spring onion

uneventful day. today is the second day that i've done nothing productive. first day was
wednesday, and today is the second day. well. :/

i feel. heh awful? physically and well, mentally too.

physically because i am sticky and sweaty all over, and yes...still too lazy to drag myself to the toilet to have a shower.

mentally because i haven't really done anything the whole day to help myself pull my grades up. the only productive thing i've done the whole day was to clean up my computer and free up 1GB of space by deleting useless files. its much neater now, my files and everything. :) i shall learn to save everything in the intended folders and not on the desktop and months later, endup deleting everything (important and non-important files alike). i really really need to learn to organise. anyways. i'm keeping a diary now! diary as in a book to record what to do everyday luh. its not exactly neat, but at least its useful and help me remember what i need to do althought i still tend to procrastinate. heh.

anyway. watched some television programmes. :) quite interesting. the tv was on from 6pm-8.30pm. not bad eyy. :) better than in the past, 5-7 hours straight in front of the tv. fridays and weekends only. :) i'm not that bad. and i've been missing a lot of cca practices so well. you can't expect how my exam pieces sound like. ah! how?

got to do work. really. must really force myself to sit down there and do everything. whether it kills me or not. well, i really dont have a choice now, don't i?

woke up today morning, wanting to lock myself in school the whole day, until 5pm - that's when the library closes, then i come home. just in time to catch an uncrowded bus home. but my hopes are dashed. i overslept. actually i woke up. but i fell asleep again. so...you can expect what next. nothing. so today i practically did nothing. so i shall do work later. i editted the class' script though. :)

i've got a lot of things to say about a lot of issues. but still. i shall decide where i shall pen my thoughts. :)

about this 'emo' thing going on. i think this term has been, largely abused. okay, even the word
has been abused. emo is the short form of emotional. and what's the definition of emotional?

1. pertaining to or involving emotion or the emotions.
2. subject to or easily affected by emotion: We are an emotional family, given to demonstrations of affection.
3. appealing to the emotions: an emotional request for contributions.
4. showing or revealing very strong emotions: an emotional scene in a play.
5. actuated, effected, or determined by emotion rather than reason: An emotional decision is
often a wrong decision.
6. governed by emotion: He is in a highly emotional state of mind.

okay then, what's the meaning of emotion.

1. an affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.
2. any of the feelings of joy, sorrow, fear, hate, love, etc.
3. any strong agitation of the feelings actuated by experiencing love, hate, fear, etc., and usually accompanied by certain physiological changes, as increased heartbeat or respiration, and often overt manifestation, as crying or shaking.
4. an instance of this.
5. something that causes such a reaction: the powerful emotion of a great symphony.

joy, sorrow, fear or hate. i feel emo here, emo there. when people are pensieve, even like me, sometimes, people go, is that even cherie? pensieve. only penning down his or her thoughts, 
deep in thoughts, trying to figure something out. trying to observe something. that's being emotional? joy. sorrow. fear and hate. it seems like now only the emotion sorrow is being considered as a emotional feeling. what about joy? in the past 2 years, i can swear that i haven't been seeing anyone describe someone who is happy as emotional. maybe not, maybe when the person's tears of joy comes flowing that we'd 'classify' him or her as being emotional.

when someone gets a little bit, teeny weeny down then we say, eh, dont emo leh. you emo i also emo. like what on earth?! i won't deny that sometimes even i use the term emo inappropriately. but still.

just yesterday i was just preparing a sunday school lesson about not being affected or influenced by the negatives, such that you stop praying and all because you get carried away by the material world and all.

and today i just felt like talking about this. i've a lot to say about a lot of things so they just keep coming for me to pen it down sometimes. i dont have a habit of writing my emotions down
because they will end upas gibberish that no one on earth can understand. so it'll be much better if everything was typed out.

i've been trying to refrain myself from going online too much. like 15min a day. online as in on
msn.

anyways, till then. and photos the next time i post. :)