Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Monday, October 30, 2006
lostin thisfake worlddesperately need His touchreallyin quietness and trustto hear Himwhy do people appear in my lifesjust to wreck mefrominside?we ask whyswe seek whyspeople dont find the answerbut i think ihave found it
lostin thisfake worlddesperately need His touchreallyin quietness and trustto hear Himwhy do people appear in my lifesjust to wreck mefrominside?we ask whyswe seek whyspeople dont find the answerbut i think ihave found it
Monday, October 30, 2006
Sunday, October 29, 2006
God loves you
If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it. If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it. He sends you flowers every spring. He sends you a sunrise every morning.Face it, friend - He loves you so much!
God loves you
If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it. If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it. He sends you flowers every spring. He sends you a sunrise every morning.Face it, friend - He loves you so much!
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Saturday, October 28, 2006
God's Day
Today's Sunday School turned out to be better than i thought it would be...at least the kids tried to listen to me though they were rather restless. But that's natural...exams are coming and though they may be only 10 or 11, they will feel stressed up. I should start praying for them yeah..now that I have got to know them more..am actually looking forward to you another session being a sunday school teacher. its all for God, and the ultimate goal of the lesson is to let the kids know more about God and learn to love Him more and get closer to Him. =)I guess that's all for today..and i shall post something for anyone who is reading this blog...A Prayer for ForgivenessDear Lord,why is it so difficult for me to abide with your laws?yet why is it so easy for me to fall into temptation and believe Satan's lie?Lord, now i just want to pray that you will grant me the courage and grace, at least in Your presence, to say, "I was wrong, forgive me. I am sorry."It just seemed so hard for us to apologize to others...doesnt it? But as long as you do it for the first time, it wil slowly become a habit...and soon, it will become sincere when you say it. =)
God's Day
Today's Sunday School turned out to be better than i thought it would be...at least the kids tried to listen to me though they were rather restless. But that's natural...exams are coming and though they may be only 10 or 11, they will feel stressed up. I should start praying for them yeah..now that I have got to know them more..am actually looking forward to you another session being a sunday school teacher. its all for God, and the ultimate goal of the lesson is to let the kids know more about God and learn to love Him more and get closer to Him. =)I guess that's all for today..and i shall post something for anyone who is reading this blog...A Prayer for ForgivenessDear Lord,why is it so difficult for me to abide with your laws?yet why is it so easy for me to fall into temptation and believe Satan's lie?Lord, now i just want to pray that you will grant me the courage and grace, at least in Your presence, to say, "I was wrong, forgive me. I am sorry."It just seemed so hard for us to apologize to others...doesnt it? But as long as you do it for the first time, it wil slowly become a habit...and soon, it will become sincere when you say it. =)
Friday, October 27, 2006
Friday, October 27, 2006
Taking things at my own stride
I am going to take things at my own stride. =D I dont want people bossing me around on what i should do..packing my table and stuff, makng my bed and all. Ok, i dont pack my table and pack my bed. hahas. i=ok, thats ha bit, i dont waste time trying to make things neat..anyways, ahas. er, i dont know what to say...so..heh
Taking things at my own stride
I am going to take things at my own stride. =D I dont want people bossing me around on what i should do..packing my table and stuff, makng my bed and all. Ok, i dont pack my table and pack my bed. hahas. i=ok, thats ha bit, i dont waste time trying to make things neat..anyways, ahas. er, i dont know what to say...so..heh
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Thursday, October 26, 2006
For Once
For once i was so sincere in telling you stuffi just hope you wont spread itit had been a good timei didnt enjoy myselfbut talking to youmade me feel unburdenedi guys...i was just testifyingi was to be a good testimony of Christyou know whyyou know howi didnt want that hour to endbut it didstillthe time didnt stop movingi loved you for that one hourand i guess will love you foreveryou understood,though you gave no commentsa listening earjust what i needI just wanna say thanks.its the first time for so longi ever trusted someone so greatlywith my darkest secretsI have developed such mistrustswith peoplethat i have stoppedsharingthanks for helping me open my heartagain,to a close friendyoui hope we remain like this foreverwith additionsof lovebut not subtractionsif you happen to come hereyou'd knowoutrighti am referring to youi want to thank God forgiving mesuch a wonderful friendand i truelyappreciate you..But if only..you could accept Christyou listened tomy endless ramblesabout Christnever complainingYou accept meas i amLove me,as i amnot whothese are my true feelingsyou will know who you areoutrightwhen you stop being lazyto come here =)
For Once
For once i was so sincere in telling you stuffi just hope you wont spread itit had been a good timei didnt enjoy myselfbut talking to youmade me feel unburdenedi guys...i was just testifyingi was to be a good testimony of Christyou know whyyou know howi didnt want that hour to endbut it didstillthe time didnt stop movingi loved you for that one hourand i guess will love you foreveryou understood,though you gave no commentsa listening earjust what i needI just wanna say thanks.its the first time for so longi ever trusted someone so greatlywith my darkest secretsI have developed such mistrustswith peoplethat i have stoppedsharingthanks for helping me open my heartagain,to a close friendyoui hope we remain like this foreverwith additionsof lovebut not subtractionsif you happen to come hereyou'd knowoutrighti am referring to youi want to thank God forgiving mesuch a wonderful friendand i truelyappreciate you..But if only..you could accept Christyou listened tomy endless ramblesabout Christnever complainingYou accept meas i amLove me,as i amnot whothese are my true feelingsyou will know who you areoutrightwhen you stop being lazyto come here =)
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
That embarrassing moment [2]
I just want to tell you that i was deeply embarrassed though i didnt tell you that. maybe you sensed it, but it was rather impossible. i had it so well-rehearsed. its ok anyway, or was it? i guess it wasnt. i surrendered my reason to my passion and my feelings with my duties. i hope i will never do that again.its hard to deny that feeling i had, though you might never know. i seemed so blur when will you, because i was blinded. boy oh boy. i guess you might never see this. whats on your mind? what was it that matters? ah i might never know.i told my parents that you were weird. or maybe, you just didnt use your brains. i guess the moments i spend with you will forever be embarrassing. that was really my duty. i believe so. I was sent to do it. but because of my emotions which i had a bad time managing. i lost it all.i guess i am to rearrange myself. and pray about that again. i should stop being a hypocrite. thank you for waking me up from all these dreams and fantasies. if not for you, my fantasy, my dream, i might never wake up from it.**********************************were you referring to mehave you been reading my blog secretly?i might never know.you may never admit the facti had felt so stupidi feel so dumb right nowarghi need to prayi have so much doubtsthe fog hasnt been clearedwhen will it be cleared?so desparately need to see light againwhen will i see it?boyi am losing my sanitywhat have i been doing?i..i...i dont know what i wanti guess i am like otherswant. need. change.perhaps that finalarghi dont knowi should just delete itlike any other lostteen...blogger....lost in the mist...perhapsforever
That embarrassing moment [2]
