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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

its been about 2 days since i last posted here. this is going to be a hurried post, because i am going offline soon. my sis is @ ncc. my da just went to submit the form. french and AEP. shocking huh? never liked art. even now. buit have to force myself to take aep. because, fees will be levied. vexed vexed vexed. then, theres this cca thing. i dont know which one to choose. most probably co or gz. but i want basketball because i want to grow taller. anyway, these aree the least of my worries. for now. just for now,. i will be getting my brace soon. realy soon. on the 19th december. you can say that i am rather excited. but it will be nice if my teeth will not bite into my tongue when i speak. anyway, will be getting my separators fo my teeth on the 12 dec. maybe earlier. okays. gotta stop. wanna play game now.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

I hate quarrels. i really do. and here i am, talking to my blog, people say that i am venting my anger on my blog.this thing is driving me crazy. and i dont see why i should explain things to every single body who questions me. i just don't see why. therefore, i have decided to leave them alone. i don't belong to them. and i dont see why i must entertain such people who doesnt even try to check out the facts before accusing people. forget about it.

Sunday, November 27, 2005

my dear sis is sick. made me so sad. loads of bad things coming on the way, i think. i am vexed enough. first, i only got 252 for PSLE. and i know that my parents have higher expectations. i really don't know what to do. i just know that they are disappointed with me. i am disappointed with myself too. i just cant think of a better reason to explain why i did so badly. secondly, i didnt get scholarship. which means, school fees, $200 per month and $750 per year because of IP. and $105 per year because i signed up for the school bus service to the MOELC because i will be taking french. so much money involved. i calculated. if i had got scholarship, i would be able to save my parents $8976 throughout my life in nanyang. thirdly, i have some regrets of applying for nanyang during the DSA. if i had not been admitted, i will surely put crescent girls as my first choice and leave the rest of the choices BLANK. haiz. so much worries and so vexed. and there are stil people bothering me. there are things which i cant help it and there are things that you cant help it. and obviously, these bothersome people cant wait to bother me. maybe another day? haiz.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

\hey! got some things to post about. today, is my brother's graduation. i didnt go. perhaps, it was too boring. went to the library during that period of time. i saw sheena. was borrowing some books. though. i love the library. i love it. i think i am going to go there every single day. just for now. and then, there was more serious things. my sis fainted in the kitchen today. there was no one at home, except for me. i was so scared. she worried me sick. she cut herself and suddenly became wild. she claimed that she didnt hear me although i shouted very loudly. i thought that the opposite block could here me. haiz. i think she had seizure. woke up moments later and claimed that he didnt see me or hear me or didnt even know that she had boxed me though her eyes were wide open. so scary. i was very worried. and my dad, went out without taking his phone with him. couldnt contact him though. gotta attend to my sis myself. haiz. shes weak. she changed after she came back from the 3 days 2 mights camp yesterday. gotta look after her. i cried later when she was sleeping. i dont know why. love her too much too. heex. i told her to leave nc. she was rather reluctant. i think she isnt the kind who is up for such tough things for guys. i know that this post is jumbled up. but i couldnt help it. my brain's jammed. and then, i am worrying. i got into nanyang but didnt get scholarship. fees, 200 per month. plus 750 more because of IP. the only resort s to take up art elective. have to force myself to like art, even if i dont like it. you never know. i might be an artist one day. but i dont know. and, about 3rd language, i want french, mum didnt let. she said she didnt want me to waste time learning such things. i want so because xinhui also taking french and she had put ny first choice. she got 270. so ny is sure for her. no worries. me? was so envious. so green with envy. anyway, i got to go and bathe now. oh, yes, i got some books from the library regarding art, hopefully, i will fall in love with it(of which, i am not so certain) anyway, i can only blame myself for not working hard. want to know how shan did though, she is in china. hipe to keep in touch with her. bye bye. i am going to visit the toilet. monotonous, huh?

