope you are all as blessed as I was from this
story.
I wonder how many people will delete this without reading it because of the
fear if making a wrong choice...
but lemme tell u.

GOD IS THE ONE AND ONLY RIGHT CHOICE!

anyway, back to the message/story.....


There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England
town.
One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old
bird cage, and set it by the pulpit.

Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response,
Pastor Thomas began to speak...
"I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward
me swinging this bird cage.
On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold
and fright.
I stopped the lad and asked,
"What you got there, son?"
"Just some old birds," came the reply.

"What are you gonna do with them?" I asked.
"Take 'em home and have fun with 'em," he answered
"I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm
gonna have a real good time."

"But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do?"

"Oh, I got some cats," said the little boy.
"They like birds. I'll take 'em to them."
The pastor was silent for a moment.
"How much do you want for those birds, son?"

"Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister.
They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even
pretty!"
"How much?" the pastor asked again.


The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said,"$10?"
The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill.
He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone.

The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley
where there was a tree and a grassy spot.

Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars
persuaded the birds out, setting them free.

Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit,
and then the pastor began to tell this story.



One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation.
Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and
boasting.
"Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there..
Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist.Got 'em all!"

"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.
Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry
and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and
smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill
each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"


"And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.
"Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan gloated proudly.
"How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why, you'll take them
and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You
don't want those people!!"

"How much?" He asked again.
Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears and your life."

Jesus said, "DONE!"
Then He paid the price.

end of story.



Isn't it funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan
(who, by the way, also "believes" in God)


Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through e-mail and they
spread like wildfire, but when you start sending messages regarding the
Lord, people think twice about sharing?

Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, you will not send it
to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or
what they will think of you for sending it to them?


Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me
than what God thinks of me.



I pray, for everyone who sends this to their entire address book, they will
be blessed by God in a way special for them.
And send it back to the person who sent it, to let them know that indeed it
was sent out to many more...


i am NOT ASHAMED OF GOD.
that is why i am sending this to you all!
He has done many miraculous and wonderous things in my life,
ranging from psle marks to saving my life TWICE!!
TWICE!
juz twice not counting the times i had choked on a fish bone, almost drowned
in the swimming pool and almost died by taking wrong medication.


I KNOW my name is written in teh BOOK OF LIFE not cuz im sending this out,
but because i entrust my WHOLE entire life in His hands, i have FAITH in
him. i LOVE him, i PUT HIM FIRST in EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING!

so....
do you?

The remaining of the 47 days
how will i spend them?
mulling over you?

oh no, i shouldnt
a waste of time,
tears

it shows that i have about 50 days left
before the end of my holidays
and i will be with you
for only less than 47 days

before you leave
perhaps forever
never coming back

has this become so serious?
i have no idea
but i think so

let me just forget about it
but i dont think i will
ever
get over you...

i;d like to say bye
but seems that i cant bear to
when will i?

or will i?

i want you to come up to me
tell me those three words
and talk to me

like we used to
before you became busy
blocking me from your life

its saddening
perhaps you will never know
and just treat me
like anyone else.

but i dont want that




didnt get to talk to ben today. decided that i would be good, have my dinner, practice guzheng before watching tv. i cant believe guzheng exam is only 26 days away. its scary. i dont know what will it be like. i am so afraid that i will freak out. yes i mean it, freak out. oh sheesh. then my dream of getting distinction will go poof.

argh. stomach ache. too much nutella and bad bread, i think. hahas. was trying to help my sis, but end up causing real bad troubles.

i shouldnt be so addicted to internet. :) i shall try to be a good girl. but its hard. but like what ms Teo said, if you want to do well, make sure you want it badly enough. and yes, i wanted so badly for an A in la, and i did it for eoys! for the whole year, i have been getting 60 and below. getting an A is a miracle. yes, a miracle of God. and thats when God comes into the picture.

i love revelations. its just so interesting. I am waiting for the second coming of the Lord. and i pray that i will be ready by then. i want to see Jesus! and yes! i must! i must see Jesus! i must see Jesus destroy the evil and the non-believers. no one knows when the second coming of the Lord is, no one, not even Jesus. Only the Father. yes, the Father. lets pray that salvation will happen!

