spring onion

I have this superior whom i meet at work everyday, or rather, when i go to work. but the funny thing is, he always knows what am i doing, where am i, why did i not turn up for work today, where did i go to escape work etc etc etc.

i never knew why, and i never understood why, and i didnt know that he was that, resourceful? powerful, shall we say. He knew exactly what was i doing/thinking. and i did not know that this mighty mighty boss even existed when i just started working in his company.

i only found out about him 2 years ago. but i certainly had heard rumours about him when i went to work some 4 years ago. i never believed in his existence.

until one day, when i MIA for a long long time. and he decided to look me up, at my home. He came and told me to go back to work in his company, believe that being in his company would be the best thing that could happen. i mean, he's so nice and kind. imagine if your dad did not turn up for work for say, a few years? and yet his boss still do not fire him. weird, right? but yeah, my boss was THAT weird. he even came to my house when he rules like, billions or even gazillions in his great big wonderful office. i felt so honoured that i just broke down and cry. perhaps the word is a little bit not modern, but still i must say that he was extremely merciful. anyway, i decided to go back to work. i as so touched that i just broke down at his feet and started crying. a little bit dramatic, but yes. i was extremely touched.

anyway, i went back to work. i was extremely hardworking for a while. you know, when he came down personally to my home to invite me back to work, i was so touched. i was so honoured. i was something in his eyes. some one in his eyes, i was worthy for this great man to not just look at me, but hear me explain why i failed to turn up for work. i was worthy to him that i deserve his forgiveness and and everything else that he was offering me. 

but soon after that, i slacked. i no longer feel proud for who am i. i started to do all sorts of bad things to attract his attention and all. hoping that he'll come to visit my home again. but what i never knew then was that he was always always looking at what i was doing.

soon, when my efforts did not pay off, i decided that i'll just stop coming to work. since i'm no longer worthy in his eyes, i might as well just stop working for him.

what i never knew was, he never stopped looking out for me.

and He, is God. He, is Jesus.

i want to continue to work in His kingdom. i dont want to be someone who is always not turning up for work. I do not want to be a
part time worker. i want to work there full time.

oh God, bring me back. let me experience you again.

you know, he is so merciful that he WILL forgive you of all your impurities and unrighteousness if you confess your sins. he will overlook all your imperfections and love you as much as you
deserve the love that he pours out unto you.

He knocked on my door and i took ages to answer Him. don't let Him wait, he will always be knocking until you open your door and open your heart to Him and invite Him into you.

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