Tuesday, February 27, 2007
hello world
i realised that i blog too much. i do that when i am stressed, though it doesn't help me in anyway. i just like to blabber. ok. so i am screwed.
i screwed up my LA period first thing in the morning. from msteo's look, i knew that i have said the wrong thing. the fact remains, i finished my LA raft. AND that well. i read TKAM. :( miss teo said that they mentioned the mrunas in the book. well of course they did, but honestly right. i dont think there was much. only a page. :( well. argh. i made three wrong moves today during LA, thus screwing up my LA period. then homeecons. well, we got 11 for overall upon 15. still ok. hahas. in fact i think it was quite good, because many people got like 9 or 8. okkk. after lunch. math. i have to see mrtan cause i am still blur about maths. but i cant squeeze out anytime at all. i mean, now i am gobbling 3 meals within 5 min so that i wont be hungry for the rest of the day.
AH. i really dont know why. but everything is oh so screwed. yessss. i got 3/10 for my chemical equations test btw. how bad is that. i must learn to be a mugger like siwen or i will not survive my nanyang years, let alone hwachong years. :(
i have a blocked nose now. i have a bad headache now. i have fever now. and all these sicknesses, in a sense, makes me feel like vomiting blood. rarh. enough problems already lah!!!!
i really feel very pek chek now lorh. its like charlotte doesnt give a damn about the toilet thing. its like 204 doesnt give a damn about the whole thing. no initiative. just put up an act when they have to. yuck. how i hate their attitude. garh.
today was no easy day. i'd be glad when april is over then i can focus on the missionary trip, election and my results. i must learn to be a mugger!
today morning i was so determined to hate msteo. i thought she was way too harsh. i was so determined to hate charlotte. i was so determined to hate almost everyone involved in the lsc comm. i was so determined to hate wangyue. i was so determined to hate almost everyone. but when i decided to cool down, which took a relatively long time. i thought i shouldnt allow myself to hate anyone. or dislike, just because they did things unpleasant to me.
i must have made some wrongs moves first. oh well. i did. but still. yeah. when i allowed myself to hate amanda. i carried on with a heart full of hatred for about 3 months. i was mean to her. and now that i have realised it. i thought i was awful. it was bad experience. i dont want to make life miserable for me just because i dislike someone. it's no good feeling. you have to trust me.
learn to love. yes, it takes a lot to love, while a little to hate. but hate isnt pleasant, AT ALL. especially when u hate someone with feelings. its no good feeling. miserable. that's the word.
yup. a that's all for now. i feel as screwed as ever. but at least, i ranted something bottled up in me.
the feeling's good. i don't feel that miserable anymore. that's the good thing of having a blog. it helps a lot. sighhh
life goes on. there are problems to tackle. but i have to remember to tackle it with a faithful heart. its time to turn to God again.
realise when things get screwed, i am without God?
i screwed up my LA period first thing in the morning. from msteo's look, i knew that i have said the wrong thing. the fact remains, i finished my LA raft. AND that well. i read TKAM. :( miss teo said that they mentioned the mrunas in the book. well of course they did, but honestly right. i dont think there was much. only a page. :( well. argh. i made three wrong moves today during LA, thus screwing up my LA period. then homeecons. well, we got 11 for overall upon 15. still ok. hahas. in fact i think it was quite good, because many people got like 9 or 8. okkk. after lunch. math. i have to see mrtan cause i am still blur about maths. but i cant squeeze out anytime at all. i mean, now i am gobbling 3 meals within 5 min so that i wont be hungry for the rest of the day.
AH. i really dont know why. but everything is oh so screwed. yessss. i got 3/10 for my chemical equations test btw. how bad is that. i must learn to be a mugger like siwen or i will not survive my nanyang years, let alone hwachong years. :(
i have a blocked nose now. i have a bad headache now. i have fever now. and all these sicknesses, in a sense, makes me feel like vomiting blood. rarh. enough problems already lah!!!!
i really feel very pek chek now lorh. its like charlotte doesnt give a damn about the toilet thing. its like 204 doesnt give a damn about the whole thing. no initiative. just put up an act when they have to. yuck. how i hate their attitude. garh.
today was no easy day. i'd be glad when april is over then i can focus on the missionary trip, election and my results. i must learn to be a mugger!
today morning i was so determined to hate msteo. i thought she was way too harsh. i was so determined to hate charlotte. i was so determined to hate almost everyone involved in the lsc comm. i was so determined to hate wangyue. i was so determined to hate almost everyone. but when i decided to cool down, which took a relatively long time. i thought i shouldnt allow myself to hate anyone. or dislike, just because they did things unpleasant to me.
i must have made some wrongs moves first. oh well. i did. but still. yeah. when i allowed myself to hate amanda. i carried on with a heart full of hatred for about 3 months. i was mean to her. and now that i have realised it. i thought i was awful. it was bad experience. i dont want to make life miserable for me just because i dislike someone. it's no good feeling. you have to trust me.
learn to love. yes, it takes a lot to love, while a little to hate. but hate isnt pleasant, AT ALL. especially when u hate someone with feelings. its no good feeling. miserable. that's the word.
yup. a that's all for now. i feel as screwed as ever. but at least, i ranted something bottled up in me.
the feeling's good. i don't feel that miserable anymore. that's the good thing of having a blog. it helps a lot. sighhh
life goes on. there are problems to tackle. but i have to remember to tackle it with a faithful heart. its time to turn to God again.
realise when things get screwed, i am without God?
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