spring onion

if only i had $2000 muahahaha.

okayyy. :( the thing is i don't. bleh. what's the point. byebye

back to packing

ah. i realise i have been neglecting my blog for 3 days now. but no matter. i am here to post.

i have been packing my room for the past 2 days and yeah, i'm almost done. soon. i threw away some things that i didn't bear to throw last december. example: P6 autograph books. not that i do not miss my fellow classmates, but after so long, i feel that those messages weren't sincere. no offence to some, but i think it's time to move on.

just yesterday night or early today morning, i can't remember, my sister was asking me how much effort did she put in to study last term, and i told her 35%. uh, she didn't so really well this term. i didn't too. and she was saying "you study so hard and you say you only put in __% of effort?" ah! i don't know what was she thinking but still, i think there's still room for improvement. uh, there is always room for improvement, but i think i can do much better with whatever i have in my hands. back to the packing.

i think packing my area has only one good point and that is i get the motivation and drive to study. but after all the furniture moving and yadayada, i always feel tired and i won't feel like studying at all. haha. what's wrong with me. bleh.

anyway. what was i about to post? uh. yeah. just some trivial incidents. lalala.

what else. nothing else. after feeding my pets i shall go pack some more so that i can go to city harvest church with my sister and her friend(s) tomorrow. i haven't even topped up my ez-link card. :( can't even take train.

oh yeah. my title. now there's this hongkong drama serial airing from 10pm to 11pm on weekdays. the chinese title of the drama is fine, but the english one sounds kinda weird. to get unstuck in time. i'm still trying to figure out what's the next best english title for it. my dad's challenge. hahaha.

okays. never mind. keep praying.

that interest has diminished

1 Corinthians 14:12 (NIV)
So it is with you. Since you are eager to have spiritual gifts, try to excel in gifts that build up the church.

1 Corinthians 12:28
And in the church God has appointed first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then workers of miracles, also those having gifts of healing, those able to help others, those with gifts of administration, and those speaking in different kinds of tongues.

tragedy struck me.

i inserted some super sharp THINGS into my finger. i dont think i can play gz now. sian.

i grabbed the soldering iron by the iron and not the insulator and i got myself a barbercued hand.

i hate physics.

oh wells, i just love the soldering part and melting solder to make them into round shiny cute paper weights. ((:

tragedy struck me.

i inserted some super sharp THINGS into my finger. i dont think i can play gz now. sian.

i grabbed the soldering iron by the iron and not the insulator and i got myself a barbercued hand.

i hate physics.

oh wells, i just love the soldering part and melting solder to make them into round shiny cute paper weights. ((:

tragedy struck me.

i inserted some super sharp THINGS into my finger. i dont think i can play gz now. sian.

i grabbed the soldering iron by the iron and not the insulator and i got myself a barbercued hand.

i hate physics.

oh wells, i just love the soldering part and melting solder to make them into round shiny cute paper weights. ((:

i am so mad at myself.

3 hours ago, i THOUGHT i lost a few worksheets. (including those that i did but never handed up). so i spent my past 3 hours redoing them. then wala!

at 1am, i found them. how very clever.

Today's my mum's official birthday. celebrated it 3 times this year. or was it 4? 5? i can't remember heh.

the first one with paternal side relatives,
the second one with church,
the third one with maternal side relatives

today my mum got so sick of the birthday-celebration 'procedures' that she said," Just cut the cake and eat." hahaha.

nice strawberry cake with loads of strawberry and cream. anyways. yup.

tmr last day of sabbaticals leh. nice. hahas. kinda enjoyed this week. not really. hope that next year sabbaticals will end earlier then i can reach home earlier then i can watch loads of movies. ((:

today was tiring. i kept yawning. hahas. then cca. i was half here half there. erps. i dont know. anyway. this was how cca went today:

2.30pm i reached M301 with jessica choo with a sense of foreboding cause we thought we were late.
2.40pm started to move instruments and put on nails after 10min of lazing around.
2.45pm all set, started practicing on our own.
3pm laoshi not here yet
sometime around 3pm laoshi came. but then she went of again.
after laoshi went off: practice on our own
i think at 5 did we practice ju2hu1tai2.

i got ju2hu1tai2's pu3 today. so i was practically sightreading. and hello. i am so sotong when it comes to sightreading okay. whats more Gdiao4. i keep playing the song in D then i will pause stare at the score then the strings then start playing again. sotong right?

