spring onion

i am giving things up, cause i can't face it up on my own, i can't do all these on my own it's too much a burden for me to carry alone on my back.

there's all these academic stuff and on top of all that there are certain issues that havent been ironed out and obviously, i am disturbed. the very person typing out this post is super duper disturbed. she doesnt know what to do and what how to rebut. she can't breathe because she is weighed down by responsibilities which she is gladly taking up but apparently, she isn't having a great time.

i want to serve other people, but i can't do it on my own. i remember during youth camp '06 ps david said about what is joy.

jESUS
oTHERS
yOURSELF

and there you go, joy, joy. i am trying very hard, but it still isnt ironed out yet. i aint having enough sleep, am suffering from the pressure of putting people before myself and in the end get pushed around. its weighing down heavily and she appeals to all to pray for her. i need God's strength. I need Him to grant me strength and courage, that i can continue running this race for Him.

my fuel is running low,
and God is going to top it up for me.
I am tired, God take over the steering wheel and lets me rest at the backseat.
God controls my life and i likes it.

i better sleep, unless i want to miss my stop like last week. oh crap.