=))

that picture is stale.
does that mark an end,
of everything?

i dont think so,
that feeling is still fresh,
fresh till it hurts me so much.

leave.
people come and go
but why you?

when will i get over you
i thought i had
but obviously, i didnt

i guess
it will remain like this
unless something happens

i must forget you
i think i will
but will i?





crap. i am getting emotional here. hahas. but i shant cry. =D sheesh.

today's cca was super crappy. laoshi keep laughing, and tingyi, hanyi and zhiyi (myself) were trying to act as superheros. XD rushing through every piece as though we are rushing to catch a train. especially 春苗. lets say that we are unlucky, and laoshi is our examiner. i bet we will get scolded badly when we are back from holidays. hohoho

next. laoshi helped my tune my guzheng because naughty me havent tuned mine. because i reached late. :S okays, supposedly its a good thing, yeah, but theres something wrong with my hearing. i was supposed to further tune it so that it will be more accurate, BUT. i took out all the bridges. and you know what laoshi said?

“你在做什么？” i explained that i thought i had to rearrange the bridges because they were in the wrong order, but she boxed my face. muahaha. not that hard though. she said, “调琴! not rearrange the bridges. " hahas. then believe it or not, she laughed at me for an hour. :$

hahas. then during cca, she keep looking at me and laugh. WHATS WRONG WITH ME? i really dont know man. people from cca, like to say that when they see me they want to laugh. hehe, people who care about me, pray tell me whether i;ve got a nose on my mouth or something...if not, WHY AM I SO FUNNY?

okays. hahas. and today i was trying to suppress my laughter during cca too. theres this song, that we were supposed to play, but we were speeding through it that laoshi wanted us to play super slowly, ONE BY ONE. dang. you know what happened to me? i played slow for the first two notes, then fastttt, then teacher raised her voice and clapping, i went slow and the way she was putting this song, its like you are mourning.

hahs. then hanyi and me were so nervous about guzheng exam. lol. we keep practising over and over again the songs today when we were supposed to practice 恒村农歌. hanyi is quite good at it. i totally screwed up that song. hahas. all the fingerings, tempo. all went poof. sigh. but who cares. it isnt one of the exam pieces. and hah. i dont how on earth am i supposed to go to the NUS arts centre. i dont even know how to get to NUS. let alone wander around the humongous campus. so if my daddy is not back on the 30th, i'd probably get lost there. :S and perhaps, police patrol will come and fetch me home. hahas. thats the worse. maybe i just catch a cab there. have lunch then go back to school for cca. :)

okays. anyways, i guess crapped enough today.

i am feeling so sick, so stressed up, so i dont know. man.

i just finished translating 2 pages. being a translator is so tough. if i'd known, i wouldnt even had taken up that job in the first place. and the online translator arent helping much. its just so...yucky. damn, at this rate i am going i will never be able to finish translating 200+ places by wednesday. isnt that bad. imagine ~~$$~~

hahas, i should being so money-faced. anyways. i am sad. someone who was overall happy. is sad. why must you leave? you just came and now u are leaving. is that God wanting me to concentrate on what i should do? argh, you are making me so vexed. you shouldnt have come in in the first place.

the comical shows are classified under stupid shows in cherie's life. because the things i laugh at, are plain stupid. hahas okays. i am crapping. dont ask me why. havent been posting good little constructive post, have i? anyways, er bb muahahaha

i feel as though my energy has been sapped. and i feel so tired. really really tired, although its a non-school day, i feel as though i am back to the pre-eoys period. everyday rushing home to do homework, revisions. sleeping at 2-3am, waking up at 5am. oh, how i dreaded those days, but at least my eoys turned out satisfactory, except for my humanities, higher chinese and science(physics and bio only). yups, in fact the other subjects, the results was quite surprising. like maths, perhaps the best mark i got in my whole sec1 life. language arts, yes. also surprising. chemistry. i cant believe that i got that mark. it wasnt that perfect, but at least, probably the only test/assignment/exam i ever passed for that module. :D you know, i bet those subjects pulled up my eoys. i guess without them i will fail my sec1.

