spring onion

cherie. you MUST wake up from this idea.
cherie. you MUST work 10 times harder.
cherie. you MUST learn to be determined.
cherie. you MUST perservere.
cherie. you MUST be strong.
cherie. you MUST be tough.
cherie. you MUST be harsh on yourself.
cherie. you MUST stand on your own two feet.
cherie. you MUST learn to be able to take burdens.
cherie. you MUST learn not to succumb under pressure.
cherie. you MUST not say, 'i can't'.
cherie. you MUST persevere to the end.

because you have to.
they need you. and you can't give up like that. you must learn not to cry because you feel like you cant take it anymore. cherie. you are strong. you are that pillar. and a strong, good pillar never falls. you have to be that pillar because it is your job. when he is not here, it is your job. you cannot forsake them.

you cannot forsake them just to have your own pleasures. you must not forsake them because you are selfish. you must learn to share and not yield. you must learn to bear everything, bear with everything. because you are the only foundation this place has left. learn to stand on your two feet. learn to be independent. learn to lead. learn lift people up if you have to.

learn to prioritise. learn not to shout. learn not to lose your temper. learn to be able to take in everything. every insult that poured from her mouth.

learn learn learn. and God will help you. God will give you this wisdom.

you and you alone can do what he can and no other can. the others weak, you're strong.

stand up. and fight.