I just want to tell you that i was deeply embarrassed though i didnt tell you that. maybe you sensed it, but it was rather impossible. i had it so well-rehearsed. its ok anyway, or was it? i guess it wasnt. i surrendered my reason to my passion and my feelings with my duties. i hope i will never do that again.its hard to deny that feeling i had, though you might never know. i seemed so blur when will you, because i was blinded. boy oh boy. i guess you might never see this. whats on your mind? what was it that matters? ah i might never know.i told my parents that you were weird. or maybe, you just didnt use your brains. i guess the moments i spend with you will forever be embarrassing. that was really my duty. i believe so. I was sent to do it. but because of my emotions which i had a bad time managing. i lost it all.i guess i am to rearrange myself. and pray about that again. i should stop being a hypocrite. thank you for waking me up from all these dreams and fantasies. if not for you, my fantasy, my dream, i might never wake up from it.**********************************were you referring to mehave you been reading my blog secretly?i might never know.you may never admit the facti had felt so stupidi feel so dumb right nowarghi need to prayi have so much doubtsthe fog hasnt been clearedwhen will it be cleared?so desparately need to see light againwhen will i see it?boyi am losing my sanitywhat have i been doing?i..i...i dont know what i wanti guess i am like otherswant. need. change.perhaps that finalarghi dont knowi should just delete itlike any other lostteen...blogger....lost in the mist...perhapsforever
Monday, October 23, 2006
Monday, October 23, 2006
Ugly Truth
When she was strikedpeople asked you who did ityou said A asked you to do itwhat does it reflect on you? good or bad impression?i don't think it was a good one...you were shirking away from your responsibilityyou were pushing the blamemost of all, you showed others that you were a cowardi guess you want to tell me the truth as much as i want you to do itwhy dont you just say it?theres this barrier between usi feel itand i know ityou dont want to admit that you are weakso in turnyou hurt others to make them appear weakjust because of a shirtwe fell apartisnt that pettiness?whats more, it wasnt my faultor rather, its wrong to blame me when you do not have that required shirtyou can find other waysmy resources are limitedi am not going to sound like a herobut think, what you can do isbuy itit wont cost more than $5 and i can gurantee thatwhen will you stop being so insensitive towards others?when will you grow up?when will you learn to love?*********************************there are many things which i want to blog about..yeah, but my mind is blank now...today was rather unusual huh, it might go down to the guiness book record or smth. the number of times i slipped and fell today is easily more than all the times i fell so far in my life. but i didnt twist my ankle XD which is good. the bones there have proven themselves 50% dead, so if i twist or sprain it, it will be dead and i will have to hobble around for the next few weeks i suppose.ahah, i remember during guzheng flag day, i was almost knocked down by the speeding cars at orchard's various traffic junctions. and florence would have died of heart attack if she were 50 years older. XD she is a nice senior who bullies me XDanyways, i guess thats all for today...P.S. I never knew that you were so 'kancheong'.
Ugly Truth
When she was strikedpeople asked you who did ityou said A asked you to do itwhat does it reflect on you? good or bad impression?i don't think it was a good one...you were shirking away from your responsibilityyou were pushing the blamemost of all, you showed others that you were a cowardi guess you want to tell me the truth as much as i want you to do itwhy dont you just say it?theres this barrier between usi feel itand i know ityou dont want to admit that you are weakso in turnyou hurt others to make them appear weakjust because of a shirtwe fell apartisnt that pettiness?whats more, it wasnt my faultor rather, its wrong to blame me when you do not have that required shirtyou can find other waysmy resources are limitedi am not going to sound like a herobut think, what you can do isbuy itit wont cost more than $5 and i can gurantee thatwhen will you stop being so insensitive towards others?when will you grow up?when will you learn to love?*********************************there are many things which i want to blog about..yeah, but my mind is blank now...today was rather unusual huh, it might go down to the guiness book record or smth. the number of times i slipped and fell today is easily more than all the times i fell so far in my life. but i didnt twist my ankle XD which is good. the bones there have proven themselves 50% dead, so if i twist or sprain it, it will be dead and i will have to hobble around for the next few weeks i suppose.ahah, i remember during guzheng flag day, i was almost knocked down by the speeding cars at orchard's various traffic junctions. and florence would have died of heart attack if she were 50 years older. XD she is a nice senior who bullies me XDanyways, i guess thats all for today...P.S. I never knew that you were so 'kancheong'.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Open the eyes of my heart Lord
My God is bigSo strongso mightyMy God's plan for meGoes beyond my wildest dreamsMy God is goodHe's so good to meSo good to meMy God is bigSo strong so mightyMy God is goodHe's so good to meHe's my God andHe is my refugeHe's the rock on which I standHe's my fortressGod, He is my lifeHe holds the oceans in His handMy God is BigSo Strong so mightyMy God is goodHe's so good to meThere's nothing my God cannot do*****************************************************************************now should just go beyond the surfaceI need God's strengthand Him to grant me the faith i need.Its scary,the battle cant seemed to be wonI fearperhaps notbecaue i know God is running this race with meGod plans for usand they are beyond ANYONE'S wildest dreamstrust meA man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.They talked about so many things and various subjects.When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists.""Why do you say that?" asked the customer."Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things. "The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt.The customer turned back and entered the barbershop again and he said to the barber: "You know what?Barbers do not exist.""How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!""No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."Ah, but barbers DO exist! " answered the barber."What happens, is, people do not come to me.""Exactly!"- affirmed the customer. "That's the point!God, too, DOES exist! What happens, is, people don't go to Him and do not look for Him. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."
Open the eyes of my heart Lord
My God is bigSo strongso mightyMy God's plan for meGoes beyond my wildest dreamsMy God is goodHe's so good to meSo good to meMy God is bigSo strong so mightyMy God is goodHe's so good to meHe's my God andHe is my refugeHe's the rock on which I standHe's my fortressGod, He is my lifeHe holds the oceans in His handMy God is BigSo Strong so mightyMy God is goodHe's so good to meThere's nothing my God cannot do*****************************************************************************now should just go beyond the surfaceI need God's strengthand Him to grant me the faith i need.Its scary,the battle cant seemed to be wonI fearperhaps notbecaue i know God is running this race with meGod plans for usand they are beyond ANYONE'S wildest dreamstrust meA man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.They talked about so many things and various subjects.When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists.""Why do you say that?" asked the customer."Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things. "The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt.The customer turned back and entered the barbershop again and he said to the barber: "You know what?Barbers do not exist.""How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber. "I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!""No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."Ah, but barbers DO exist! " answered the barber."What happens, is, people do not come to me.""Exactly!"- affirmed the customer. "That's the point!God, too, DOES exist! What happens, is, people don't go to Him and do not look for Him. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Just some lame stufff...adding on to yesterday's list...