anyway, i dont know what made me so tired. sleeping late and waking early? i have no idea man. anyway, today's ushering duty was quite good. yeah, i think so. but a little disorganised. i think. yeah, sermon was good too. being jealous, i guess is also a sin.

hahas, i am still lazy, i realised. i asked ben to scan the bulletin instead of typing it out. :)

i dont know what else to say...but today is God's Day! a day that i look forward to every week. =D

anyways, i have this splitting headache, i guess i am going to do something like reading or chatting. lets not bully my brain cells anymore!

this is the promised post.

have been slacking alot. and that isnt a good sign, cause i wont be able to catch up with the things that will be taught next year. that would be pathetically pathetic. hahas

anyway, what did i do today? i am not sure though, today has been in a daze due to lack of sleep. =P heh, actually it isnt a happy thing cause i am half awake now though its only...10.16pm, as shown on my PC clock.

what should i say?

i editted the skin, added some tracks so that people can listen to music on my blog...? i dont know. i guess thats all. =))

by the way, look to your left and you will see a pretty picture. hahas, remember to turn up for the Word Community Church Chrismas service! details are there, for more information, visit
http://wordcommunitychurch.blogspot.com the directions on how to get there is pretty clear. there is a mini map on the second post from the top of the church blog. and yups, there are bus services listed that you can take. or...you might even want to give me a call or drop me an email or sms so that i get the honour to personally escort you to our place! =))

不见不散！

I realised that I am super outdated, in the eyes of teenagers nowadays. perhaps thats just what i think. okay, maybe its not that I am outdated, its just that I am not really interested in what teenagers and maybe middle-aged women are interested in. =) Hehe, i dont really know what I really want actually, so lets just keep to what we like and prefer.

I have been reading up quite alot about revelations nowadays. maybe not that much, but i tend to chance upon books written about revelation when I go to the libray to borrow books. i was just reading this book yesterday. i think its the continuation or one of the volumes of 'Left Behind' by Jerry B.Jenkins and Tim LaHaye with Chris Fabry. The book title is 'Arrived'. Its pretty good. and it sort of, gave me a much clearer idea of what will revelation be like. afterall its just a book, and, i dont know whether i should say this, but books tend to set off our wild imagination. maybe not that wild sometimes, but honestly, for someone like me, it really gave me a pretty good idea of what revelation would be like. it really set me thinking. and yesterday i found myself staying up till 3 reading that books. and i spent perhaps, half an hour singing worship songs? but i didnt pray. i guess i am still lazy. i have yet finished packing my table, though i promisd myself that i have to so that i can set up some place of my desk to put up charts like prayer lists and wants. people want, need and change. i am no exception. i can just pray that i will still be able to stand up under temptations that i am still facing. there are still somethings that i have done and not yet forgiven myself. there is a price to pay whatever you do. like what i taught the sunday school kids a couple of weeks back. whatever you do will lead to a consequence. and if that thing you did was bad, people can forgive you, God can forgive you, you can forgive yourself, but there will be a price to pay. i realised that through teaching, i was teaching myself things too. like whatever you do leads to something. i used to be really impulsive. but that lesson i taught set me thinking. and thrpugh i learnt to think twice about what i am doing and whether it is what God wanted me to do.

'Arrived' isnt a book that is hard to read. it uses simple english and it is easy to comprehend what the author is trying to bring across. i havent finished reading the book yet, but i am sure that it would make an impact on me. the things that the characters do in the book answered serveral questions and doubts that i have. it spurred me on, motivated me to continue giving out my best to the Lord. my life on earth is temporary. and my purpose is to serve Him, no more, no less.

No one knows when the second coming of the Son will be. it can be next month, next week, or even now. even the Son dont even know when is he supposed to come, except for the heavenly Father himself. and 'Arrived' tells us, what would it be like, if revelation happens. after the rapture, there will be tribulation and good harvest. i call out to you all, that Jesus is waiting for you to accept Him. its not too late now. dont wait till its too late. and thats when you go to hell. where it will be tribulation, no matter day or night.

i wont say that i enjoyed reading the book. because the truth is i dont really know if i did. i just know something, God is coming for those who are ready for heaven, and those who are not, it is pretty clear of what will happen to you.

i realised through the books i read, i think that God is trying to tell me something. but there are still some things that i dont really understand yet. i guess. i dont know. i think i shall write again later today when i got my thoughts straigtened.

stressed.

