spring onion

The remaining of the 47 days
how will i spend them?
mulling over you?

oh no, i shouldnt
a waste of time,
tears

it shows that i have about 50 days left
before the end of my holidays
and i will be with you
for only less than 47 days

before you leave
perhaps forever
never coming back

has this become so serious?
i have no idea
but i think so

let me just forget about it
but i dont think i will
ever
get over you...

i;d like to say bye
but seems that i cant bear to
when will i?

or will i?

i want you to come up to me
tell me those three words
and talk to me

like we used to
before you became busy
blocking me from your life

its saddening
perhaps you will never know
and just treat me
like anyone else.

but i dont want that




didnt get to talk to ben today. decided that i would be good, have my dinner, practice guzheng before watching tv. i cant believe guzheng exam is only 26 days away. its scary. i dont know what will it be like. i am so afraid that i will freak out. yes i mean it, freak out. oh sheesh. then my dream of getting distinction will go poof.

argh. stomach ache. too much nutella and bad bread, i think. hahas. was trying to help my sis, but end up causing real bad troubles.

i shouldnt be so addicted to internet. :) i shall try to be a good girl. but its hard. but like what ms Teo said, if you want to do well, make sure you want it badly enough. and yes, i wanted so badly for an A in la, and i did it for eoys! for the whole year, i have been getting 60 and below. getting an A is a miracle. yes, a miracle of God. and thats when God comes into the picture.

i love revelations. its just so interesting. I am waiting for the second coming of the Lord. and i pray that i will be ready by then. i want to see Jesus! and yes! i must! i must see Jesus! i must see Jesus destroy the evil and the non-believers. no one knows when the second coming of the Lord is, no one, not even Jesus. Only the Father. yes, the Father. lets pray that salvation will happen!

=))