01. What is your full name?*** ***-** Cherie02. What color pants are you wearing?White03. What are you listening to right now?Explosive by Bond04. What are the last four digits of your phone number?****05. What was the last thing you ateKaya Bread06. If you were a crayon what color would you be?No preference, black will do07. Last Person You Spoke To on The Phone?Dad08. The First Thing You Notice about the Opposite Gender?Whatever he does that catches my attention09. Do you Like The Person Who Sent You This?Love her as a friend10. What's Your Favourite Drink?anything from water to juice11. What's Your Favourite Alcoholic Drink?Haven't tried drinking12. What's Your Favorite Sport?Swimming, squash, physical training, weight lifting...13. What's Your Hair Color?black14. What's Your Eye Color?between brown and black15. Do You Wear Contacts?no16. Siblings and their ages?sis, *, sis **, brother, *17. Your favourite month?No prefernce18. Last Movie You Watched?Alexander19. Favourite Day of the YearNo preference20.Are you too shy to ask someone out?Depends on how close that someone and me is and what's that someone's gender21. Summer or Winter?No preference22. Hugs or Kisses?Depends on who is the hugger and kisser23. Relationships or One Night Stands?I am no flirt and am not someone who knows how to be a girlfriend24. Chocolate or Vanilla?Chocolate25. Who is most likely to respond?No one, i won't mind26. Who is most likely to not respond?No idea, i won't mind anyway27. Living preferences?Living in England28. What's on your mouse pad?I have no mouse pad, thats why my mouse is haywired29. What did you do last night?Watch Alexander30. Favourite flavour?No preference31. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?I don't have such a long tongue32. What inspires you?Anything from sleeping to watching movies33. Buttered/Plain/Salted Popcorn?No preference34. Favourite type of car?I don't want cars.35. Favourite type of flower?the only plants i like is cactus36. How many keys are there on your key ring?5-737. Can you juggle?yes38. Can you put your toes in your mouth?well yeah, but why would i want to do that?39. Do you have a crush (or a relationship)?well, why?40. Name of your crush/stead?why?41. Star Sign?It's aquarius if star sign is the same as horoscope42. Favourite Movie?Alexander43. Favourite Girl & Boy?No preference44. Ever Been Kissed By a Boy/Girl you like?Yes, my sis, and i dont like her, i love her45. Favourite Brand?Reebok. every realised that my bag, shoes, skipping rope and water bottle bears 'Reebok' on it?46. Movies or Series?Movies, i dont have time for series and usually they are really crappy47. Novels or short stories?no preference48. Online chatting or SMS?i suppose i treat replying both of them a chore49. Shoes or barefooted?depends on where, you cant expect me to go out bare-footed and wear shoes at home50. backpack or slingbag?backpack**THE END**
01. What is your full name?*** ***-** Cherie02. What color pants are you wearing?White03. What are you listening to right now?Explosive by Bond04. What are the last four digits of your phone number?****05. What was the last thing you ateKaya Bread06. If you were a crayon what color would you be?No preference, black will do07. Last Person You Spoke To on The Phone?Dad08. The First Thing You Notice about the Opposite Gender?Whatever he does that catches my attention09. Do you Like The Person Who Sent You This?Love her as a friend10. What's Your Favourite Drink?anything from water to juice11. What's Your Favourite Alcoholic Drink?Haven't tried drinking12. What's Your Favorite Sport?Swimming, squash, physical training, weight lifting...13. What's Your Hair Color?black14. What's Your Eye Color?between brown and black15. Do You Wear Contacts?no16. Siblings and their ages?sis, *, sis **, brother, *17. Your favourite month?No prefernce18. Last Movie You Watched?Alexander19. Favourite Day of the YearNo preference20.Are you too shy to ask someone out?Depends on how close that someone and me is and what's that someone's gender21. Summer or Winter?No preference22. Hugs or Kisses?Depends on who is the hugger and kisser23. Relationships or One Night Stands?I am no flirt and am not someone who knows how to be a girlfriend24. Chocolate or Vanilla?Chocolate25. Who is most likely to respond?No one, i won't mind26. Who is most likely to not respond?No idea, i won't mind anyway27. Living preferences?Living in England28. What's on your mouse pad?I have no mouse pad, thats why my mouse is haywired29. What did you do last night?Watch Alexander30. Favourite flavour?No preference31. Can you touch your nose with your tongue?I don't have such a long tongue32. What inspires you?Anything from sleeping to watching movies33. Buttered/Plain/Salted Popcorn?No preference34. Favourite type of car?I don't want cars.35. Favourite type of flower?the only plants i like is cactus36. How many keys are there on your key ring?5-737. Can you juggle?yes38. Can you put your toes in your mouth?well yeah, but why would i want to do that?39. Do you have a crush (or a relationship)?well, why?40. Name of your crush/stead?why?41. Star Sign?It's aquarius if star sign is the same as horoscope42. Favourite Movie?Alexander43. Favourite Girl & Boy?No preference44. Ever Been Kissed By a Boy/Girl you like?Yes, my sis, and i dont like her, i love her45. Favourite Brand?Reebok. every realised that my bag, shoes, skipping rope and water bottle bears 'Reebok' on it?46. Movies or Series?Movies, i dont have time for series and usually they are really crappy47. Novels or short stories?no preference48. Online chatting or SMS?i suppose i treat replying both of them a chore49. Shoes or barefooted?depends on where, you cant expect me to go out bare-footed and wear shoes at home50. backpack or slingbag?backpack**THE END**
Cypress tree...
Cypress Tree (Faithfulness)strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.
Cypress Tree (Faithfulness)strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.