I am desperate because:

1. i need to find a really nice clean/neat skin for my blog. hahas, seemed really unlike me to have such a thing to be desperate for...sentence structure is weird, I KNOW. hahas, but that doesnt change the fact that I am desperate for one nice skin. i mean, something clean like...i dont know? church blog? but yeah, i dont want to be sued for copyright. hehs, that was just an excuse...

2.i am in need of money, to buy stuff. stuff like...i dont know? hardly seems like i am someone who NEEDS to shop for clothes. but yeah, my mum's getting onto me. today i went out with her. in the end, we went shopping for clothes. honestly, i dont mind. but...she wanted me to try some, orange t-shirt with frillllllyy sleeves. not that i objest HER wearing it..but she wanted to buy it for me. if i ever wear that, pigs can fly and the sky can fall. okay, i am not suppose to say that but...sigh, at least understand my taste of er, clothes? maybe its not that she doesnt understand what i prefer to wear, you know those nice polo tees with buttons and decent sleeves and collars and not those ones which are V-cut (like ny school new school PE shirt). okay, i hate those. i really dont understand why can people ever like them? its just so yucky. anyway, i like those which are like ny's old pe t-shirts. maybe, without the logo. =)) that would eb really nice. next. i. dont. like. golden. jeans. whoa, if one day i wear that, pigs can fly x2 and sky can fall x2. anyways, mum was nice, she bought me some green/brown long pants with pockets. =)) i mean, LOADS of pockets. along the sides.

3.i need a piece of plastic, firm ones, like those you can find along the sides of baby cots so that babies wont bite into the wood and swallow the polish so that i can put it on my table like jiaen's and put some monthly calendar there...so that i dont have to dig through my drawers just to equip myself with some calendar. and I NEED TO PACK MY TABLE. its so freaking messy. oops, i didnt meant the use freaky. well, but it is. i find it hard to work. yeah...i would love to have a small table. that would limit the amount of stationary i like to buy. not that stationaries are collectibles, but i find myslef buying loads of them when i have mesos and dont need to buy other things. hahas. that was lame, but yeah, its true.

4.i need to BUCK UP. guzheng exam is...22 days away? and i leave my scores untouched, my exam pieces unpracticed. okays...and this years' marks, bet i did really badly. sigh, i must buck up, music wise or academic wise.

5.i needa read loads of books to equip myself with KNOWLEDGE! hahas. that was sorta lame.

6.lastly and most importantly, i need God's touch. i havent been doing quiet time well and what i do is do it in a heck-carish way. ='( i need to pray ALOT.

sigh, desperate. i need to come out with 2007 resolutions really soon. and 14 year old resolutions too. my birthday is just about 2-3 months away. sec 2...more work..whats more streaming. to get into my desired stream:
-pure biology and chemistry
-literature and history elective

i have to work SO hard! judging my my sec 1 overall, of course. i must push myself. dad said that i can do well if i have to discipline to my work. i am not a workholic. but going to such a school is...no escape for tonnes of practices and revision and hard work. i was still thinking of going to cambridge. ny's passing mark is 60%, cambridge's 70%.

well, if i can get into cambridge, it must really be God's grace...judging by the kind of qualities i have, i am suited only to go to..? i dont know...nowhere? hahas. okay.

"You are a Christian!!! Yes, so what?". I know that there is a God who loves me and watches over me all the time. He loves me so much that He is willng to sacrifice His own and only Son, which is He Himself who incarnate to the world as Jesus Christ, my personal saviour and friend. So that, through His sacrifice, to the extend of sacrificing Himself to death, and His victory against death, I can be united with Him eternally. And, it's still not finished yet! He still provides me when I'm in need, guards me when I'm in danger, strengthens me when I'm tired, cheers me up when I'm sad, and rebukes me when I'm in wrong... all is done through the work of His Holy Spirit. And because of that, I do not hesitate to put all my faith in Him, to believe Him fully. Simply because I know that He will always plan and give the best for me.