oh yeah. before laoshi came i was desperately trying to get my ben1chi2 right. bleh. i got it. (: jiang1jun1ling4 also. left hand left. hahas. must co-ordinate properly. i want to get my distinction for grade8 lehh. i dont want it to be like last year. how many more marks to distinction? 2 marks. and the worst of the worst is that i tripped and also fell flat on my face when i arranged the scores on the stand. my face was beet root red. too nervous lah.

this year cannot let this kind of thing happen again. i feel so embarrassed when i think about that fateful day.

i realise i'm writing a lot of crap here.

yesyes. this is my crap blog. no worries, i have another blog for serious stuff.

oh yeah. i counted. i should get a 80gb iPod. you know why?

iPod thats 80GB, its $598. which means for each 1GB of space, you pay only $7.50.
Creative Zen Mission: M 60GB costs $499 and that's the discounted price. for each 1GB of space, you pay $8.30.

iPod cooler. hahas. but it's huge. but no matter. i shall buy pants with huge pockets from today onwards. (:

what else am i saving for? KJV Bible and crumpler.

wahhh tingyi got a 30GB iPod for her birthday. :) must hurry up save, then i can buy one. (:

okays. that's it.

btw. if you want me to read your blog, please vet your entry so that there aren't much major grammar tragedies. and please avoid using tweet language or whatever they call it so that i won't die of a strong temptation of wanting to copy and paste it in a word document, vet it, and send it back to you.

i am getting so fed-up. trust bad grammar can destroy one of my favourite hobbies of blog hopping.

i hate where i'm sitting at now.

anyway. i realised i've been neglecting my blog for awhile now. i havent been writing since late last friday night or early saturday morning. a few days wouldn't make a difference, i suppose.

sabbaticals week.
ah. yesterday was horrible, for the afternoon sabbatical, i mean. the first half of basic electrons, i was totally drifting off to some other lands. because it was theory. heh. and that speaker was speaking so slowly. boring. the practical part was okay. but a little brain busting. hah. i fear to face what's coming up tomorrow. today was alright. just that we did soldering and weren't allowed to bring my structures home. unfair. :( hahas. sorry. but yeah, the fumes made me giddy.

song composition was alright so far. but trying to put in the lyrics into the melody or suitable melody is no easy task. but i learnt things. without piano background, its hard to go anywhere in the music world. really. so i'm officially going to start piano lessons. withdraw from malay.

going to write cikgu hanim an email soon. ask her not to expect me again during mondays and wednesdays afternoons.

ah. must start working already. and practice guzheng.

toodles.

ah. its madness.

i dont know what's madness. just some random thing.

busy planning for party on sunday. tmr still have that tree top walk thingo. this huge temptation to give it a miss. yeah. i dont know what else to type.

oh yes.

God's grace. i almost typed God's gravy. anyways. toods.

i'm feeling so desperate.

so desperate. the articles. how?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.

i dont know what's so nice about iMac. :( i don't now why so many people like iMac so much. it's so irritating and user-unfriendly. :(

oh yes. i am slacking. it's art now, though the lesson is ending soon. about 20 more minutes. the period after this is contact time then home. we THOUGHT there was cip. but ended up wuls got the date wrong.

oh wells. my results. sucks. :( my overall average is a 'whooping' 59.5% 0.5% to a pass. bleh. if only my math is like, 50 instead of 34. :/ i feel lousy. really really lousy.

results that will appear on my report book:
Language arts - 68
Combined Humanities - 65
Chinese - 64
Science - 58
Math - 34

total: 357

sad luh.

Carry each other's burdens, and in this way, you will fulfill the Law of Christ.

it's been a blessing meeting Sheryl.

revise everyday for 1 hour!
do every question in math textbook and workbook.
and pay attention in class.
and do all the class discussion worksheet questions.
then ask questions. :)

all these things, i should have know better. but when she said it, it all came back, in an altogether different tone. i feel rejuvenated.

things that i have to focus on for the week:
-hand in all my assignments.
-finish OM report
-finish CH SIA
-pracitce jiang1jun1ling4 and ben1chi2 and gao1shan1liu2shui3

that's it, i think.

targets for next term:
-math - 60 (B4)
-science - 65 (B3)
-Chinese - 65 (B3)
-History - 70 (A2)
-LA - at least A2
-Geography - at least A2

yeah.

i trust God will deliver, in the meantime, i shall fulfill my part as a full-time christian.

i can't guarantee myself that my parents won't be fuming after PTM. but what i can do now is to hand up my assignments. my report card won't be exciting, in fact, it'll be red. but i'll do whatever i can to prevent history from repeating again.

my results for the rest of my subjects improved, as compared to last year's overall. however, my math is one huge problem, so i will drill myself till satisfactory.