1. Starting Time:1.23pm2. Full Name: *** ***-** Cherie3.Best Friend(s): yellowmoon...jeklone...and all those who are my friends, church ppl4.Sexiest Friend: lejing i guess5. Funniest friend: my sis6. Smartest friends: whaipeng, jody, those managed to pass unlike me7. Dumbest Person: Me8. Shyest Friend: no idea9. Most boring person: no idea10. Who Do you get advice from: God, family, friends11. Height: 16012. D(ate)O(f)B(irth):**/**/****13. Righty / Lefty : right15. Shoe Size : 1016.Shoe Brand: reebok17. Do you Crack any Body Parts:fingers, ankles19. Sibling(s):320. Email Address: plutonearth@gmail.com21. Boy Friend/Girl Friend: no22. Crush: would i say it even if i have one?23. Liked a Teacher: well, nope25. Hope the person you send this to would reply: i wont mind if you dont26. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: wasnt allowed to27. Ran Into a Glass Door : yeah, but i didnt break my skull29. Gone Skinny Dipping: no30. Nearly hit by a car: record- 7 times day this year, i would be dead if florence didnt save me31. Ran into a speeding car:didnt i just say 7 times?35. Boxers or Briefs: shorts would be better36. Tall or Short : tall37. Does size matter: as long as he isnt that small to be boxed up by me38. Six-pack or Muscular Arms: both39. Body or Personality: well, personality40. Ear Pierced or Not: not pierced41. Sporty or Outdoorsy: both42. Good or Bad guy: goodGuys Fill Out on girls9 take it that i am a guy)47. G or hipster undies: well, shorts48. Tall or Short : tall and MUSCULAR49. Long Hair or Short : i wouldnt mind, but if its long, it has to be tied up50.Dark or Light Eyes: i dont mind any51. Light/Dark Hair: no preference52. Body or Personality: personality53. Ears Pierced or Not: not pierced55. Good Girl/Bad Girl: good56.Hair Up or Down : up57. Sporty or Classy: sporty58. Chicken or Not Afraid : depends on situationWhich One is Better59. Coke or pepsi: no preference60. K.F.C or Mcdonalds: burger king61. Cats or Dogs : none i suppose62. Coffee or Tea :tea, i get stomach upset if i drink coffee63. Eastside or westside: no preference64. Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate65. Cake or Cookies: depends on what cake and what cookies66. Purple striped Lime socks or white socks: white/black67. Sunset or Sunrise: no preference68. Day or Night: no preference69. Lights on or off : depends on situation70. Summer or Winter: no preference71. Food:anything that is fit to be eaten and not too bad tasting73. Holiday destination: england74. Radio Station: anything devotional75. Place: library76.Will You Believe in God: I am now77. What you want to be when you grow up: pastor/writer/journalist, something along that line, and yes, musician78. Define Love: heartwarming80. Favourite Place: library81. Favourite day(s) of the week:saturday i guess83. Who Is Least Likely To Send This Back: no idea84.Satan or God or atheist: God85. Do you love someone right now: Yes, ly family and friends86. Do you care about someone: i suppose i have to87. Do you think of someone everyday: yes89. Do you think someone is special in any way: everyone is.90. Finishing time: i.39pm91. Date: 21/10/06
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The innocent victims of Internet child abuse cannot speak for themselves.But you can.With your help, we can eradicate this evil trade.We do not need your money.We need you to light a candle of support <http://www.lightamillioncandles.com>.We're aiming to light at least One Million Candles by December 31, 2006.This petition will be used to encourage governments, politicians, financial institutions, payment organisations, Internet service providers, technology companies and law enforcement agencies to eradicate the commercial viability of online child abuse.They have the power to work together. You have the power to get them to take action.Please light your candle at lightamillioncandles.com <http://www.lightamillioncandles.com> or send an email of support to light@lightamillioncandles.com.Together, we can destroy the commercial viability of Internet child abuse sites that are destroying the lives of innocent children.Kindly forward this email to your friends, relatives and work colleagues so that they can light a candle too.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
That embarrassing moment
It was embarrassingthough you didnt see iti had blushedi guess you didn't understandbut i wanted to avoid troublei dont want to be maglignedi am so sorry,but truelyit was something that i have to do
That embarrassing moment
It was embarrassingthough you didnt see iti had blushedi guess you didn't understandbut i wanted to avoid troublei dont want to be maglignedi am so sorry,but truelyit was something that i have to do
Friday, October 20, 2006
Thursday, October 19, 2006
The Truth is: I owe you NOTHING
I owe you nothingbut why,why must everything that you think did not go wel,my fault?Is it as simple as mood swings?or perhaps,i aint good enough for you.Why don't you just tell me?Its agonising.Its unfair.everything happens because of something.and theres always a something.why dont you tell me what that 's' is?would it hurt, you or me?maybe it does,thats why you do not make it known.you are that sunshine.you are that sister.but within you,that little kid still reigns your life.whereever that little kid steer you to,you simply follow along.you do not think,how is it like to be that person,having always have to bear with your mood swings,bear with your anger.it has been almost a year,and yet,we never go beyond the surface.perhaps its time for you to tell me why.but still, maybe you wouldn't.why is there just plain hatred in you,but no love?why is there no love in you?why is it that whatever that happens that you do not like,is not your fault?why dont you try reflecting?why do you not honour your parents?why is it that you do not love your parents?You try to kill me with your words,yet,you fail and you fail and you fail.you ask me why.because i have love,in me,in my lifeand it has become part of me,like a piece of flesh that would hurt,when torn away.i wonderif you have been birthed in a sack of hate,hate you have for those stronger than you,hate you have for those who irks you.but why,why is there no love in your life?because you do nottry to love.you hate and hate and hate,but whatever you do,you have no love for.with love,i believe,all are possible.why not love instead of hate?isnt loving people easier than hating people?loving people could save your trouble,trouble of backstabbing,trouble of spreading false testimonies,trouble of having to keep up with the recent gossips of your hates,trouble of having to spread the gossips on to others.
The Truth is: I owe you NOTHING
I owe you nothingbut why,why must everything that you think did not go wel,my fault?Is it as simple as mood swings?or perhaps,i aint good enough for you.Why don't you just tell me?Its agonising.Its unfair.everything happens because of something.and theres always a something.why dont you tell me what that 's' is?would it hurt, you or me?maybe it does,thats why you do not make it known.you are that sunshine.you are that sister.but within you,that little kid still reigns your life.whereever that little kid steer you to,you simply follow along.you do not think,how is it like to be that person,having always have to bear with your mood swings,bear with your anger.it has been almost a year,and yet,we never go beyond the surface.perhaps its time for you to tell me why.but still, maybe you wouldn't.why is there just plain hatred in you,but no love?why is there no love in you?why is it that whatever that happens that you do not like,is not your fault?why dont you try reflecting?why do you not honour your parents?why is it that you do not love your parents?You try to kill me with your words,yet,you fail and you fail and you fail.you ask me why.because i have love,in me,in my lifeand it has become part of me,like a piece of flesh that would hurt,when torn away.i wonderif you have been birthed in a sack of hate,hate you have for those stronger than you,hate you have for those who irks you.but why,why is there no love in your life?because you do nottry to love.you hate and hate and hate,but whatever you do,you have no love for.with love,i believe,all are possible.why not love instead of hate?isnt loving people easier than hating people?loving people could save your trouble,trouble of backstabbing,trouble of spreading false testimonies,trouble of having to keep up with the recent gossips of your hates,trouble of having to spread the gossips on to others.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
One the way to school...
I saw you on the bus today,and caught your eyes a few times.what do i mean to you?just any other nanyang girl on the way to school.something in you charmed me,and made me attracted to you.i don't know whether you noticed,but i would always steal glances at you.perhaps you did,i caught you looking deep into my eyes.and i returned it.you staring shamelessly at meand me staring shamelessly at you.what does it all mean?is she really important to you?maybe, i see her wait for you everyday.perhaps its not you that value her,it might be the other way round.but i guess i might never know.you are made the way you arei am made the way i amnothing's gonna change itand we both know itwe should just go back to staringand never talkoccassionally meet each other on our way homeand continue staring on the busmaybe one day we shall meetmaybe one day we will partit will all end somedaybut i say thislet's just go back to staringand i hope,you will just become someone who goes to schooleveryday without fail,someone whom i meet everyday,and not be part of my life.for i fear the consequenceswhen will you ever leave?
One the way to school...
I saw you on the bus today,and caught your eyes a few times.what do i mean to you?just any other nanyang girl on the way to school.something in you charmed me,and made me attracted to you.i don't know whether you noticed,but i would always steal glances at you.perhaps you did,i caught you looking deep into my eyes.and i returned it.you staring shamelessly at meand me staring shamelessly at you.what does it all mean?is she really important to you?maybe, i see her wait for you everyday.perhaps its not you that value her,it might be the other way round.but i guess i might never know.you are made the way you arei am made the way i amnothing's gonna change itand we both know itwe should just go back to staringand never talkoccassionally meet each other on our way homeand continue staring on the busmaybe one day we shall meetmaybe one day we will partit will all end somedaybut i say thislet's just go back to staringand i hope,you will just become someone who goes to schooleveryday without fail,someone whom i meet everyday,and not be part of my life.for i fear the consequenceswhen will you ever leave?