"Is there such kind of god? Such a nice God? Is He really a god in the first place?" Why should He, if He's really a God, want to sacrifice Himself?". Yes, there is!!! He is nice and loving, yet He's indeed a God. And He loves us so much that He is willing to sacrifice Himself. That's the only reason of His sacrifition: He loves us vey much, indeed.

So, "Tell me, who is this God?". He is Yahweh, literally means "I AM who I AM", simply means that He is the everlasting, self-content, omni-potent, the Most Supreme God. None could imitate Him. None could be more than Him. He can impersonate in 3 characters: God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit, yet the Three is still One, the Tri-une God.

"Hmmm, but I still do not see the point why I should follow this particular God. What makes Him different from the other gods?" Well, I simply give you my reasons why I choose to follow this God. These reasons, to tell you the truth, lay the first foundation of my personal faith to Him.

He can emphatize our feeling. To me, when I decide to follow a god, this is my first criteria of what my god should be. I would tottaly hate a god, who just wants my faith and praise... who wants me to worship him all the time... yet, he doesn't even care my problem. I don't call him a god in the first place, I would call him a leecher... no kidding : ). But being sympathetic only, to me, is not enough. Quite often, I share my problem with my closest friends... and, in response , they say "Yeah, we understand. Be strong, you can do it!". Well, I do appreciate their sympathy and encouragement... but do they really know how serious the trouble is? It's easy to say words of encouragement to others, until we are faced with the same trouble oursleves, isn't it? That's because it's very difficult for us to be able to really put ourselves in our friends' shoes and feel the same way they feel, unless you're a very sensitive and caring person (that's by itself is a gift from God actually ^_^). But, my God is different, becasue He can feel and emphatize (notice that He doesn't stop at being sympathetic only) with our difficulty. He can do that becasue He Himself has gone through all the problem itself. God knows the feeling of being tempted by the devils, because He Himself has been tempted before. God knows the hurt of being betrayed, because He also has been betrayed before, not only once but many times. How many times you have been betrayed in your life? To tell you the truth, if you happen to read the whole Bible, I think noone can surpass God's record of being betrayed... by His angels (who become known as satan), His most beloved creation (the first man himself), His chosen people (the Israelites), His disciple (Peter, Judas), etc. In fact, when He incarnate Himself as Jesus Christ, God the Son, i.e. God in human flesh, He had tasted all the bitterness of being a human. He knew the feeling of being hungry after 40-day of fasting, He grieved before, He knew what the feeling of being afraid and stressful is. In fact, He was so stressful that He's sweating blood (how many of you have ever been so stressed till you're sweating blood before? No kidding). He was embarassed so badly that even His own disciples didn't want to recognize Him. He went through all mental, as well as physical abuse, to His death. He tasted death Himself!!! And because He has gone through all these, therefore I know that I can depend on Him whenever I undergo the same troubles, and look up for His strength and cheering, the very same strength that He used when He's being tested last time, and a sincere cheering from Someone who understands exactly what problems I'm undergoing.
He provides salvation and solution. Having a friend who can empathize our problem is good, but it would be much better if he can help us solve our problem. And, indeed, my God solves the problem for me. And I am sure He can solve your problems as well. In fact, there is no problem He can't solve. And, what do you think the source of all problems in this world? It's sin. Yes, sin is the root of all problems in this world. And the source of all problems, i.e. sin, bring the boggest problem to humanity as well. What's that? I think there is no more serious problem than being separated from God. Sin separates us from God, because God, who is holy, wil not tolerate sin at all. All of us are sinful. In fact, we are sinful by nature. Not because of what we have done in the previous life (I don't believe in reincarnation anyway), but becasue the first man, whom God created, sinned. And since we are all his descendants, we inherit that sin. Thorugh one man, the first man, sin entered the world, and through One Man, God's First Born, i.e. Jesus Christ, forgiveness of sin can be attained. God provides the salvation. And, with sin being taken care off, no problem can't be solved. So, He provides solution as well.
He is trustworthy. A god who can lie is not worth our faith. How can you be faithfull to someone who can deceive you anytime? All men, even you closest friends, or you own close relatives, can deceive you, but God will not. Men's heart may falter. Put him under pressure that may threaten his life, his pride, his belongings, etc... you'll never know what sort of unimaginable thing he can do. But God can be trusted... word by word. If He says that He loves you, I dare to bet my own life, that He will always love you. Therefore, I can safely put my faith in Him. I don't need to be worried of being cheated.