on a lighter note, i'll be getting a thumbdrive as well as an MP3 or an iPOD this week. i will have to accomplish what i have noted above so that i will receive my thumbdrive as well as mp3 as a reward.

woke up late this morning.

walked around.

got really mad at my mum because of several things.

threw tantrum. refused to eat lunch. read 'skin deep' in bed, intending to fall asleep.

woke up much later at 2.

finally left my bed half an hour after i woke up to follow my dad carry things from downstairs. food from my uncle and grandma.

food food food. mother's day you see.

more food. more slacking. more playing. more wrestling with my cousins.

more crying from baby claire.

watched doraemon.

more screening of comedies from youtube.

more wrestling.

more food.

watched romeo and juliet and explored much deeper into the show.

that's it.








i realised i slack too much. reading other people's blog seemed to tell me how much i have slacked this term. my results said it all. must buck up. syf's not a reason. concert's not a reason. i just hope i finally wake up from all this crap that i've been living in.

today's celebration was more of eating and gaining useless calories and fats. i realised i ate a lot during this weekend. and i owe myself countless of pushups and situps. rarh. and my work area is like a pig sty. and i'm serious.

i feel great. i've started preparing my share of lesson that's on 2 June. after yesterday's lesson i finally saw light as to how to capture the attention of young kids. yesterday's lesson was not as draining as the previous ones because the class size was small, only 2/3 of the usual size. spent ages trying to coax some of the kids to participate in the games though.

we started off with playing musical chair. except that this musical chair was slightly different. instead of just walking around in circles and eyeing the chair you want to land on, they kids had to dance the chicken dance as well as sing the chicken dance song/tune. hahas.

last man standing - joshua
last woman standing - zoe.

then story time. then a challenge to sum up the lesson. and that is to write a letter to your mother. yesterday's lesson was about a mother's love you see. then to make sure everyone in class had participated at least an activity or discussion, we had a 'Great Book Challenge'. the class was split into 3 groups. 4 girls vs 4 boys vs 2 teachers. in 5 minutes, write down as many books in the bible you can recall as a group onto a piece of vanguard sheet. yeah. the teachers won, we had 52. (: the girls got 28, the boys 29. actually both the guys and girls got 32, but spelling errors caused them to lose points. yup.

Romeo and Juliet today, again. explored deeper into the whole play. watched the actors themselves talk about the characters they played, mainly romeo, juliet and tybalt. need to start reading the book. oh wells, i have, but just skim, but not into the thing. i think watching R and J is different from watching other movies. like stated in one of the interviews, i can't remember whose, you can't improvise the movie the way you want the play to be. you have to do it according to Shakespeare's way and portray the play as how Shakespeare wanted it. there was a great deal of annotating to do and you have to very much fit yourself into the character you are playing.

anyway, Claire Danes did really well for her role. she was born in 1979. and the modern day R and J was filmed in 1996, early 1996. which makes her only 17 when she did the play. Leonardo DiCaprio, i don't doubt his acting skills. a few years ago, i think he was the most handsome male actor around.

ayways. toodles.

let me post how pathetic i am here.

math - 33 F9
science - 58 C5
chinese - 59 C5 (tentative cause wuls said that she will add marks for me)
history - 60+ either B3 or B4
LA - 68% B3
Geography - 68.4% B3

i am so disappointed. especially language arts. i put in so much effort and i got a pathetic B. i was hoping for an A. and i desperately need an A. i was hoping that my LA results can be more than 72%. but i failed to get it. :( 4 mere marks.

oh yes. today's cultural icon presentation.

i think my group did badly. my fault because i didn't give them the script before hand. oh wells. my mistake. and we were practically reading off the scripts. we didn't smile, we didn't maintain contact with the audience. we're nervous okay. ah. i don't want to do badly for language arts. i'm already getting what 1F, 2Cs, 2B. looks like my history and geography is so much better than the rest. i have to work hard.

decode my title if you can. actually it's pretty obvious. anyway, i tried using a unique tagboard. one because i dont want to share the same tagboard design as other people. two i help those remote tagboard hosters do promotions. seems that in the end they don't usually work out, don't they?

people using IE can't post properly on the chatterbox. the one i changed yesterday, people using IE can't see what they're typing. so back to the one i used about 2 months ago.

ah. what else to post? oh yes. i do have something to say.

it's gonna be a math night tonight. where's my cup of tea? thank God for it's friday tomorrow. ((:

finally blogger is almost back to normal but not quite yet. i can't change colour of my text or uploads photos. i have none to upload anyway. :/

so...i've finally finished clearning my chinese composition and functional writing. left with 1 functional writing and 2 newspaper cuttings. and math.

