spring onion

I am desperate because:

1. i need to find a really nice clean/neat skin for my blog. hahas, seemed really unlike me to have such a thing to be desperate for...sentence structure is weird, I KNOW. hahas, but that doesnt change the fact that I am desperate for one nice skin. i mean, something clean like...i dont know? church blog? but yeah, i dont want to be sued for copyright. hehs, that was just an excuse...

2.i am in need of money, to buy stuff. stuff like...i dont know? hardly seems like i am someone who NEEDS to shop for clothes. but yeah, my mum's getting onto me. today i went out with her. in the end, we went shopping for clothes. honestly, i dont mind. but...she wanted me to try some, orange t-shirt with frillllllyy sleeves. not that i objest HER wearing it..but she wanted to buy it for me. if i ever wear that, pigs can fly and the sky can fall. okay, i am not suppose to say that but...sigh, at least understand my taste of er, clothes? maybe its not that she doesnt understand what i prefer to wear, you know those nice polo tees with buttons and decent sleeves and collars and not those ones which are V-cut (like ny school new school PE shirt). okay, i hate those. i really dont understand why can people ever like them? its just so yucky. anyway, i like those which are like ny's old pe t-shirts. maybe, without the logo. =)) that would eb really nice. next. i. dont. like. golden. jeans. whoa, if one day i wear that, pigs can fly x2 and sky can fall x2. anyways, mum was nice, she bought me some green/brown long pants with pockets. =)) i mean, LOADS of pockets. along the sides.

3.i need a piece of plastic, firm ones, like those you can find along the sides of baby cots so that babies wont bite into the wood and swallow the polish so that i can put it on my table like jiaen's and put some monthly calendar there...so that i dont have to dig through my drawers just to equip myself with some calendar. and I NEED TO PACK MY TABLE. its so freaking messy. oops, i didnt meant the use freaky. well, but it is. i find it hard to work. yeah...i would love to have a small table. that would limit the amount of stationary i like to buy. not that stationaries are collectibles, but i find myslef buying loads of them when i have mesos and dont need to buy other things. hahas. that was lame, but yeah, its true.

4.i need to BUCK UP. guzheng exam is...22 days away? and i leave my scores untouched, my exam pieces unpracticed. okays...and this years' marks, bet i did really badly. sigh, i must buck up, music wise or academic wise.

5.i needa read loads of books to equip myself with KNOWLEDGE! hahas. that was sorta lame.

6.lastly and most importantly, i need God's touch. i havent been doing quiet time well and what i do is do it in a heck-carish way. ='( i need to pray ALOT.

sigh, desperate. i need to come out with 2007 resolutions really soon. and 14 year old resolutions too. my birthday is just about 2-3 months away. sec 2...more work..whats more streaming. to get into my desired stream:
-pure biology and chemistry
-literature and history elective

i have to work SO hard! judging my my sec 1 overall, of course. i must push myself. dad said that i can do well if i have to discipline to my work. i am not a workholic. but going to such a school is...no escape for tonnes of practices and revision and hard work. i was still thinking of going to cambridge. ny's passing mark is 60%, cambridge's 70%.

well, if i can get into cambridge, it must really be God's grace...judging by the kind of qualities i have, i am suited only to go to..? i dont know...nowhere? hahas. okay.