He is everlasting. This is a very important character a god should have (if he's really a god). A god who can die, is not a god. That means he can be conquered by death... so death is the real god in this case, not him. A dead god is as good as no-god at all. What a dead god can do? That's why I would never understand why there are people who worship dead men (their ancestors, charismatics leaders, etc). What dead man can do afterall? But, my God is an everlasting God. Before the universe exists, He's already been there. After the final judgment, He will still be there, altogether with those who believe in HIm, in heaven. My God is the God who begins, who works and who ends. He is The Beginning and The End.
He befriends everyone. Can you imagine a god who wants to deal with a group of people only? What happen if God only wants to talk to the priests, or to the royals, or to the richs? Is He worthy of my faith in the first place? If that's the case, of course not. Now I'm rich, so that He wants to befriend me... then one day I fall poor, then He'll leave me in desperation. How can I depend to such a god? But, of course, He is not!!! He befriends everyone, and He is faithful. He won't forget me, no matter how embarassing my state is. And, to tell you the truth, one thing that is so amazing about my God is that, He looks for the sinfuls!! It's amazing, isn't it? How many gods in this world who want to go for trouble looking for sinful men? And the only reason why He does that si becasue He loves the sinfuls. Even the most sinful man, who has done the most hideous crime you can think of, God loves him, and He still wants to befriend him.
He takes initiative. Does it make a different between "You are looking for God" and "God is looking for you"? It's a big difference between the two , don't you think? That is one of the most basic differences between Christianity and other religions; Christians' God is the God who look for men, not the other way around. If your belief teaches you that it is you who looks for God, now I ask you: "What should you do to make God acknowledge you? Doing as many good deeds as possible? Fasting and meditating as often as possible? Burning incense and sacrifice as much as possible? And yet, at the end, you're still worried whether what you have done has please Him enough to acknowledge you... so ironic, isn't it? I realize my own weaknesses... I know my limit... if I were to look for God, I don't think I'll ever be able to find Him. He's holy, I'm sinful. How can a sinful man be able to meet a holy God. how much should I pay as a retribution for my sin so that I can meet Him? I will never be able to pay for it. But, fortunately my God, compelled by His love, takes the initiative to go look for men, particularly the sinfuls... the "lost sheeps". Everyone sins, except for Jesus Christ. A sinful can't help himself or other sinful, much like a lost sheep won;t be able to find a way back home himself. Hence, it must be God Himself to come down to help us. He did come, as Jesus Christ, The Messiah. He doesn't wait until you come to Him, He has already come to you... a long long time ago.
He is just. I can't imagine a god who is impartial, who can be bribed. I won't feel safe either putting my faith on such kind of god. I don't know about your god (if you have any), but for sure, my God is impartial. He doesn't show favoritism. He blesses the righteous, those who love and obey Him, and punishes the sinfuls and wrongdoings. Then you might be wondering, "If God is just, why does He befriend the sinfuls in the first place?". It simply becasue of His love. He loves the sinfuls , yet He is to punish sin. He hates sin, but He loves the sinfuls. More about this here.
He is almighty. God who is not almighty is not deserved to be called god in the first place. But my God is a powerful God. He created and take control of the whole universe just by His Words. Nature obeys Him. No illness He can't cure. No sin, He can't forgive. He triumphs over death. He can kick satan out as easily as snapping His finger. Tell me, what He can't do?
"You are talking about this guy, Jesus, just now. Who is this guy? What did he do?". Jesus Christ is God in human flesh. He is fully God, and at the same time He is fully human. Being a God, He inherits all of God's characters above. Being a human, He inherits all human limitations. He can get hungry, sleepy, tired, etc. He went through all kind of evil temptation that we face in our daily life. But the most important thing that He has done is His act of sacrifition, so that we, sinful men, can atatn our salvation.

"But, I still don't understand what this God can do for you? Afterall He died just like you said". Yes, He died... for you and me. But don't forget the He also rose again from the deads to prove His victory, so that anyone who believe in Him will also share that victory altogether in heaven.