Thursday, November 24, 2005

so depressing. today, i got my PSLE results. only 252. i expected myself to do better. at least a 258. too bad. but at least i got into special stream. how i wish i could do as well as whai peng and xinhui and the rest. so sad.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Waking up to find myself in an empty room. Planning what time to use the computer only to find that i have the computer to myself.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Hello! I think that I am getting crazy. Yesterday, I got a very bad dream. You know what? I got 188 for PSLE! Argh!!! I think I am really crazy. Hahas, and then I dreamt that I was so disapointed that I crushed the result slip. Snd you know what??? The most ridicules thing happened. I smoothened it and the score became 271. I almost fainted. Very ridicules. Now everyday, I am having nightmares. Because my results will be released very soon. Forget about it. Just see what I can do. Hopefully, I can get what I wished. Then, it would be a dream come true. By the way, I have been writing very long novels to my friends and teachers including Mrs Ng. Very long. The longest one so far was 10 sides. I will be writing to more today. I guess, my hands gonna break. ;) But I must say, my handwriting has improved. Something to rejoice about. Alright. Gotta stop writing now. Gonna play a game.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Stupid me.
Today, Whai Peng made me cry. She accused me of many things that I had not done. I am not angry or something, but just hurt, very hurt. My heart is crying. My heart has been unmercifully wrenched apart, and my tears are the blood, flowing, flowing, flowing, none stop. My heart is crying, crying indeed. I am no longer going to protect her face. I have decided that I am going to post all the emails she wrote to me on this blog. I was so hurt. So hurt. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. She's a liar. An ultimate, well-polished liar. I was so stupid to believe all her craps. Yes, she's a genius, I am a dumbo. A dumbo that has been fooled by her, once and again. But, I never realised. I AM A FOOL! A FOOLED FOOL!

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Chongfu Chongfu I love YOU!
It has been a few days since i last posted. Sorry! Couldnt be bothered. LOL. Well, I actually had had a great time. So, I have many things to write about. Therefore, I need your co-operation to read patuently. Hahas. On Thursday, I had my VERY LAST assembly talk in Chongfu. 6 Gracious assembled in the hall at 8.30am. The P3s and the P4s were suppose to file in at around 8.10am while the P5s and the P6s at 8.20 pm. But all in all, we should all be settled in the hall by 8.30am. My class reached the hall exactly at 8.30pm. We were a bit late too. In spite of that, we still managed to make it on time. Then, Mr Reis went up onstage to call us class by class. In the end, every class was in the hall except for 5 Respectful. Yeah, Ms Yow's always like that. That's what she calls 'Make full use of your time.' Very funny. She likes to push things all the way to the last inute. Yes! That's her. Hahas! The 'assembly talk' turned out to be a farwell party for Mrs Ng. It was realy fun! Well, I dont remember all the details, but I will still tell you all I can remember about it. Let's see. First, we waited for 5 Respectful to settle down, which was at about 8.40am? Okays. Then they sent Mr Stephen Lim to go and inform Mrs Ng that something urgent has happened. But he was SMILING!!! How could he? Really. He needs to brush up his acting skills. Seriously. Okay. Anyway, later we got some nice things and gifts for Mrs Ng. Nothing else. On Friday, sadly and happily, it was the graduation for the P6s and prize-winners. You want to know something? This is my first few times going onstage to receive something decent like certiicates. And then, after prize-giving, we had a surprise farwell party again for Mrs Ng. We danced, we sang, we screamed, we yelled, I cried. Really. I was so sad that Mrs Ng was leaving Chongfu. So damn sad. I am afraid that once Mrs Ng leaves, Chongfu will collapse in a matter of a few seconds like the World Trade Centre in America did. I was so sad. I wanted to cry. Then, everything ended. I guess if Mrs Ng didnt stop the teachers, the whole farwell party will carry on and on until everyone in the hall is crying. Hahas, just joking. Then all the rest were dismissed for refreshments, all except for the P6s. We stayed back for Mr Chng, our alumni chairman to speak to us. Say that the alumni needs our support and all. I promise, I am going to go back to Chongfu whenever possible. =] Chongfu