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
OLd blog
OK, i just went to my old blog, which is this and skimmed through several posts...ahah, i gues this will be the first time i post on here after several months, perhaps even almost a year. anyway, i wil post some really interesting emails which i received up here so that people can come and view it and i can share it with them. awww...the sentence sucks. anyways...enjoy! =)
OK, i just went to my old blog, which is this and skimmed through several posts...ahah, i gues this will be the first time i post on here after several months, perhaps even almost a year. anyway, i wil post some really interesting emails which i received up here so that people can come and view it and i can share it with them. awww...the sentence sucks. anyways...enjoy! =)
Monday, October 16, 2006
School's internet server is lagging
Hahas, waited damn long for the page to load man. gave up on signing in to messenger and gmail. sheesh, how come school's computer lag so much? they were supposed to be new you know...hahas, exams to be damned. geog - 50%chinese - 61.25%science - 52%history - 56%the above are all scores from end of years papers. sucks right? i think i am gonna get retained afterall, but still..my history is still stronger than geog. ahahmy physics sucks man. 7/20 thats so disgusting.chem and bio are better, the stronger of the 3 sciences. not very well done, one crap load of careless mistakes. i ought to condemn myself. bleaghoh man, let me be retained, or even better, kicked out to some school like School of the Arts, that would be real good news to me. but i believe God has His purpose for me here. sigh, but i am not known to it yet.do i sound vulnerable? i suppose so...perhaps i should just stop writing stuff that are negative on my blog...ah...but then this blog would be put to no use. it was meant to be like this, from the start. 1 august last yr.anyway, i have been a blogger for about 1 yr and 2 months? still, i prefer to go back to the old templates provided by blogger, they prove them more simple and not so complicated. tsk, why do i sound so stupid? isnt simple the opposite of complicated.trying to sound positive, but i have to get out of this mess that i am in right now. i want to go to church camp, and i dont want that chance which will help me become more spiritually matured to be thwarted because of bad eoys results. ARGH!i hate this. perhaps i should just delete this blog. everything thats on here is for show. man. what has gotten into me?seriously, i have to stop posting here, before i loose my sanity. i am gonna post on my ugly blog, the blog which contains the ugly side of me.bleagh.i hate it how things are and become. perhaps, i should just say that i hate this world. honestly, i think i am losing grip on myself.
School's internet server is lagging
Hahas, waited damn long for the page to load man. gave up on signing in to messenger and gmail. sheesh, how come school's computer lag so much? they were supposed to be new you know...hahas, exams to be damned. geog - 50%chinese - 61.25%science - 52%history - 56%the above are all scores from end of years papers. sucks right? i think i am gonna get retained afterall, but still..my history is still stronger than geog. ahahmy physics sucks man. 7/20 thats so disgusting.chem and bio are better, the stronger of the 3 sciences. not very well done, one crap load of careless mistakes. i ought to condemn myself. bleaghoh man, let me be retained, or even better, kicked out to some school like School of the Arts, that would be real good news to me. but i believe God has His purpose for me here. sigh, but i am not known to it yet.do i sound vulnerable? i suppose so...perhaps i should just stop writing stuff that are negative on my blog...ah...but then this blog would be put to no use. it was meant to be like this, from the start. 1 august last yr.anyway, i have been a blogger for about 1 yr and 2 months? still, i prefer to go back to the old templates provided by blogger, they prove them more simple and not so complicated. tsk, why do i sound so stupid? isnt simple the opposite of complicated.trying to sound positive, but i have to get out of this mess that i am in right now. i want to go to church camp, and i dont want that chance which will help me become more spiritually matured to be thwarted because of bad eoys results. ARGH!i hate this. perhaps i should just delete this blog. everything thats on here is for show. man. what has gotten into me?seriously, i have to stop posting here, before i loose my sanity. i am gonna post on my ugly blog, the blog which contains the ugly side of me.bleagh.i hate it how things are and become. perhaps, i should just say that i hate this world. honestly, i think i am losing grip on myself.
Monday, October 16, 2006
Monday, October 16, 2006
It is beautiful...
Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say, "I love you even more this year, than last year on this day. My love for you will always grow, with every passing year." She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear. She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day. Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away. He always liked to do things early, way before the time. Then, if he got too busy, e verything would work out fine. She trimmed the stems and placed them in a very special vase. Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face. She would sit for hours, In her husband's favorite chair. While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there. A year went by, and it was to live without her mate. With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate. Then, the very hour, The doorbell rang, and there were roses sitting by her door. She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock. Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop. The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain, Why would someone would do this to her, causing her such pain? "I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago," The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know. The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance. Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance. There is a standing order, that I have on file down here, And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year. There also is another thing, that I think you should know, He wrote a special little card... he did this years ago. Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here, that's the card that should be sent to you the following year." She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard. Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card. Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note. Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote... "Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone. I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome. I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real. Or if it was the other way, I know how I would feel. The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life. I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife. You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need. I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve. I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears. That is why the roses will be sent to you for years. When you get these roses, think of all the happiness that we had together, and how both of us were blessed. I have always loved you and I know I always will. But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still. Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days. I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways. The roses will come every year, and they will only stop, When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock. He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out. But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt. To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him and place the roses where we are, together once again. Sometimes in life, you find a special friend; Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop; Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.
It is beautiful...
Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say, "I love you even more this year, than last year on this day. My love for you will always grow, with every passing year." She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear. She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day. Her loving husband did not know, that he would pass away. He always liked to do things early, way before the time. Then, if he got too busy, e verything would work out fine. She trimmed the stems and placed them in a very special vase. Then, sat the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face. She would sit for hours, In her husband's favorite chair. While staring at his picture, and the roses sitting there. A year went by, and it was to live without her mate. With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate. Then, the very hour, The doorbell rang, and there were roses sitting by her door. She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock. Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop. The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain, Why would someone would do this to her, causing her such pain? "I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago," The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and you would want to know. The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance. Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance. There is a standing order, that I have on file down here, And he has paid, well in advance, you'll get them every year. There also is another thing, that I think you should know, He wrote a special little card... he did this years ago. Then, should ever I find out that he's no longer here, that's the card that should be sent to you the following year." She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears now flowing hard. Her fingers shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card. Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note. Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote... "Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've been gone. I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome. I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real. Or if it was the other way, I know how I would feel. The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life. I loved you more than words can say, you were the perfect wife. You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need. I know it's only been a year, but please try not to grieve. I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears. That is why the roses will be sent to you for years. When you get these roses, think of all the happiness that we had together, and how both of us were blessed. I have always loved you and I know I always will. But, my love, you must go on, you have some living still. Please...try to find happiness, while living out your days. I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways. The roses will come every year, and they will only stop, When your door's not answered, when the florist stops to knock. He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out. But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt. To take the roses to the place, where I've instructed him and place the roses where we are, together once again. Sometimes in life, you find a special friend; Someone who changes your life just by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop; Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.