"Believe in Him? Is that all the condition to get into heaven? Is that enough?". Yes, that's all, no less and no more. That's actually what distinguishes Christian from other beliefs. It's not how much good deeds we have done... or anything... that determine our salvation. But it's our faith, whether or not we believe in His act of salvation, i.e. by dying on the cross and rose again on the third day, that will essentially determine our salvation. If you believe, you're saved, if not... then too bad. Our salvation comes by grace. It's a present from God Himself. Not by our works, so that noone can boast that s/he acquires his/er own salvation by works.

"If good deeds is not important, does it mean that Christians are allowed to do anything... or not to do anything? Afterall, what's the point of performing good deeds if your God doesn't appreciate it?" Who says so? That's not true at all. It's every Chrtsian' duty to perform good deeds... for 2 reasons:

First and the most fundamental reason is that to give thanks to God, becasue He's already so kind to us in the first place.
Because God tells us to do so. It's God's order to every Christian to love our neighbors and, we'll be condemned wrong if we do evil to others, or even if we don't help others when we know that they're in in need of our help.
So that's another one of the most basic differences between Christianity and other beliefs; Christians, as people who have experienced directly the kindness and goodness of God, show our thanksgiving by doing good deeds to other. We don't burn offering, God is already so rich that no matter how expensive our burnt offering is, it means nothing to Him. We don't just sit there and praise Him with flattery words; He doesn't need our flatterings. As He is the God who acts, He wants us to act as well... realizing our faith into action. Faith gives rise to obedience... if you have faith in someone, you'll obey whatever he says, won't you? And God's order is to reach out to others, to show the same kindness that He has shown to others. If you do the opposite way... or if you don't do it... you've defied God's order. Consequently, He'll question your faith. Good deeds is not our ticket to salvation, it's a bare-fruit of our salvation.
"How do you happen to know all this?" First and foremost, because it is all written in Bible, as simple as that. But that's not all. I do learn about Jesus and all other Bible stories from my parent, sunday-school teachers, my friends in my fellowship group, my cell-group mates... and I do learn from my personal experience as well. If you have read my short autobiography in MySelf, you might've probably noticed how much I credited all my achievements to God. You might think that it's all just fate, or it's all just coincidental... But, to me if it's indeed because of fate, then indeed God has been so kind to give me such a fate, since it's all too good to be a coincidence.

"Now you talk about Bible... What is Bible? Why should I believe in what the Bible says? Is it realiable in the first place?" Bible is God-inspired words, written by men throughout different ages. By saying so, there are few implications I would like to emphasize (based on my belief)

The orginality of the Bible came from God Himself. He is the inspirator. He is the Grand Author of the Bible.
But the Bible was written by human's hands. God did not dictate the Bible word-by-word. Instead, He inspired the writer to write the Bible in accordance with God's inspiration.
Thereby, as men always make mistake, there might be mistakes here and there in the Bible. That's why some skeptics or non-Christians sometimes attack Bible to be inconsistent between one passage with another. And I admit that such cases can be found in the Bible.
The detailed facts might be wrong, yet the teaching that the Bible wants to deliver to the readers would never be wrong. If I find such story where this prophet went to city A... while in the other passage, the writer claimed that the prophet actually went to city B... and so on and so forth... that won't bother me more than just a slip-of-the-writer's-mind (which writer was wrong, I don't know... and I don't care either). What would bother me more is the prophet's teachings, i.e. what he was trying to say, as the messanger of God, to the people of God and how it affects my life as part of God's people under the circumstances of our everyday-life-issues. Take for example, I don't really care whether the universe was created in 6 days... or 6 months... or 6 years... What I need to understand is that God created the univerese. That's the messsage the first chapter of Genesis trying to say: God is the Creator of the universe. Being God the Creator, it's my duty to praise and give thanks to Him , as well as to take the environment around me... because it's not mine... it's His.
Also, as men's knowledge and wisdom are limited by time and space, we should be cautious in reading and interpreting the Bible. Yet I believe that Christian teachings, as written in the Bible, is independent of space and time. Hence, Bible will never become outdated nor limited by place
Neither is Bible a science textbook, nor it's a book of codes for foretelling events in the future. It's true that you can discuss some phenomena in Bible from the science perspective, though not all. Indeed, that Bible tells us something about the past, present and future. But, that's not the main point. The main point of the Bible is actually God's act of salvation through the crucifixion and resurrection of His only Son, Jesus Christ. The Old Testament prophesies about His coming, and the New Testament shows the fulfillment of the prophecy.