rocks and can rock the whole world! Then, me and xinhui and xuelun and erica went for refreshments in the canteen. We talked and talked and talked and ate. Yeah, then we took some photos of each other before xinhui and shumin left. Then, me erica and xuelun stayed back to get some 'important stuff' done. We left the canteen at about 11.20am and went to the general office to look for Mrs Ng. But we were told that she was still in the hall. We went to the hall and saw that only the school attendents were there. Then we thought of the VIP lounge. That's when we started waiting for Mrs Ng, Mr Pek, Ms Phua and the rest to come out after there lunch. Soon, they finished with their food and started to file out. Me and Xuelun jumped at the chance and took photos with and of Mrs Ng. It was so nice. The rest of the schoolmates who were also waiting for Mrs Ng asked me to help them to take photographs of themselves standing with Mrs Ng. Soon, the photo taking session was over and we took turns to let Mrs Ng write in our autograph books. I also aked for Mrs Ng's email address. Nice. Then Mrs Ng talked to me for about 10 minutes or so. Cool. Then we xl, eri and i took photographs of the school and all. Then we left at 12pm to head for home. I gave xl my autograph book to write in. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- when all the odds were over, it was 3.15pm already. I then left the house along with my bro, sis and dad to head for caueway point. Where we met xh, xl and eri. I was abit late, because of the train. Hahas. Okays. Then, at about 4.10pm, 5 minutes ofter i arrived, we went to the cinema. We bought the tickets for the 5pm Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire slot. So much time left. What to do? We went for an icecream treat. Yummy yummy. Can you believe it? we took half an hour to finish that icecream. We renamed outselves(xl, xh,eri and myself)' The Horde Of Dirty Ice'Cream Eaters'. Hahas. Okays then 4.45pm, my dad, sis and bro went to buy chips while xinhui and erica went to sit in the cinema. Me and xuelun went to but popcorn and sprite. cool. we settled into the cinema at 5pm exactly and the movie started at about 5.05pm. I love the show. It kept scaring people. me and xuelun keep jumping in our seats. Hahas, so funny. and we keep digging into the bix of popcorns and keep drinking the sprite and didnt pass it to eri and xinhui. LOL. then after the show which ended like about 7.30pm, me, xh and eri had dinner together. so sad that xl cant join us, she couldnt reach her parents. okays. Then, after my dad and sis and bro left to have dinner with my elder sis, we went decided where to have our dinner. bk, kfc or mac's or mos. then we decided mos. we shared a small fries and large peach tea and each of us had a burger. Delicious. we left the restaurant at about 8.30pm and went windowshopping. at the sametime, we looked out for a neoprint machine. however, in the end, we decided that it was a waste of money and went to popular. i looked for some stationary. after bought them, i catched xh and eri. then we went to the converse shop to look at somethings. i found a wallet that i want but i did not have enough money, so we decided that we will come back another day to buy things and watch chicken little at the sametime. we had a nice outing. then we got some snacks at old chang kee before laeving for home. we boarded the MRT train at 9pm and all of us alighted at Yishun. xh and eri took 859 home while i took 811. i lent then my unbrella as there was a slight drizzle then. i had enjoyed my graduation day. we took lots of photos and celebrated as though tomorrow was the end of the world.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Saddened and Touched. God's will?
I don't know whether i should say all these, but it seemed that we should each voice out what's deep in out hearts. You know, I am so agitated. You see. I've got ears to hear and I am sure that God has eyes to see. I shall think about it before I post everything on my blog.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Its been a long time...
Hey! I know that I haven't posted for awhile, but here I am, back again, as good as new. (Maybe.) Hahas. Well, really. For the past few days, there has been things that might seem interesting to oyu. So...let's start. First things first. Yesterday, I got back my report book. Everything on my report books sucks, maybe a few exceptions ONLY. I am not trying to show off or anything, just sharing somethings with you. Well, I think my results were the best among those in P5 and P6. Going to come back and post later. feeling so bad.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