Womens' Power
Just for laughs...yeah WOMEN' S REVENGE "Cash, cheque card or charge-card?" I asked, after folding up the items the woman wished to purchase. As she fumbled for her wallet I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse. "Do you always carry yourT V remote?" I asked. "No," she replied, but my husband refused to come shopping with me, and I figured this was the most evil thing I could do to him legally." WIFE VS. HUSBAND A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word. An earlier discussion had led to anargument and neither of them wanted to concede their position. As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, "Relatives of yours?" "Yep," the wife replied, "in-laws." WORDS A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day... 30,000 to a man's 15,000. The wife replied, "The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men..." The husband then turned to his wife and asked, "What?" The wife said "See". CREATION A man said to his wife one day, "I don't know how you can be so stupid and beautiful all at the same time. The wife responded, "Allow me to explain.God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me; God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you!" WHO DOES WHAT A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning.The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first, and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee. "The husband said, "You are in charge of cooking aroundhere and you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee." The wife replied, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible that the man should do the coffee." Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me " The wife fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testamentand showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says.......... "HEBREWS" UNDERSTANDING WOMEN- (FROM A MAN 'S PERSPECTIVE) I know I'm not going to understand women.I'll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax pour it onto your thigh, rip the hair out by the root, and still be afraid of a spider. THE SILENT TREATMENT A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper,"Please wakeme at 5:00 AM." He left it where he knew she would find it.The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up." Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests. God may have created man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece !!!!
Just for laughs...yeah WOMEN' S REVENGE "Cash, cheque card or charge-card?" I asked, after folding up the items the woman wished to purchase. As she fumbled for her wallet I noticed a remote control for a television set in her purse. "Do you always carry yourT V remote?" I asked. "No," she replied, but my husband refused to come shopping with me, and I figured this was the most evil thing I could do to him legally." WIFE VS. HUSBAND A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a word. An earlier discussion had led to anargument and neither of them wanted to concede their position. As they passed a barnyard of mules, goats, and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, "Relatives of yours?" "Yep," the wife replied, "in-laws." WORDS A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women use a day... 30,000 to a man's 15,000. The wife replied, "The reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men..." The husband then turned to his wife and asked, "What?" The wife said "See". CREATION A man said to his wife one day, "I don't know how you can be so stupid and beautiful all at the same time. The wife responded, "Allow me to explain.God made me beautiful so you would be attracted to me; God made me stupid so I would be attracted to you!" WHO DOES WHAT A man and his wife were having an argument about who should brew the coffee each morning.The wife said, "You should do it, because you get up first, and then we don't have to wait as long to get our coffee. "The husband said, "You are in charge of cooking aroundhere and you should do it, because that is your job, and I can just wait for my coffee." The wife replied, "No, you should do it, and besides, it is in the Bible that the man should do the coffee." Husband replies, "I can't believe that, show me " The wife fetched the Bible, and opened the New Testamentand showed him at the top of several pages, that it indeed says.......... "HEBREWS" UNDERSTANDING WOMEN- (FROM A MAN 'S PERSPECTIVE) I know I'm not going to understand women.I'll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax pour it onto your thigh, rip the hair out by the root, and still be afraid of a spider. THE SILENT TREATMENT A man and his wife were having some problems at home and were giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized that the next day, he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for an early morning business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the silence (and LOSE), he wrote on a piece of paper,"Please wakeme at 5:00 AM." He left it where he knew she would find it.The next morning, the man woke up, only to discover it was 9:00 AM and he had missed his flight. Furious, he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, "It is 5:00 AM. Wake up." Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests. God may have created man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before the masterpiece !!!!
Visited this old blog of mine
OK, i just went to my old blog, which is this and skimmed through several posts...ahah, i gues this will be the first time i post on here after several months, perhaps even almost a year. anyway, i wil post some really interesting emails which i received up here so that people can come and view it and i can share it with them. awww...the sentence sucks. anyways...enjoy! =)
OK, i just went to my old blog, which is this and skimmed through several posts...ahah, i gues this will be the first time i post on here after several months, perhaps even almost a year. anyway, i wil post some really interesting emails which i received up here so that people can come and view it and i can share it with them. awww...the sentence sucks. anyways...enjoy! =)
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Do your best and leave the rest to God
I am so worried that I am going to get retained...is there malay tomorrow? I really need a miracle or i will be studying sec 1 again. why is the passing mark 60? bleagh. i hate having to worry after not studying hard enough. ='(I am going to die worrying. I don't think i did my best. Oh man. Can i stop sounding so vulnerable? Dream big dreams and realise them, that is...i have no comments. This mess that i am in, when will i ever get out of it?hahs! and i tell you, this singlish thing going on is spreading like some disease or epidemic. visit other people's blog and you will know what I mean.Perhaps i should post some real posts huh.
Do your best and leave the rest to God
I am so worried that I am going to get retained...is there malay tomorrow? I really need a miracle or i will be studying sec 1 again. why is the passing mark 60? bleagh. i hate having to worry after not studying hard enough. ='(I am going to die worrying. I don't think i did my best. Oh man. Can i stop sounding so vulnerable? Dream big dreams and realise them, that is...i have no comments. This mess that i am in, when will i ever get out of it?hahs! and i tell you, this singlish thing going on is spreading like some disease or epidemic. visit other people's blog and you will know what I mean.Perhaps i should post some real posts huh.
Friday, October 13, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Alexander aired again
Gaugemela fought, but never knew whether or not it was victorious...i guess yes, i guess not..Alexander aired once more, after 17 times on my computer today. Alexander had 'Tales of Troy' under his pillow when he was sleeping, but i have Alexander in my head..results out tomorrow, ya? I am feeling afraid. Alexander had prayed to Phobos, God of Fear on the eve of the battle at Gaugamela, but i will pray to my one and only God. I pray that i know how to commit tomorrow into his hands, and continue to commit my life into his hands, for my life is His, offered as an offering and i am ready to serve.
Alexander aired again
Gaugemela fought, but never knew whether or not it was victorious...i guess yes, i guess not..Alexander aired once more, after 17 times on my computer today. Alexander had 'Tales of Troy' under his pillow when he was sleeping, but i have Alexander in my head..results out tomorrow, ya? I am feeling afraid. Alexander had prayed to Phobos, God of Fear on the eve of the battle at Gaugamela, but i will pray to my one and only God. I pray that i know how to commit tomorrow into his hands, and continue to commit my life into his hands, for my life is His, offered as an offering and i am ready to serve.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Busy
tired...lack energy...so tired...yet so much to do..life i guess if you want to gain things, that will be something that is hard unless you are a super super human..work+chores = easily 10 times harder and more stressful than schoolworkdont forget, i am lagging, though exams are over, i have to catch up with the rest...i can fail this time, but i have to prevent myself from lagging more..i guess this is my first work experience, working for my dad...knew it was gonna be tough, but still i am going to over come it during the holidays. this holiday wont be so much enjoyment that i am looking forward too..but its something that will push push push push me forward to worker harder and harder in life.bought a pair of shoes today...it looks quite cool, its not for females, but it looks cool, why not? XD i dont mind. mum wanted to buy some branded leather male shoes for me but i thought they were slight too wide and heavy for me now..perhaps next yr? that would be perfect. this new pair of shoes, its just so cooli hope that God will lead me throught all these darkness soon and i fervently pray...