today was alright. i was a little tired. expected. i slept for only 1 hour before the alarm went off and before my mum came in to scream "Time for school!"

i did some really dumb things that embarrassed me. close calls. i almost missed my stop for a few times. 4? maybe. oh wells. it's just that. i'm tired and windows media player isn't co-operating at all. i am feeling so tired and here it is, slowly loading and loading. yucks.

anyway. :( depressing stuff. not exactly things that are depressing. i mean. it's just me.

watched spiderman on channel5.

cooked dinner. nice (: yumyum. my cooking skills improved. hahas.

and i so desperately want him to come online. forget it. i'm infatuated.

should i withdraw from third lang or continue. :(

yesnoyesnoyesnoyesnoyesnoyesnoyesno.

for your information, i didn't copy and paste the 'yesno's

three words.

i am pathetic.

i think my intelligence quota has dropped, for no reason, of course. it was just a stray comment. we had to check chinese marks today. and guess what. C5. and a C5 thats 59 marks? ah, i want one more mark. :( okay, my chinese's bad. i think it is.

when i was in chongfu, i was more proficient in chinese. i told myself, when i come to nanyang, my english must improve. and yes, my english improved, but my chinese got worse. heh. i just can't seemed to balance out my life.

today was an okay day. at least it was smooth and not that rocky. :) yay.

then we did CIP. it was worse than the kids in sunday school! not that i am trying to insult their intelligence or something, but still. :( something simple like
"i am sleeping in bed"
has to be repeated and explained 20 times? and yet, they still don't get it. :(

i feel heartwrenched. during the debrief, it was pointed out that some of us had that shocking look on their faces when they saw the people from TCIL. i think i was quite taken aback when i first saw them. yuzhen and i were there really early at 2.05pm. and we felt weird standing in their midst.

anyways, suddenly i felt like i was teaching sunday school kids again. much more tedious and brain-cracking involved. but it's nice to see them open up after a while.

me, i think i was trying to be a super hero or something. i landed myself up with 3 buddies, while the rest had 1 to take care of. aw. but anyways. it was a great experience.

heh. i think i've thought it all out. if i can't get into cambridge, i'm gonna stay in singapore and do what angelin, kaiqi and gerard are doing now. be social workers. (:

and oh yes. i want to to go for the missionary trip in cambodia in june. :( i so want to go. i'd rather spend 10 days in cambodia helping people than having fun during church camp.

i think i sound like a juvenile delinquent. :D

and judging by the amount of youtube videos i post these days, heh. quite hooked on, you can say. but i shouldn't go too far. get my priorities right man. and another reason of me posting videos instead of writing entries, i think they save time. hahas.

i think i've finish watching all the funny videos on youtube. at least those that are rather spastic and not er, serious like you have to refer to the soccer rulebook before you know what mistake the player made that made the spectators laugh that much.

(: i feel accomplished. (: i did 140 pushups and situps today. hahas. my sis said that i stank up the whole room. ah. but i have deodorant. hahas. i realise i don't spray the deodorant on myself but on things like my windbreaker, my schoolbag, my room, my bed. a bit mad. but yes, i do that.

i do crazy things. :D

math test on linear graphs tomorrow. i shouldn't fail. i studied. (:

okays. i want to do something more constructive that writing blog entries though they help me in my LA. :/ hm. maybe i should start writing chinese posts.

heh

i am super pissed off right now.

first you asked me to do it. and i spent 16 hours on it. and now what? do you think a thank you can match with what? 16 hours computer marathon? sleeping at 6am in the morning. waking up at 12pm. first think i think of was to complete the assigned task.

call this fairness? NO WAY

i dont think is the way i should be treated. its not something that you can show your recognition of the effort put in by saying a thank you.

tell me. whether a mere thank you can match with what, 6 hours of sleep? or sleeping at 6am in the morning. waking at 12 in the afternoon. and first thing you thought of was to continue working.

I need to thank God for making me a sunday school teacher.

i was just preparing lesson plans for next monday's CIP when i felt really relieved, because i've gone through all these before, during sunday school classes. From the lesson planning to the activities and discussion. Although i am still doubting some of the plans, but i think overall, it was alright.

The games we played during sunday school class, i could apply them to the lesson plans. i must admit, that this is the first time i ever tried planning something out of nothing, for lessons at least. at least for sunday school classes, we are given notes and guidelines months before the lessons.

i feel blessed. and i feel like i am doing this for God and no one else and this is what keeps me going on early in the morning at 4am to go without sleep for 48 hours.

and i feel relieved that i'm all trained for the next lesson plan that we have to do for 212.