L-O-S-T
i don't really bother to do anything nowadays. i am just not bothered, very disturbed. and it is VERY. i just dont know why. I think it somehow has got something to do with whai peng. haiz. i dont know. yeah, lost, that's it. mind you. i am leaving this blog behind me and will be creating a new blog for next year. its five or more days to graduation, so, seeya guys. especially those who heard all my problems. Cheers!

Thursday, November 10, 2005

HAPPY 90TH BIRTHDAY CHONGFU!
Hey guys! Yesterday...ROCKS!!! I am going to miss yesterday, because yesterday was Chongfu's 90th anniversary! And it's not that I went for the performance or rather dinner, I was the emcee, along with other fellow emcees. WE ROCK and WE CAN ROCK THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD! Man, interesting. Really. Before the whole concert cum dinner, we were all grumbling about the energy sapping rehearsals. But all were worth it, isn't it? I won't forget those emcees who keep helping me because I am a green horn Captain Patriotic. BRENDA ZHEN ZHENG PETRINA SHERMAN ALYSON FATIMAH WING YAN YI XIN SHEENA and... MYSELF, of course. As well as the teachers, MRS LOW MDM WONG MDMD CHIA MRS WONG MRS MIRANDA who else did I miss out? The artistic director and his crew, MR JEFFREY TAN ZOO and etc. I thought that we put up a perfect performance. Really. No joke. I wish we could all do it again. Just reading the lines would make great pleasure. Maybe some of us will end up crying, you never. You just never know. What's more, we've got professionals to do up our hair, make up. Cool. I had never felt so great before. Really. Seriously. Whew! I am not thankful that yesterday was over, in fact, I want it to happen again. Gosh! My sis is screaming. Gonna see what is happening. Wait a minute. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Oh my! She fell during NCC practise. My GOD! Why can't she just be more careful? Clumsy! Maybe I won't know what had happened or how did it happen unless I was in her shoes. By the way, I am still very high. Yes. Physically tired but mentally no. I am not joking. Actually, I wanted to post yesterday, but I was so physically tired that the moment I came out from the bathroom, I feel asleep. So, I got to post today, that's all. Yesterday, all was okay except that why must HE come on my best day? That's the first bad news. Next, there was some bit of technical problems during the screening of the school video. Lastly, I 'scraped' my leg because my sister's NO.3 boots was too small for me. Wait a minute. I think I forgot something else. No. Two more things. Yesterday, Mr Tharman read us a 'novel' a welcome address which was, let's see, 30 minutes long? And I said some wrong lines yesterday. Yes. That's about all the happenings of yesterday. Both good and bad things. Now, the first bad thing which happened today was that I overslept and missed 11 am. Which means that I couldn't catch Big Breakfast at MacDonald's. Yeah. First bad things of today. Never mind. I am getting hungry, so I will eat my mum's big lunch instead. That's all folks.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Been some day...
Well, it is the big in just a few hours time. It is 10.38pm now. in a few hours, it will b 12 midnight. I will be waking at...lets see...9.30am? I need to wash up and remomorise the script to be extra sure at 6pm the next day. Yeah, you are right. Its has been 90 years. It will be a grand celebration tomorrow. VVIPs, GOHs. Really, it's going to be really grand. Wish me luck guys! By the way, I am the Captain. I think I am not authoritative enough. Hahas, really. Thats what my friends told me. Be more stern, more authoritative, more confident. I just need to go. Will post more the next time. Haven't much time left. Seeya!

Sunday, November 06, 2005

as i scanned the sky for hope, i didnt realise that hope has already made its way here
i just know something. life must go on. no matter what happens. how disheartening it is. life still must go on. you might have lost your wife. you might have cancer. you might have lost a very good friend. you might have lost some pride, some hope, or even all the hope, all the pride. but life must go on. it still does. The meaning of life is the finding of the LORD True enough. Many who still havent found the LORD is sad. they havent found the meaning of life. they keep wndering, what am i here for? what should i do while on Earth. and where do i get my answers? the answer is simple. READ YOUR BIBLE TODAY, and find the meaning of life. If you found the meaning of life, you have found the LORD. when you have found HIM, you have found the meaning of life. open the doors of your heart. open your bible. learn and live your life well.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

as i scanned the sky for hope, i didnt realise that hope has already made its way here
i just know something. life must go on. no matter what happens. how disheartening it is. life still must go on. you might have lost your wife. you might have cancer. you might have lost a very good friend. you might have lost some pride, some hope, or even all the hope, all the pride. but life must go on. it still does. The meaning of life is the finding of the LORD True enough. Many who still havent found the LORD is sad. they havent found the meaning of life. they keep wndering, what am i here for? what should i do while on Earth. and where do i get my answers? the answer is simple. READ YOUR BIBLE TODAY, and find the meaning of life. If you found the meaning of life, you have found the LORD. when you have found HIM, you have found the meaning of life. open the doors of your heart. open your bible. learn and live your life well.

we lost, but we won
on the surface, it seems that we lost. but deep in our hearts, we know that we had won.

Friday, November 04, 2005

you know, its been so long since i had posted. a few days, i think. I have been so tired, and not to mention that my bones are shattering. i am so tired of these emcee practises. oh whatever. so tired. i want to lie on the bed and sleep forever!!! geez, but too good to be true. Tomorrow is SATURDAY! YEAH!!!! i love saturdays. i can sleep late, all the way till 12.30 in the afternoon. Good yeah? LOLs yeah, today i am thoroughly SAPPED. really SAPPED!!! i feel as though my bones are snapping. geez... just gotta keep striving, thats all. luv yah guys!

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

The HOPE of life lies in my hands :)
Yeah, thats right. The hope of life lies in my hands. You know, I had never wondered how to live my life. This is just an introduction on what I had, not really learnt but rather realised. I shall stop talking on this. There's a hidden meaning. I am sure that it will be useful