Busy
tired...lack energy...so tired...yet so much to do..life i guess if you want to gain things, that will be something that is hard unless you are a super super human..work+chores = easily 10 times harder and more stressful than schoolworkdont forget, i am lagging, though exams are over, i have to catch up with the rest...i can fail this time, but i have to prevent myself from lagging more..i guess this is my first work experience, working for my dad...knew it was gonna be tough, but still i am going to over come it during the holidays. this holiday wont be so much enjoyment that i am looking forward too..but its something that will push push push push me forward to worker harder and harder in life.bought a pair of shoes today...it looks quite cool, its not for females, but it looks cool, why not? XD i dont mind. mum wanted to buy some branded leather male shoes for me but i thought they were slight too wide and heavy for me now..perhaps next yr? that would be perfect. this new pair of shoes, its just so cooli hope that God will lead me throught all these darkness soon and i fervently pray...
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Harsh, thats what that was. that kind of tone you used. what am i to you? someone whom you find entertaining and thankful to have when you have no one else? and when a little favour is not met to your expectations, you just dump me? like, what am i? someone not worthy to even to be thought of? someone whom you wont share a penny of her thoughts and how she felt? how monstrous are you. how heartless are you. how cold-blooded you are. i guess i wont get all these answered because you wont ever ever admit. because in your eyes, your eyes, you seemed so perfect, so flawless, everything that happened that is bad is not your fault. you can blame it on your loved ones, you can blame it on the people who loves you so much, you can blame it on people who are you friends, but you just wouldnt put that blame which you have to shoulder on yourself.so what should i call you? cowardly? timid? or just plain innocence. but i doubt that you are innocent, i doubt that you are pure. but who am i to speak of all these? someone who thinks that is your friend, when the fact is that she is used when wanted and dumped when the uses have been taken advantage of?hahs! no! i guess, you are just thinking too small, yet too big. you are just so weak, yet so strong. people get baffled by your inner selves for they know not the true you. they thus prefer to stick to what you are on the surface. the ever laughing, ever joker, ever perfect sister in their eyes.so pray tell me, at least, what is it that disturbs you most? what gave you such, strong character, yet made you so weak? i sometimes wonder, whether your mood really changes like the weather in Sydney. or is it something like a diversion to help you with the friends whom you dont want to get close with, automaically leave you? perhaps i will never know. but it would never hurt to let me find out, at least, as a true but not surface friend of yours.this will continue, to lengthen tomorrow when the ultimate hurdle fall behind into history and as time passes, dust collects and it will be gone forever.there will still be hurdles, still be waves and storms, but i have faith that with God by my side, they can be conquered everntually one by one at a time.Dad left for Jakarta this evening and arrival time has yet been confirmed. that worry will still be there till he comes back, and we wish, soon.Just this one last post, as a pre-battle journal entry. it had looked fierce to me. and, thus from something that seemed so normal to people, i however, suffers great stresses from it. jittery, thats what i am now. Had Alexander's army along with his good faithful friend, Hephiastion felt the same on thje eve of the battle at Gaugamela? I hope this encourages me, the things that had awaited them after they had won the battle. I hope this turn-out will be owned by me soon.jittery, afraid...but fear not peers, pray. =)
Harsh, thats what that was. that kind of tone you used. what am i to you? someone whom you find entertaining and thankful to have when you have no one else? and when a little favour is not met to your expectations, you just dump me? like, what am i? someone not worthy to even to be thought of? someone whom you wont share a penny of her thoughts and how she felt? how monstrous are you. how heartless are you. how cold-blooded you are. i guess i wont get all these answered because you wont ever ever admit. because in your eyes, your eyes, you seemed so perfect, so flawless, everything that happened that is bad is not your fault. you can blame it on your loved ones, you can blame it on the people who loves you so much, you can blame it on people who are you friends, but you just wouldnt put that blame which you have to shoulder on yourself.so what should i call you? cowardly? timid? or just plain innocence. but i doubt that you are innocent, i doubt that you are pure. but who am i to speak of all these? someone who thinks that is your friend, when the fact is that she is used when wanted and dumped when the uses have been taken advantage of?hahs! no! i guess, you are just thinking too small, yet too big. you are just so weak, yet so strong. people get baffled by your inner selves for they know not the true you. they thus prefer to stick to what you are on the surface. the ever laughing, ever joker, ever perfect sister in their eyes.so pray tell me, at least, what is it that disturbs you most? what gave you such, strong character, yet made you so weak? i sometimes wonder, whether your mood really changes like the weather in Sydney. or is it something like a diversion to help you with the friends whom you dont want to get close with, automaically leave you? perhaps i will never know. but it would never hurt to let me find out, at least, as a true but not surface friend of yours.this will continue, to lengthen tomorrow when the ultimate hurdle fall behind into history and as time passes, dust collects and it will be gone forever.there will still be hurdles, still be waves and storms, but i have faith that with God by my side, they can be conquered everntually one by one at a time.Dad left for Jakarta this evening and arrival time has yet been confirmed. that worry will still be there till he comes back, and we wish, soon.Just this one last post, as a pre-battle journal entry. it had looked fierce to me. and, thus from something that seemed so normal to people, i however, suffers great stresses from it. jittery, thats what i am now. Had Alexander's army along with his good faithful friend, Hephiastion felt the same on thje eve of the battle at Gaugamela? I hope this encourages me, the things that had awaited them after they had won the battle. I hope this turn-out will be owned by me soon.jittery, afraid...but fear not peers, pray. =)
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Monday, October 09, 2006
Hahas, some people complaining that i havent linked or relinked them, but yeah, me not much time. =(anyway, wednesday's the last paper, maths, much hated maths. oh yuck. hahas, i dont why i despise maths so much, still, i have to pull through, at least through my nanyang years maybe even jc years. hahs, i dont even know whether i will still be in nanyang, but HAVE FAITH. i believe i have studied for eoys, maybe not hard enough, but still, its the hardest i have ever studied. i promise.i realise as time passes, i study harder and harder. competitive environment i guess. well, thats just life. and through competiting with yourselves or others in a competitive environment, you bring out the best of yourself. thats what i personally think/feel. might not be true anyway.i shall ask my parents to start giving me monthly allowances starting next year. allowance would be $*** per month. i counted, shouldnt be too unreasonable if i paid for my own travel expenses and ******** stuff. okcensored alot of parts, but no harm done. =)m i am going to save up. after sec 4, i am going to buy myself a laptop. =)goodie!!hahas, back to maths. toodles people.on wednesday i will be free!!
