Tuesday, April 10, 2007
you did not stand in her shoes.
miserably miserable.
i think today was a wake up call, for all of us. nanyang guzheng, that is.
reflect. and now its not the time to give up and feel incompetent. learn from our mistakes and never ever do it again. for you've seen how heart wrenching the whole process will become.
during today's practice i was really emotional, but not in the positive sense. emotional because why had things got to turn out like that until we finally pushed ourselves to give it a thought.
we did "to kill a mockingbird". one of my most favourite quotes in there,
"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view . . . until you climb into his skin and walk around in it."
did we try to consider things from others' point of view?
did we try to climb into his/her skin and walk around in it?
how would you feel if you had to ask your students, have you been giving me enough respect?
yes, i think we all agree that respect has to be earned. but what about basic respect?
a few weeks ago, i posted something and impulsive on the cca blog about seniors being in competent. i was told, that although respect has to be earned, but being a junior, you still have to give that senior respect because of her status. let alone a teacher. a teacher that's not normal, a teacher whom we all should respect, a teacher who always go an extra mile to help us, who always put in her bests for us all. and yet, we do not give her the respect she should get, not even the basic.
now that students are getting more and more individualistic, we tend to forget about the people around us. you have a different approach or opinion for things. you have a common goal yet a different journey to reach it. but we are a team. and we should behave like a team. we should know what our conductor/instructor expects from us, we should know how should we meet her expectations. you did not stand in her shoes.
you also don't go, hey yadayada is not listening to laoshi, so i do not have to listen to laoshi. you should at least know what you should do when someone else is speaking out there and not let that person yell and scream at you before you settle down. again, you did not stand in her shoes.
until now, at 11pm, i still have mixed emotions/feelings. being someone who needs a long time to react to things that affect my emotions, i have yet sorted out my thoughts yet. and again being someone who gets emotionally and mentally affected easily, i think this will stay with me for life. and i must say, it will be a constant reminder for me, to learn how to stand in others' shoes.
i think, to allow things to get to this state, the call is strong enough for us. i hope from today onwards, we don't just say okay okay okay and not do what we 'okay-ed' to.
saying okay is like making a promise. and not carrying out what you agreed to and made clear that you have understood is as bad as breaking a promise. and breaking too many promises is very hard for someone to bear.
imagine your dad promised you an icecream a day, or even, an extra dollar for pocketmoney a day. what is it like if he were to delay your icecream supply? what is it like if he were to delay your raise in pocket money.
the promise he made, is equals to bullshit. because him saying it is equals to him not saying it, because you did not see the action.
think about the music you play the next time you practice. don't just blindly practice whereby you do not even know which piece are you playing, whether you are into the music, whether you are playing the right thing.
honestly speaking, i still can't get over what happened today. and i must say i think this is the second time ever i cried in front of a crowd of about 40 people, other than in church.
we all make mistakes, we all are not perfect. and we cannot be perfect. but in terms of music, in terms of arts, since you have binded an everlasting contract with guzheng, with music, you do the job well. you might not win the hearts of others, you might not win the hearts of the judges during syf, but only you yourself know whether you have moved yourself.
i think today was a wake up call, for all of us. nanyang guzheng, that is.
reflect. and now its not the time to give up and feel incompetent. learn from our mistakes and never ever do it again. for you've seen how heart wrenching the whole process will become.
during today's practice i was really emotional, but not in the positive sense. emotional because why had things got to turn out like that until we finally pushed ourselves to give it a thought.
we did "to kill a mockingbird". one of my most favourite quotes in there,
"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view . . . until you climb into his skin and walk around in it."
did we try to consider things from others' point of view?
did we try to climb into his/her skin and walk around in it?
how would you feel if you had to ask your students, have you been giving me enough respect?
yes, i think we all agree that respect has to be earned. but what about basic respect?
a few weeks ago, i posted something and impulsive on the cca blog about seniors being in competent. i was told, that although respect has to be earned, but being a junior, you still have to give that senior respect because of her status. let alone a teacher. a teacher that's not normal, a teacher whom we all should respect, a teacher who always go an extra mile to help us, who always put in her bests for us all. and yet, we do not give her the respect she should get, not even the basic.
now that students are getting more and more individualistic, we tend to forget about the people around us. you have a different approach or opinion for things. you have a common goal yet a different journey to reach it. but we are a team. and we should behave like a team. we should know what our conductor/instructor expects from us, we should know how should we meet her expectations. you did not stand in her shoes.
you also don't go, hey yadayada is not listening to laoshi, so i do not have to listen to laoshi. you should at least know what you should do when someone else is speaking out there and not let that person yell and scream at you before you settle down. again, you did not stand in her shoes.
until now, at 11pm, i still have mixed emotions/feelings. being someone who needs a long time to react to things that affect my emotions, i have yet sorted out my thoughts yet. and again being someone who gets emotionally and mentally affected easily, i think this will stay with me for life. and i must say, it will be a constant reminder for me, to learn how to stand in others' shoes.
i think, to allow things to get to this state, the call is strong enough for us. i hope from today onwards, we don't just say okay okay okay and not do what we 'okay-ed' to.
saying okay is like making a promise. and not carrying out what you agreed to and made clear that you have understood is as bad as breaking a promise. and breaking too many promises is very hard for someone to bear.
imagine your dad promised you an icecream a day, or even, an extra dollar for pocketmoney a day. what is it like if he were to delay your icecream supply? what is it like if he were to delay your raise in pocket money.
the promise he made, is equals to bullshit. because him saying it is equals to him not saying it, because you did not see the action.
think about the music you play the next time you practice. don't just blindly practice whereby you do not even know which piece are you playing, whether you are into the music, whether you are playing the right thing.
honestly speaking, i still can't get over what happened today. and i must say i think this is the second time ever i cried in front of a crowd of about 40 people, other than in church.
we all make mistakes, we all are not perfect. and we cannot be perfect. but in terms of music, in terms of arts, since you have binded an everlasting contract with guzheng, with music, you do the job well. you might not win the hearts of others, you might not win the hearts of the judges during syf, but only you yourself know whether you have moved yourself.
// posted by My name is Oherie. @ 10:40 pm 
Subscribe to Posts [Atom]