It's one of the obligation of every believer to bring the good news about Jesus Christ and His Act of Salvation (also known as the Gospel) to others. But, by no means I'll ever force you to take up Christianity, nor I have the authority, even I want to. But God Himself will call you personally. Remember that He's the God who's looking for men. Open you heart and mind... humble yourself... and listen!!! He is there calling for you!

adapted that from somewhere. =)) hope it helps answer some of the non-christians' questions. =))

hahas, i am so bored nowadays that i dont even know what am i doing. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO! hahas, okays, thats getting serious.. lol. perhaps i should start on my holiday assignments soon before i even die of boredom. hahs! :/ who ever heard of someone who died of boredom?

lol anyways. i passed! =D but it isnt a good pass. =( ok, i passed by 1.14% thats so pathetic. hahas. means without this 1.14%, i will fail and i will have to either get retained or change school. hahas. that will be really sad. so, i got 61.14% for overall. i am happy that i didnt get kicked out. I am sad that i didnt get a B3 overall. hahas kks, just work hard next year. :/ i think i say that EVERY year.

okay...i dont know what else to say...i am just so bored! plus, i WANT MY NEW BOOKS! but i wont get them until i clear out my stuff. okaes, i am really pathetic. but i dont wanna pack. its just some lame thing which neat freaks do, like my sisters.

sigh sigh sigh, since i woke up i have been staring at this 17" screen...hahas. someone suggest what should i do???

signing off
a despo. freak who doesnt know what to to
cherie


*bows*

hahas. that was ultra lame. okay. uh, for the past week...monday i forgot what i did...tuesday, i went to sch at 8AM in the morning for choral night full-dress rehearsal. 1-5pm slack time. 5pm-11+ choral and go home time. wed-fri everything the same. reach home really late. esp. thurs. caught in a jam for 40min. thats so...boarded the bus at 10pm, reached home at 11.40pm. wasted so much time on that bus. sighs. and you know what? the jam was caused by...a tree!

hahas. oh, monday i went out with my parents. kay

thats all i think...

i'm just so bored

sorry people, but i really really want want want want to post something nice here...but my brainjuice sort of...dried up due to boredom...

Havent really posted for quite some time, yeah. so i will be serving that purpose now.

have been reading alot these days, until my mum complains. the tv is rarely turned on these days, so the only entertainment without having to switch on the computer is to read books. angels and demons isnt a good/godly book. it is certainly hard to put it down but still, the storyline..i sorta dont reaally agree with it. i mean, read Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code and Angels and Demons, seemed to be so anti-Christ.

okays.

holidays so far is ok...went back to school 4 times this week because of choral night and yesterday cca and choral night. hahas. i have to buck up, if not im not gonna get distinction for this year's guzheng exam....

its a been almost 2 months since i last touched my guzheng, other than yesterday. in fact, i havent been practicing at all. ahas. AT ALL. i am serious, other than listening and coaching my brother how to play mary hada little lamb nicely. hahas. okok

i dont know what i wanna post about. thats sad. okays. i am crapping. hahas

yesterday cca was damn crappy. i was crapping all the way with hanyi, but we are pro multitaskers. haha. so we play guzheng and crap at the same time. XD

lol and yesterday mr chia er, he said hello and I SAID HELLO BACK and he said i didnt. hahas, but aha. i dont know, lol forget it man, anyways, he IS funny. weird sometimes. weirdest teacher i've ever seen.

oh and i know who is detective max already. he/she is chewfei. hahas. i keep seeing her name but dont know who is she. ruimin kept mentioning her name but i stil didnt know who is she. hahas, was a loser. LOSER!!

ok. hahas shall go read books nows.

adventure quest, level 27. congratulate me . *bows*

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

hah. choral night is OVER. hahas. i think i screwed some parts up. but nvm..congratulate me i am typing in pitch black darjness...