Hahas, some people complaining that i havent linked or relinked them, but yeah, me not much time. =(anyway, wednesday's the last paper, maths, much hated maths. oh yuck. hahas, i dont why i despise maths so much, still, i have to pull through, at least through my nanyang years maybe even jc years. hahs, i dont even know whether i will still be in nanyang, but HAVE FAITH. i believe i have studied for eoys, maybe not hard enough, but still, its the hardest i have ever studied. i promise.i realise as time passes, i study harder and harder. competitive environment i guess. well, thats just life. and through competiting with yourselves or others in a competitive environment, you bring out the best of yourself. thats what i personally think/feel. might not be true anyway.i shall ask my parents to start giving me monthly allowances starting next year. allowance would be $*** per month. i counted, shouldnt be too unreasonable if i paid for my own travel expenses and ******** stuff. okcensored alot of parts, but no harm done. =)m i am going to save up. after sec 4, i am going to buy myself a laptop. =)goodie!!hahas, back to maths. toodles people.on wednesday i will be free!!
Monday, October 02, 2006
Sunday, October 01, 2006
I am super stressed now ok? its 9.30 and what have i done? what have i been doing all day? why can't my parents just bring my younger sibs out?blehit seems that i am putting blame on any other beings now. i dont like it. and i cant express it. idiotic. i think i am gonna cry again. ahhh. i have been studying geog, perhaps all day. but nothing went into my mind, what kind of rubbish this is. ='(God save me. i am so scared of getting retained. lj say i am distracted half the time. quite true actually. but the point is. I DONT KNOW HOW TO. sighi am going crazy. i think so, because of stress, i hope not. i cant wait till exams are over. but i hope that i can get another week to study. but, no time left. i have about 11 hours more before i face the wrath of the papers. :'(is there a solution to all these stresses?things didnt go as well as i had planned. dad and mum didnt tell me that they were going out today. if i knew, i would have continued studying till perhaps 2 or 3 or even 4 am. i spent my energy on cooking dinner. trying to shut my sibs up. wasting half the time to study doing that. ='(boo hoo hoo. i guess i just have to stop complaining and get started in working.Phillipians 4:13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.Galatians 6:9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.A testimony..The brokenness I saw in them... the yearning to live a Christ centred life...It's useless telling Christian youths to "behave" themselves and "be a testimony" to others, especially in school, not to "strive for things that will not last" but strive for what is "eternal"...It's not about a set of do's and don'ts.It's not about the doing.It's about the being.It's about Jesus.It's about how transformation can only occur when an individual experiences that life transforming relationship.It's about how an individual gets ontologically inverted back to what it's meant to be.Then we'll suddenly see perspectives changed, that it's not about us at all.Then we'll suddenly hear of lesser crude jokes and vulgarities.Then we'll suddenly sense the strong urges to know Him more.Then we'll suddenly see them praying for their friends showing more concern for them.Basically... lives transformed.And it doesn't apply to them alone.The closets must rattle on.If you're reading this and if He prompts you that you're one of whom I'm saying this to, then you should be one: I'm so proud of you. ;')Lastly, a prayer for all those who are taking fyes along with me.Dear Heavenly Father,Thank You for the love You have for me that endures forever, and for the faithfulness that You have shown throughout my life.As the days draw near towards the all important exams, Father I pray that You will draw me even closer to You, to know that You are the God who brings me through it all.All the stresses and pressure to achieve or even to pass the papers can get a little bit daunting at times... Father I pray for strength not of myself but from You, to know that You will sustain me even as I revise my work.Teach me to commit the results into Your hands, to know that my worth as a person is not in the results that I will get, but wholly in You alone. Lord I pray for Your will to be done, not Your will for me... but Your will alone, not asking that You bless me with disctinctions... but for the results that You have purposed.Teach me day after day to know that it's not the results that matter but it is the attitude that I am putting in that testifies. Lord I acknowledge that it is very easy for me to succumb to peer pressure, but I also know that Holy Spirit You are in me to guide me and rise above the temptations to simply follow along.Grant me wisdom in the way I uphold myself as Your child... so that others may see the difference. Above all, grant me closeness to You, that I may continually commit everything into Your hands.In Jesus' most precious name.Amen.
I am super stressed now ok? its 9.30 and what have i done? what have i been doing all day? why can't my parents just bring my younger sibs out?blehit seems that i am putting blame on any other beings now. i dont like it. and i cant express it. idiotic. i think i am gonna cry again. ahhh. i have been studying geog, perhaps all day. but nothing went into my mind, what kind of rubbish this is. ='(God save me. i am so scared of getting retained. lj say i am distracted half the time. quite true actually. but the point is. I DONT KNOW HOW TO. sighi am going crazy. i think so, because of stress, i hope not. i cant wait till exams are over. but i hope that i can get another week to study. but, no time left. i have about 11 hours more before i face the wrath of the papers. :'(is there a solution to all these stresses?things didnt go as well as i had planned. dad and mum didnt tell me that they were going out today. if i knew, i would have continued studying till perhaps 2 or 3 or even 4 am. i spent my energy on cooking dinner. trying to shut my sibs up. wasting half the time to study doing that. ='(boo hoo hoo. i guess i just have to stop complaining and get started in working.Phillipians 4:13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.Galatians 6:9Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.A testimony..The brokenness I saw in them... the yearning to live a Christ centred life...It's useless telling Christian youths to "behave" themselves and "be a testimony" to others, especially in school, not to "strive for things that will not last" but strive for what is "eternal"...It's not about a set of do's and don'ts.It's not about the doing.It's about the being.It's about Jesus.It's about how transformation can only occur when an individual experiences that life transforming relationship.It's about how an individual gets ontologically inverted back to what it's meant to be.Then we'll suddenly see perspectives changed, that it's not about us at all.Then we'll suddenly hear of lesser crude jokes and vulgarities.Then we'll suddenly sense the strong urges to know Him more.Then we'll suddenly see them praying for their friends showing more concern for them.Basically... lives transformed.And it doesn't apply to them alone.The closets must rattle on.If you're reading this and if He prompts you that you're one of whom I'm saying this to, then you should be one: I'm so proud of you. ;')Lastly, a prayer for all those who are taking fyes along with me.Dear Heavenly Father,Thank You for the love You have for me that endures forever, and for the faithfulness that You have shown throughout my life.As the days draw near towards the all important exams, Father I pray that You will draw me even closer to You, to know that You are the God who brings me through it all.All the stresses and pressure to achieve or even to pass the papers can get a little bit daunting at times... Father I pray for strength not of myself but from You, to know that You will sustain me even as I revise my work.Teach me to commit the results into Your hands, to know that my worth as a person is not in the results that I will get, but wholly in You alone. Lord I pray for Your will to be done, not Your will for me... but Your will alone, not asking that You bless me with disctinctions... but for the results that You have purposed.Teach me day after day to know that it's not the results that matter but it is the attitude that I am putting in that testifies. Lord I acknowledge that it is very easy for me to succumb to peer pressure, but I also know that Holy Spirit You are in me to guide me and rise above the temptations to simply follow along.Grant me wisdom in the way I uphold myself as Your child... so that others may see the difference. Above all, grant me closeness to You, that I may continually commit everything into Your hands.In Jesus' most precious name.Amen.
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