spring onion

Sunday, November 27, 2005

my dear sis is sick. made me so sad. loads of bad things coming on the way, i think. i am vexed enough. first, i only got 252 for PSLE. and i know that my parents have higher expectations. i really don't know what to do. i just know that they are disappointed with me. i am disappointed with myself too. i just cant think of a better reason to explain why i did so badly. secondly, i didnt get scholarship. which means, school fees, $200 per month and $750 per year because of IP. and $105 per year because i signed up for the school bus service to the MOELC because i will be taking french. so much money involved. i calculated. if i had got scholarship, i would be able to save my parents $8976 throughout my life in nanyang. thirdly, i have some regrets of applying for nanyang during the DSA. if i had not been admitted, i will surely put crescent girls as my first choice and leave the rest of the choices BLANK. haiz. so much worries and so vexed. and there are stil people bothering me. there are things which i cant help it and there are things that you cant help it. and obviously, these bothersome people cant wait to bother me. maybe another day? haiz.