In the town where I was born,
Lived a man who sailed to sea,
And he told us of his life,
In the land of submarines,

So we sailed up to the sun,
Till we found a sea of green,
And we lived beneath the waves,
In our yellow submarine,

We all live in a yellow submarine,
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine,
We all live in a yellow submarine,
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine,

And our friends are all aboard,
Many more of them live next door,
And the band begins to play.

(Trumpets play)

We all live in a yellow submarine,
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine,
We all live in a yellow submarine,
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine,

(weird sounds)

As we live a life of ease,
Everyone of us has all we need (has all we need)
Sky of blue (sky of blue) and sea of green (sea of green)
In our yellow (in our yellow) submarine (submarine. Blaaaha)

We all live in a yellow submarine,
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine,
We all live in a yellow submarine,
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine,

We all live in a yellow submarine,
Yellow submarine, yellow submarine.(fade)

ah congratulate me. i think i just won the most-prone-to-getting-hurt-person-on-earth-maybe-even-the-solar-system prize. eh. doesnt make sense right?

oh wells. first i sprained my right ankle, then my left even before my right ankle has recovered yet. and wala, before my left ankle even recovered yet, i sprained my poor tiny. and before my poor tiny even had a chance to recover. i cleverly went to play guzheng. and wala! somehow, i just peeled some skin off me. heh. nice tale huh.

bleh. i'm hungry. i haven't had dinner yet. self-digest (: hahas. or at least that was what mrchia told me. neverminds.

ahhh. stupid weekends. oh wells, work. :( blahblahblah. i'm not making any sense. i think i shall stop self-digesting and go eat my dinner now.

er. yeah. good idea. (:

before i go. i must say i really love guzheng. hahas. and perhaps nyco too (: they make good music, we make good music. we all make good music! hahas. i was watching 紫韻箏情之'05. waha. i want to be mrsee-to-be. haha. (((: i want to conduct an orchestra. and whats more, conduct 丰年季(: i dont know if the 季 is written correctly though. ahh neverminds.

not to boast or something. but i think i know what i want to run for. (: vicepres post and conductor post. wala ((((:

i shall have my dinner now. hahaha.

oh yes. one reason why i'm quite happy today is because i'm feeling alright about my commontest2 results. though i should put in more effort in math and science. oh wells, geog too. hahas.

uh. talking about math. mrtan asked me how many hours i spend practicing guzheng, i said 4. and you know what he said? if you practice 4 hours of guzheng, then practice 4 hours of math too. ahh?

haha.

today was an okay day. maybe. except for a few trivial things that added up to something that hit me quite bad. :( anyways.

i got 24/50 math and 27/50 for biology.

i'm feeling alright for math. and the key thing to me feeling alright about that score is that God has blessed me with 24 instead of a single digit, or 10+ scores. and i almost passed and i must say there were loads of careless mistakes. oh wells, i couldnt pass the paper partly because i dilly-dallied at the start. anyways. i was really scared that i'd fail badly. but still. (: God's kind. i think the worst thing is you think you have got the gist of something but some depressing results showed that you haven't. its depressing. you gotta trust me. (:

anyways. i still can't believe that guzheng got gold with honours. it's a little too late to say something like this but still. i'm feeling THAT way.

i was feeling depressed when i got back my bio. :( judging by how hard i studied and yadayada. bleh. then after that mrstan walked over and said. not bad, judging at how hard you guys worked for syf. (: i phewed. anyways. yeah.

You Have Low Self Esteem 64% of the Time

You tend to blame yourself when things go wrong, regardless of whether it's your fault or not. You're anxious to please others and rely too much on their opinions. Learn to please yourself first, and your confidence will soar.

found this thing. true? haha. i dont know. :/

anyways. i was quite ticked off and at the same time quite disturbed by certain things. somewhere else, i guess

argh. i dont know whats wrong with the school internet connection. :(

oh wells, i am waiting for the computer to hurry up load then i can print my ode. :(

odius ode. bleh

ahah. end of holiday. :(

home to be done.

1.bio sia.
2.chinese newspaper article.
3.malay worksheet.

i finished my ode. (: congratulate me.

i sprained my finger. bash me.

alrights. end of post. i'm just feeling very bored. i've been poring over science notes and more science notes ever since i came back from laoshi's house.

oh wells, i took a nap after reading the papers though.

tired. :S