spring onion

i am in a lousy mood.

due to the deprivation of sleep.
lousy friends.
backstabbers.
stress.
work.
idiots.

and i am serious. and i am in a super lousy mood now. not that i am in a bad mood. but lousy. check the dictionary for the difference. i am feeling so indifferent to people now. so i won't talk to anyone. i won't care or bother to reply tags. and i hope no one bothers to read my blog too.

lousy lousy lousy.

i dont know why too.

it all just came back to me.

and i am squashed.

and i am sure you'd love to see me squashed flat, like piak. on the floor. but i am sorry to say, i won't let you see me in this sorry state. because i can live without you. i can live with your hate notes. i can live with you backstabbing me. because i am strong. unlike you. having to survive by backstabbing and speaking ill of people. it's not the first time.

i hate people who are attention seekers.
i hate people who do that in front of me.
and i toleterate.

i hate people who backstab.
i hate people who are dumb.
you dumb because you publicised her death
when it was supposed to be kept quiet.

fools filled world.
i can't wait to go to Heaven.
i hope i die in a car-crash.
or even, some stupid 3 secs heart attack.
maybe asthma attack for 1 sec would do me good too.

:(

i am depressed but i am not admitting it.
i hate sad smileys.
i shall delete all sad smileys i saved in my computer.
no matter how cute they are.
i dont care because they make me feel even worse
i want to see happy smileys.=)
they make me feel good.
and happy.
i do not need drugs
or cigarettes to be happy.
i just need a yellow room.
full of smileys.
so next birthday
if you even bother to give me a card.
dont buy it.
just paint the paper yellow.
and draw lots of smiley on it. like this.


















or even better. no cards, alrights. cups then. happy faces cups, like this.

it'd be cool to drink stuff from this. ok. i am happy now. =))

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