spring onion

i've been having nightmares. trust me, they're not pleasant.

after yesterday's rehearsal, i had a nightmare when i slept. i dreamt about getting groceries in the end, i walked into a shop with thousands and millions and zillions of batons. i woke up and cried myself to sleep.

i dont know what's wrong.

and i really do feel like crying now. rarh. what's wrong.

about conducting this friday. i mean, really. i hate it when laoshi gets angry, especially after concert and syf. and i think judging by how i conduct and how we play, we all are going to vomit blood tomorrow or something. can the concert be like next week?

then homework is another. mr tan gave me extra homework on top of math. is to find out about guzheng dimensions and yada. sheesh

then all these crappy things. not exactly crappy. but i'm getting sick of all these confusion and questions and whatever doubts i have.

this sounds reasonable and has nothing to do with you, BUT. can't you just come online? i seriously need to talk.