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erica: hmm, force yourself to read them? haha, that was how i actuallt learnt to read. but sometimes books can be a real bore too. like i'll just fall asleep reading them :/ haha. i've been trying to read 'Kiss Dating Goodbye' by Joshua Harris and its a little...er boring. haha. yeah. but i guess my crave for books wavers. :) wanna meet up? i'm sorry i missed the previous meeting though

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you were too much of a play thing to me. too fancy, to pretty, demanding so much attention from me. dazzling blogskins, tagboards. too fancy. i've been looking for something you havent been able to provide me with, so well. bye blogger, i'm off to somewhere looking more intellectual than you.

4 years of memoirs. i'm not about to bin them. so...

here i am

anyway, tagboard will still be alive, links will be updated. i'll be using this place still. tags and links, and other blogs.

see you guys around (:

its rather early right now, way to early for a 14 year old to be online yada. okay, this reminds me of a conversation we had during one cell meeting.

ps.d: give me some practical solutions as to rising up against temptations. (more of sexual temptations, like bgr sex et cetera)
m: oh, i go to bed with my brother

*cell erupts with laughter*

we all knew what it meant, haha. going to bed the same time as his brother, but it just sounded wrong. oh wells.

but the point is, i dont get sexually aroused by the things they post on the next, really. say i'm not interested in R21 stuffs. hahaha. okay, i'm not supposed to anyway. but yeah, i dont do/watch/read sick stuff on the net or go online at 4am so that i can do ungodly stuff away from my parents' prying eyes.

just that i've been living new york time, waking up at 5pm, sleeping at 6am. ah wells, i dont think its insomnia, its just me who prefers to be alone, and the only chance when you can be alone is now. more or less.

been entertaining myself, in a way, reading xiaxue and ms-beutifuk. interesting people. been reading outverse also, and i'm appreciating their writing styles. there're people whose writing styles, or rather blogging styles dsgust me quite a little.

i wont go into detail of how i feel, or what i analyze. it would be a tad too offensive although whatever meant might never have been offensive in the first place.

i mean, i would feel offended too. like what right do you, a total stranger to me, have to analyze me?

anyway, i was just thinking about stuffs, just random thoughts and i realised that whatever thats written on blogs is very much affected by the audience. say you know your crush's reading your blog, and you write stuffs to try to attract his attention.

oh wells, its pretty much obvious aint it, there was once when whatever i wrote on the blog was meant for only that someone to see. nah...i've outgrown that already. to write the utmost and true feelings and thoughts of someone, you need to have a private blog. i'm one of those people.

ah, i'm just trying to occupy time, slowly waiting for the facebook to load. i swear i'm addicted.

i wanna know you more, really. i came to realised that i never really knew you, if not i wouldnt have wallowed in self-misery for so long.

think i'm trying to push the blame onto you, but yeah. i shouldnt have stooped so low just to 'get even'. red words in caps, largest font. now that i think about it, i came to see how stupid i was.

remember m who stood up for you? i wonder how things are going on between you too, so-so i guess. nothing special, thats the kind of credit you give a friend for standing up for you for so long, spend so much time trying to make me crawl up to you to utter apologies.

wasn't the only one you tried hurting, was it? you're good at it, just look at the amount of people's life you claimed to have messed up. you're good at dismissing friends. but whats the point of apologising so much now when like you said the harm has already been done? you hafta change this bad habit of yours ya know, you cant expect people to keep bowing down to you like a does...

not a really 'christian-like' post aint it?

facebook's addictive...:/

and i'm guilty...

look at the time :(

sometimes you just have to look beneath the skin.

haha, it's not gonna be an emo post. i read this article recently about the word 'emo'. it wasn't exactly an article, it's just kind of like a...comment kind of thing. i'll look for the article and then post it. yup.

genting was fun. haha...i'm a little immune to things, almost everything i think, maybe except for feelings. heh. okays.

verse of the day by oherie:

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am
your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with
my righteous right hand.
¬Isaiah 41:10¬

concert. man. that's so.

haha, expected lah, i cant play yiguren. really. as in i can, but i cant memorise, i have the memory span of a goldfish.

there're things to thank God for, as usual (:

i've been reading this book, Friends for a Season. its quite a cool book. read it (: its by Sandra Byrd.

anyway, i suddenly dont have stuffs to write. hahahahha...okay. whatever (: